Journal Of A Crazy F***ing Emo Girl

Ever just wanted to shoot somebody? Like acutly wish them dead? Ugh I have....I do. So called "friend" of mine won't stop saying I like this on guy, who I think is nice, but would never, could never like, at least notlike that. In reading class we were listening to home-madeCD's, I like his choice in music so I told him he could put his in first when he asked[we had both made one].
So then my "friend" was like "Oh! You Like him*uses sing-song voice*." Me-"Not like that, I happen to like his choice in music, but not him." Her-"No, you wanna date him!" Me-"Stop I don't, you know that and you're being obxious." Her-"*continues to say I like him*" Me-*Attempts toignore hoping it will stop*"
Sobout halfway throughthe year she told me for a long time shes had a crush on this guy, adn I wasn't mean or anything, no laughing or teasing. We do occasionly joke about things like that, but if she asks me to stop, I stop. She on the other hand does not. I'll be like "ok, stop, this is getting annoying" and she'll keep doing going.It just really bothers me and even though I told her this, she still doesn't stop.
Another thing about it is, it happens alot. If it was once in a while, ok, but all the time makes me wanna shoot myself.
Oh, one more thing is that she always expects me to forgive her right away. Its not like "oh, I really am sorry, forgive me?" and she really mean it. Its like every time she says I'm sorry and doesn't mean it, but then she calls and calls and my ma gets pissed about the reptetive calling and ringing and even when I tell her this she says "I'll stop calling when you talk to me again." So I have nothing to do but keep saying whatever. I mean, she will deney this, but thats how I feel bout it. She'll probably say I say the same things, and then go and write her own verison of this on her quizilla, or mibba, or whatever else.
See now, if she reads this, which, with my luck she probably will, she'll hate me and start saying how this is "talking bout her behind her back" and get all mad, then ignore me. Which, in advance, its not, I'm not telling anyone who knows you bout you and I'm not naming names, so no its not. I knwo you'll be mad, but this is how I deal with being pissed, I'm not yelling at you, I'm avoiding saying things I'll regret. Feel fournate not pissed.
If anyone has any thoughts on what I should do, or say, or anyhting like that, message me and I'll respond.