(06) She Had Their Worlds *PATD*

((Meghan's Point of View))
I walked out to the front lounge and sat up the rest of the night. I couldn't sleep with all these thoughts racing through my mind. Brendon? Ryan? Brendon? Ryan?
All of a sudden, I smelled an awful smell and heard footsteps. I see Jon, frozen in his tracks with a pipe. We looked at each other for what seemed like forever, until one of us finally spoke.
"Uh, Meghan. I can explain..." Jon said calmly.
I took a deep breath and choked back my tears.
"Jon," I said with a crack in my shaky voice. "There is no explaining to do."
I got up from my chair that I was sitting in. Jon took a step forward and I took a step back.
"Meghan-" He began.
"JON! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?!" I sobbed. "HOW COULD YOU SMOKE THIS SHIT WHAT THE HELL?!"
Jon motioned me to be quiet, but I just screamed and cried. The one person I looked up to, did drugs? I never knew. And I thought we shared everything. What hurts the most is knowing that he doesn't care how his actions could take a toll on me. Or anyone else who cared about him.
"Meghan! Will you calm the hell down?!" Jon yelled. I cried softly still, tears running down my face like a waterfall. Although he saw how upset I was, he continued to puff in and out on the pipe.
"JON! STOP IT!!" I cried.
He looked at me straight in the eye and puffed in and out one last time before it was all gone. I kept crying. He looked so different. So, unhappy. So stressed. So not Jon. Where was the cousin I loved and knew? Where?
I kept sobbing. Jon came towards me and covered my mouth. He pointed his finger right in my face.
"Nobody knows about this except you and me. And nobody else WILL know. Do you fucking hear me?" I tried to scream but his grip on me tightened. "I'm doing this for the band. It makes me relax." He said sternly.
Next thing I know, Brendon comes out and is looking at me and Jon.
"Whats going on?" Brendon questioned.
"Nothing." Jon said. He went back to bed. When Brendon wasn't looking, he pointed that finger at me again. I felt threatened.
Now that I think of it, Jon was acting strange. He would randomly fall asleep. And not wake up for a while. It scared me now, knowing I'm watching him die.
Brendon looked at me, I was still crying, tears dripping off my face. He blanked stared at me, and it was like he was trying to read my mind.
((Brendon's Point Of View))
I don't get it. Something was clearly wrong, and her mind was yet again, locked. She tried walking past me, but I grabbed a hold of her shoulders, and looked into her eyes.
"What's wrong?" I asked her.
Her eyes never met mine and she looked down towards the floor.
"Nothing." She managed to choke out.
"You wouldn't be crying if nothing was wrong." I replied.
She tried to get away from my grip, but she didn't.
"I'm not letting you go, until your tears are gone, and you tell me whats wrong." I softly said.
She once again tried to break my grip, and when she failed, she broke down into my arms sobbing. I put my head on hers, to hear if she was trying to explain.
"Jon's going to kill himself. Jon's going to kill himself." She kept repeating softly into my arms. I helped her over to the couch and she told me everything. And she cried, butI had to remain strong for her. After all her crying, she had calmed down. She laid her head down on my lap and I began to sing to her softly. Soon after that, she fell asleep, and so did I.

((Ryan's Point of View))
I came out to the lounge in the morning to find Brendon and Meghan asleep with each other. Suddenly, they both awoke at the same time. Did they hear my heart break? Whatever it was, I'm glad it came to a stop. I walked away before they realized I was even there. And I tried to forget everything I had just saw, but it lay stuck in my mind.
**Later that Day***
((Meghan's Point of View))
I felt extra close to Brendon now that he knew what went on. I could trust him. He's such a sweetheart. Oh no, what about Ryan? I walked into the bunks, and I saw Ryan sleeping, but he was crying in his sleep. It made me feel so bad, seeing him cry like that. Then, he awoke. What? Did he hear my heart break or something? But it's over now. And I gave Ryan a hug.
"Are you okay? You were crying." I whispered to him.
"Yeah, but so were you."

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