Its Hard To Grow Up With All This SHIT...1

We made out for while after that first kiss. I was likin it, wink wink. He was into biting my lips a lot. Kinky! Lol well at one point his hand was sliding down my pants, but I wouldn’t let him do that. I’m not that easy…

“Hell no.” I smirked at him and he frowned.

“Why not? Come on.” He kept goin for the pants.

“No I only met you today it’s not like I’m gonna give it up that easy.”

“Well I guess I’m just gonna have to hang out with you more.” He winked at me and stood up. It was already 6:30. I guess we were ‘talking’ for a while.

“Oh dude you gotta leave my moms coming home.” I pushed him out of my room and into the living room.

“I don’t want to leave tho.” He turned around to look at me. To tell the truth I didn’t want him to leave either, but I’d rather say bye to him then have my mom come home with a boy in my room.

“Ya I know but we’ll hang out some other time…light up like you said.”

“Yaaa sounds good. You’re real different then I thought you’d be.” I raised an eyebrow. Oh ya?

“Wow what do u mean?” He grabbed me by the hands and pulled me hard into him.

“I thought you were a good girl…” I rolled my eyes and opened my front door, trying to push him out. He really had to get the hell outta my house or my mom was gonna freak.

“Ya ya I get that a lot. Just hurry up and get out!” I pushed him backwards out the door. He sighed and leaned up against the door frame.

“Come here first.” I laughed and kissed him one more time before he left. I watched him walk down the hall. What a goof…

“I’m gettin in your pants next time bitch!” He shouted just before he disappeared down the stairs. I just laughed and closed my door. I waited till I was sure he was out of the building and then let it all out.

“OH MY GOD!” I screamed at the top of my lungs. I jumped around my room and ran all through the apartment. I turned on my radio and blast it as loud as I could and danced around the living room. I was so excited that I didn’t even hear the door open. For a second I thought it was Billy coming back to scare me. How embarrassing would that be if he walked in and saw me screaming and dancing? Thank god it was only my mom…

“What the hell are you doing?” She raised an eyebrow and put a pizza in the microwave.

“I had a good day at school…” I turned my radio down a little, went into my room and closed the door. But I still kept on dancing…I called Cait and told her everything that happened.

“You what?!”

“We just kissed…” I tired not to let her hear me laugh.

“I smell bullshit!”

“Ya I no we made out for like forever and he wanted to get in the shorts but I was like umm…no.” I was trying not to sound like a skank haha.

“That’s my girl…so do you like him? Or was it just like a one time thing?”

“I don’t know really…I mean this is the first time I’ve ever talked to him ahha. I don’t really know him that well. But like I can be myself around him for the most part I’m still kinda shy tho. He wants to hang out more though. Haha he invited me to go smoking with him and his friends. I don’t know bout that though I don’t wanna get too loose around him haha I don’t know what could happen…” She burst out laughing.

“I can just picture that, he gets you high and then takes advantage of you. Perfect Alicia!”

“Shut up you bitch. I gotta go though, don’t wanna waste the minutes.” So we hung up and I turned my radio all the way up. I just laid in my little bed and thought about Billy. Do I have a thing for him already? I mean I can’t believe I just did that with Billy Black…I watched some movies on TV and before I knew it was midnight. I turned off the lights and laid in bed. I could smell him on my pillow and it made me smile.

O great Alicia, you like him already. And he’s probably the biggest player in my school…fuck.

I tried so hard to fall asleep all night but I kept thinking about what could happen. It must have been around 2:30 when I finally fell asleep. Great, another night with only 2 and half of hours of sleep…I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow morning. O wait! I actually can’t! I get to see Billy tomorrow! Hey…he might think I’m a bad girl, but I’m still a girl…and god I hate being so girly sometimes…