A love too far gone (The Outsiders) [ch.5] ~YAOI/SLASH~ [Curtiscest]

WARNING: SLASH AND YAOI MEANS BOY ON BOY DON'T LIKE DON'T READ!!!!!!!!!!!
Ponyboys p.o.v

Soda had stayed in our room for almost two hours and I was starting to get worried. Well more worried than I was before anyways. I was still spooked by how bad his wounds looked.

“He’ll be okay Pony” said Johnny while touching my arm.

“Yeah I know but this is Soda he didn’t deserve this” I replied hoping I didn’t sound like a kid scared of the Monster under my bed.

“Ponyboy we both know he didn’t deserve this but those damn Socs don’t care they only see the grease in our hair and the money we don’t have.”

I nodded this conversation was getting us no where. We all hated how the Socs treated us greasers there was no sense in continuously agreeing with each other if you’re trying to fix a problem.

“How was your doctors’ appointment?” I asked breaking the silence.

“It was okay Dally won’t talk to me because I haven’t been doing the aerobics.” Johnny replied seeming sad. If only Dallas knew how much he mattered to Johnny cakes.

“Why not Johnny you need to get that muscle mass back.”

“I know but it hurts.”

“It does?”

“Yeah I’m supposed do to stretches and it feels like my back wants to split and then I’m supposed to run a bit afterwards but I usually quit before then.”

“Jeez Johnny cakes you tell the doctor about it.”

“Yeah he told me it’d get better after awhile of sticking with the routine.”

Johnny shook his head in disappointment. I couldn’t blame him the doctor wasn’t telling him what he needed to hear and I didn’t know what that was. We talked for a little bit more but not much else was said. Soon it was one in the after noon and the gang was eating lunch. Devilled egg sandwiches and spam sandwiches. Darry refused to touch the spam sandwiches saying ‘That stuffs got enough salt and fat to make bacon jealous!’ We all laughed at that. Darry had been opening up to the gang more and cracking jokes once in awhile. It was nice to see his once icy pale greenish blue eyes glitter with happiness.

“Hey Pony take this to Soda okay?” Darry asked while handing me a plate of spam sandwiches, Sodas favorite.

“Yeah I’ll do it.”

“Thanks.”

He looked around the kitchen and seeing that no one else from the gang was there kissed my forehead making me blush scarlet. I was tempted to give him a quick peck on the lips but I chickened out. I didn’t want one of the guys to walk in. I took the sandwiches to mine and Sodas room. He was in a light sleep so I placed the sandwiches on the bedside table and gently shook his shoulder.

“Mmph what is it?” He asked drowsily.

“It’s me Soda I brought lunch.” His eyes snapped open and he tried to sit up but faltered so I had him sit back against the head board before I handed him the plate.

“Thanks Pony.”

“No problem.”

Soda was still grimacing a bit with each breath he took and it only made me even more worried about him. He ate slowly between labored breaths. It looked like he was in a lot of pain. My eyes met his and I looked away embarrassed about staring.

“Are you okay Pony?” I could almost laugh at the irony that Soda was the one asking me if I was okay when he was as injured as he was.

“Yeah I’m just worried about you.”

“Oh don’t be it’s only a few ribs that are bugging me Darry’s taking me to the Hospital tomorrow okay?”

“Maybe he could take you there today sometime?”

“Maybe don’t worry so much Pony it ain’t good for you.”

“Yeah okay call me if ya need me right?”

“Yep go have fun with the gang I’m gonna try and sleep this off some more.”

I left the room letting Soda eat and rest. The rest of the gang was in the living room watching some sport. I noticed Dally was missing but remembering what Johnny said earlier that wasn’t a big surprise to me.

Dally’s p.o.v

I left after Superman started handing out sandwiches. I didn’t feel like having sandwiches for lunch. Besides Johnny’s doctors’ appointment had pissed me off. Its simple exercises. Johnny mentioned that the exercises had hurt a bit. Just a bit. I almost punched him. Almost. I could never punch Johnny. He’s like the puppy who’s the runt of the litter. Parents don’t want him but everyone else thinks he’s fricken adorable. Hell even I think so even if I won’t admit it to anyone. He’s always been the gangs pet. My pet to.

I decided to head to The Dingo. I could probably get some food in my gut there.

Sodas p.o.v

I had been stuck in mine and Ponys bed a couple hours. I wasn’t able to eat much of the sandwiches Pony brought me. Even though there my favorite. My ribs were still hurting me. I guess I deserved it after what happened earlier. Ponyboy couldn’t even look me in the eyes. I sure as hell hoped he wouldn’t tell Darry. I couldn’t stand it if both my brothers hated my guts. I’ve had nightmares about Darry and Pony hating me and other nightmares when I didn’t even matter to them. I think them not even caring that I existed was the worse. I felt tears well up in my eyes and I wiped them away impatiently. I wasn’t going to be the cry baby of the gang.

I got out of bed slowly for a glass of water. The gang was watching TV in the living room so decided not to bother them. I reached for a glass but groaned when lifting my arm moved my ribs. Maybe I did need to go to the hospital today. I used one of the dining chairs as a stool to reach the glasses easier.

“Soda what the hell are you doing?” I jumped at the sound of Darry’s voice and wobbled on the chair before he caught me from falling.

“I’m trying to get a drink of water.” I said struggling to keep the blush off my face as Darry held me for the second time that day.

“If ya need something just ask next time me or Pony will get it for ya.”

“I know but I didn’t want to bother you guys.”

“Soda don’t be stupid you’re hurt we want to help.” I nodded feeling kind of bad that I worried him.

Darry got me a glass of water and told me to go back to bed. I guess I could try and sleep some more but I doubted I could.

Ponyboys p.o.v

Me and Johnny watched TV for awhile but neither of us were really into watching sports so we started heading to the movie house. Before we left I checked the clock. ‘7:00 pm shouldn’t be too late when I get back.’

It was a longer walk then the nightly double but it was worth it. It was small and tidy. Little kids didn’t go there because the concession stand didn’t have a huge candy selection so we didn’t have to listen to them while trying to watch a movie. They played rare movies some were from other countries. This one time me and Johnny had watched a Japanese cartoon. The characters spoke English even though the mouths didn’t always match the words. I forget what it was called but it was pretty cool.

It took us twenty minutes to reach the old building. A poster surrounded by flashing lights caught our attention. It was another Japanese Cartoon. A boy with black hair wearing red and riding a red motorcycle. The title was in Japanese but the main characters name was Kaneda.

We paid for our tickets and got two cokes a bag of popcorn and two chocolate bars before getting seats in the middle row. The place was deserted except for a group of middle class girls and a few guys sitting in the back.

The movie started and everyone was quiet. I was into the storyline from the beginning. I guess I could relate to the characters being in a gang. Even if ours lacked tuff bikes or scientific experiments. (Thank god for the last one.)

We left the theater still holding the snacks we bought. We were so into the movie we forgot we had them. I sipped my coke and frowned since the ice melted and watered the flavor down. It went in the trash.

“Hey Johnny wanna rest at the lot so we ca eat the rest of this?”

“Yeah sure.”

Johnny kept glancing around. I was obvious that he was freaked out by Soda getting jumped. Happy go lucky soda stuck in bed waiting to go to the hospital.

We got to the fire pit that the gang set up and sat on the old car bench that was there. We sat down and started to eat the remains of the movie house food.

Neither of us talked but this was normal. Johnny was never very talkative. When I first met him in grade school he was mute. Hardly noticed him until we literally ran into each other in the lot. The only reason I had stuck around was because he had stayed on the ground curled in a ball covering his head. I had tapped him on the shoulder and he slowly uncurled. I remember trying to hug him since I did that a lot when I was younger when I didn’t know better. He flinched as soon as I took a step towards him. Back then I didn’t under stand what abuse meant. I had a family that loved me.

A month after that incident I saw Johnny in the lot again. He was bleeding from a gash in the back of his head. I made him come home with me where Mom drove him to the hospital. Johnny got stitches and hung with me at school. I guess you can say that’s when we started being friends.

I nibbled on the rest of my chocolate bar wile watching the sun set. I loved how the colours switched from one to the other. Like the sky itself was alive. A raven flew by shattering the silence with its raspy croak. I glanced at Johnny. He had finished his food awhile ago. I got up brushing some Dirt from my jeans. Darry didn’t like me tracking stuff into the carpet.

We walked back and reached the front door in a few minutes. Two-bit and Steve were still on the couch when I walked inside kicking off my shoes. Darry was taking a shower so he wouldn’t have to in the morning. Soda was still in our room resting. I hope his injuries didn’t hurt as bad as they looked. Johnny sat on the couch zoning into TV land like the other two had.

I tiptoed into the hall way making sure no one noticed me. I tried the door handle and found it was locked. I took a pen out of my pocket and took the in cartridge out. I placed it in the small circular hole unlocking the door and quickly. When I turned around after closing the door and looked into the steam filled bathroom I struggled to swallow the lump in my throat. This might not be a great Idea after all.

Still I stripped myself of all my clothing my gaze landing on the mirror. All the peroxide had washed out of my hair so I had my natural colour back. I still had some muscle even though I had dropped some weight over the summer.

My legs seemed to move on there own accord to the shower and my hand moved the edge of the curtain aside for me to slip inside the warm cascading water. My mouth started to water as soon as I stepped into the shower and I could feel myself getting aroused.

I just stood there for moment taking in the full sight of seeing Darry showering. The water cascaded onto his hair and down his lean back. I could see every muscle move under his tanned skin from his strong arms to his powerful legs. Long scratches ran down his back and I blushed realizing they were from me. I felt bad after all I had marred Darrys skin with two identical sets of scratches. I reached out and gently brushed the longest one with my index finger. I could feel Darrys muscles tense under my light touch and I quickly stuttered sorry blushing again.

Darry turned slowly. My eyes met his beautiful Icy blue ones and my blush intensified. I stared at his perfectly toned abs. My gaze traveled lower. I know I shouldn’t stare but …Christ he’s big. I looked down at myself comparing sizes. I wasn’t too small but I still felt pretty inadequate compared to Darry.

“What are you doing Pony?”

“I-I don’t know I just wanted to be with you.” It was true I just came in here on impulse. Not really thinking just acting.

Truth is I’ve been craving his touch ever since that night. It’s hard to explain but it seemed that the sex was just for sex. Like it was only lust and need no real emotion. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I need more than that. I don’t want to be some boy toy someone fucks and leaves. I know Darry’s not like that but I couldn’t keep the doubt off my mind. I just need some one to love me…. Lust wasn’t too bad though.

Darry smiled down at me making my stomach flutter. He wrapped his strong arms around me in a loving embrace. I felt a bit better but feeling our bare chests press against each other made my breath hitch. He gently pressed his lips against mine. My mind fogged over. All I cared about was feeling his lips against mine. I gasped when he gave my length a firm squeeze. I moaned and started feeling his chest. My fingers lightly brushed over his nipples and he gave me a groan of approval. He started to lightly nip my ear and I wrapped my arms tightly around his waist trying to keep quiet.

“So Pony where’s the gang?” He whispered in my ear making me shiver as his lips brushed my ear with each syllable.

“I-in the living room.” I sighed with the pleasurable haze clouding my mind.

“What? Damn it pony.” Darry pulled away giving me a stern look holding my shoulders and making me listen.

“Ponyboy we can’t risk the gang finding out.”

“I know that Darry.” Darry sighed in frustration.

“Pony that means no fun stuff while the gangs here.” My jaw grew slack but was quickly clenched as rage built up in my gut.

“Then what the hell was that kiss in the kitchen?”

“No one was around and if someone did see they’d only think it was weird cause of me.”

“Oh and you figure that how?”

“Cause mom used to kiss your four head ya lil bone head.” I shook my head clenching my fist and squeezed my eyes shut trying to stop the tears.

“You’re not mom.”

“I know pony I just… I don’t know maybe we shouldn’t be doing this.” That sentence echoed in my head several times before finally sank in.

I felt like suffocating. A sob ripped from my throat before I could stop it and I started crying quietly.

“W-wait Pony don’t cry I’m just worrying over what might happen to you if someone finds out about us.” Darry tried to wrap his arms around me but I pulled away.

“Is that the truth or did ya just need a quick fix?” I said letting venom drip from every word.

“P-pony please tell me you don’t mean that please?” I just turned away not looking at Darry.

“God pony don’t hate me I-I’ll do what ever you want just don’t me I-I can’t live like that I just c-c-can’t I-I aw Christ.”

When I finally looked at Darry I swear my heart stopped for a long while. By the way his eyes were Blood shot I knew he was crying. Darry’s whole body shook and he was biting his lip real hard. He didn’t want to cry. My eyes met his and I realized just how wrong I was to ever doubt him. I saw nothing but fear and sorrow in those blue oceans.

I quickly hugged him squeezing as tight as I could. Darry stumbled before hugging me back. I expected one of his usual bear hugs but instead his arms hung limply around my waist as he supported himself against the shower wall. I started to cry again as I saw how bad I spooked him. He tightened grip one me and started stroking my hair calming me down.

We pulled away at the same time hiccupping and sniffling. Darry lightly ruffled my damp hair. I took his hand in mine and kissed each knuckle before going for his lips. A shiver ran down my spine as our lips met. I opened my mouth slightly allowing him access. He massaged my tongue with his own and I moaned. We separated when we were both out of breath panting and grinning.

“Now how about we wash up pony?” Darry asked sincerely.

“Sounds good.” I answered still keeping the grin on my face.

We washed each other letting our fingers glide across each others skin. Darry lathered the two in one he picked up into my hair and I relaxed at the feeling of his fingers combing through my hair. He kissed my cheek and I did the same to him. Darry rinsed the shampoo out of my hair and repeated the same method with the conditioner.

I felt all my muscles grow slack as Darry started to massage the body wash onto my skin. It was almost surprising that someone as strong and muscular as Darry could be so gentle. It felt like he was giving me a full body massage as his hands caressed my skin. A small groan of protest escaped my mouth as he pulled away.

“Sorry Pony but I need to wash up to before the water gets cold.” I sighed and nodded.

He lathered shampoo in his hair and I grabbed the bottle of body wash. I read the label. Rainforest scented. I poured some of the clear blue soap onto my hand and placed the bottle back in the shower basket. I rubbed my hands together to make a soapy froth. I placed my hands on his taught stomach causing him to gasp slightly. Darry smiled down at me and I could feel my stomach flutter. I started to rub circles over his abs like he did for me. When I started on his back I could feel how tense his muscles were just by feeling the sore spots underneath his skin. Darry groaned as I massaged all the knots out so he could fully loosen up.

I remember Sodapop telling me that if Darry kept working as hard as he did something bad would happen. Now I saw why. It was Darrys day off and he still had a huge amount of tension in his muscles.

Darry finished washing his hair the same time I finished washing him. I opened the shower curtain a bit to see if anyone had entered the bathroom. I had just remembered that I probably should have locked the door. I stepped out of the shower shivering and quickly locked the door. Darry was getting out of the shower and looked at me with a smirk and an arched eye brow with a look in his eye saying ‘Just don’t forget next time ya goof.’ He really has been less uptight.

I grabbed the towel on the counter and started drying off before stopping. There was only one towel there. I looked at Darry sheepishly as he crossed his arms and gave me a mock glare. I really didn’t mean to use his towel.

“I-I’ll get you another one?” I said asking for him to forgive me without saying sorry.

“You plan on running out there naked lil buddy?” I could hear his smirk in his voice.

“I think I’ll pass.”

KNOCK KNOCK

Both of us jumped at the sound. I looked at Darry hoping he had the answer. My mouth hung open as he nodded toward the window. He motioned for me to get dressed so I slipped on my jeans and shirt.

“Come on Superman I got go!” I swear I’ll kill Steve.

“Well hold it!” Darry yelled back.

The window was right above the bath tub at the back. Darry lifted me to the small pane of glass so I could open it. I crawled half way threw it and tumbled. I gasped as gravity caught me off guard. Darry tried to grab my pant leg but I slipped from his grasp. It didn’t hurt too much when I hit the ground because I had half a mind to roll.

“Pony are you ok?” Darry whispered voice full of concern.

“Fine can I sleep in your room tonight?”

“Yeah sure tell Soda you don’t want to hurt his ribs.” I winced at the thought of lying to soda.

“DAMN IT DARRY OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!”

I heard the door open and I quickly scrambled away from the window. No sense in going through the trouble of sneaking away if I got caught.

I decided to take a walk to think. There was no doubt in my mind that Darry loved me. I felt like a lead brick had been removed from my heart. I was so scared that Darry regretted what was going on between us it was tearing me up inside. I thought of Johnny’s reaction when I told him and smiled. He went from shocked to worried in 3 seconds tops. I knew I could trust him. Then I thought of Soda. Would I have to keep lying to him? I felt a lump of lead relodge itself as I started to head home.

I hate keeping secrets but with my life there was no way survive without them.

Well there's chapter five for everyone that meassed me THANK YOU I really was going to stop posting for good. I'm going to be away from home for awhile so no updates but don't worry Chapter 6 will come if your still reading.