------- Brian POV -------
The movie finished, Xaviara was asleep cuddled into my lap, she looked so peaceful so I wasnt going to disturb her. She looked so sad even when she was sleeping, her pale skin was so smooth. Wait what was I doing?! I stopped stroking her face and hair, I barely knew this girl..and I was at her house, she was asleep on my lap. This was wrong. But it felt so right! Ah I was so confused. She was so beautiful, why couldnt she see that? I couldnt have feelings for her like that? Could I? No.. I cant. She wouldnt wanta guy like me anyway. Come to think of it, would she want anyone at all? She wasnt just any girl Id been with before though. She was different. Good different. She was perfect.. What was I thinking? I knew Zacky liked her..I sighed, besides she began to stir. I smiled.
------- Back to Xaviara POV --------
"Morning sleepy" Brian was smiling at me, I yawned.
"What time is it?" I groaned, shifting myself from his lap.
"Almost 11." He grinned.
"What?!"
"Xaviara. Your not going to school today. I called school, told them your sick. Im looking after you." Ugh...It was begining to bother me how much he cared. I couldnt let myself get so attatched to anyone. "Want any breakfast?
"Not hungry. Going for a shower, do you want a shower?"
"Your never hungry. Actually I dont live too far away so Im gona go back to my place get showered and changed then come back. Is that okay?" He got up.
"Sure. Take my car" I said, yawning again.
"Thanks. See you soon" He walked out the door and I locked it behind him. Habit. After showering I re applied my eyeliner, dryed my hair and changed. Baggy ripped jeans, black tube top and my favourite black and white DC's.
"Xavii..Xavii.." I heard Brian through the letter box. I ran down the stairs and let him in. "Mall?"
"I thought I was sick?" He pulled me out the door.
"Nah, wana get your ink done?" I stared at him blankly. "Cmon! It will be fun. Im trying to cheer you up Xaviara!"
"Um okay then" I took his hand and he opened the car door for me. He insisted on driving, we drove to the mall and we went straight to the tattoo place.
"Do you have the design with you?" I nodded and handed it to the dude that was doing it. I told him it was going on my hip bone. I made Brian wait outside. "Aw..Cant I stay. I'll hold your hand!"
"No!"
"Fine" He sulked off and went outside. I winced as he inked it all, it took nearly 2 hours. He patched it up and I paid for it.
"You want me to go get your boyfriend now?" He asked. I was so shocked of his assumption I nearly snorted.
"Hes not my boyfriend" I corrected him quickly.
"Oh, sorry. Why not?"
"Why would I have a boyfriend? I mean come on." I was doing the belt up of my jeans, and pulled my top back down.
"Why wouldnt you? Im a dude love. He has a soft spot for you. Your very pretty, Im sure he thinks so too. Everyone deserves someone. You espescially."
"How do you know I do" I said defensively.
"It doesnt take an expert to see a damaged soul. I hope to see you soon Xaviara." He winked and walked off into the back of the shop. I stared in complete confusion. How the hell did he know my name? I shook my head and walked out the shop.
"Lets see it!" Brian jumped up from the bench making me jump.
"Jesus Brian. No, Its too sore. Im keeping the patch on."
"Awww..No fair. I got you something!" He gestured to the bag in his hand.
"You didnt have to get me anything Brian. I cant accept it"
"You dont even know what it is yet! Cmon pleeeeeease" He whined. I sighed and took the bag. I looked inside. A pair of black and white armwarmers.
"Awww Brian. You shouldnt have."
"I wanted to. Plus your always wearing them."
"Thank you" I said smiling, I gave him a quick hug and glanced round at the tattoo shop. The big bald guy that inked mine was smiling knowingly at me. I shook my head.
"Put them on?"
"Not at the minute. Ill put them on later. Ive got these ones on at the moment, I dont wana loose them."
"Put them in the bag then."
"No Brian." I said sharply.
"Hmm.." Brian folded his arms. "Its like nearly 2, lets get you some lunch."
"Nah. Not hungry." I answered simply. Brian stopped walking.
"You said that last night. You said that this morning. You have to eat. Whats going on?"
"Nothing!! Stop getting on my case! Im not hungry! Get over it! Take me home." I told him. Wasnt happy. I was tired and worn out already.
"Sorry. Ok." He said bluntly.
We didnt talk on the journey home. He got out and saw me to the door.
"Thanks for looking after me. I'll be fine now." I said plainly.
"Yeah. Whatever" He shrugged and walked along the street, I cussed under my breath and locked the door behind me. I had a soda out the fridge and cleared up from last night. I sat down on the couch and had a better look at the arm warmers. I tipped them out the bag and when I did there was a little card at the bottom. I took it out and there was a black heart on the front. Underneath it said 'Your Special' I snorted at how cheesy it was and opened the card.
Xaviara,
Sorry the card is a little cheesy. I know I have only known you what? 5 days now? But I already feel I know you very well. You trusted me with telling me about your past. And as stupid as it sounds, I care for you a lot. Your not like any girl Ive ever met before. If I say something that offends you, I don’t mean it. Its because I care. Im always here for you if you need me.
Brian xox
Wow.. Why would he do that? What is it about me that he finds so special. It really hit me. I was bitchy to him earlier at the mall. But its his fault too for being intruding! I need my own personal space. Im not easy to get on with he should know that. Someone once described me as a closed window. I dont open to just anyone. Im locked. All my feelings, deep emotions inside. Hard exterior. A certain key fits. And I dont know where that key is. But its never happened before that someone has tried to unlock me. Ive never been so confused. I put the card on the kitcehen top and tried to forget about it. I went upstairs to have a nap and I saw I had left my cell phone on the bed. I flipped it open to see the time. I had 3 new messages. What the fuck? I never got messages. I looked at the first one.
Hi Xaviara. Im sorry bout yesterday. Didn’t mean to hav a go at you in history. Was worried bout Brian. Hope ya okay. We are all worried bout ya and we all care. Addi xoxo
I forgot all about the little incident with Addi. I would call her later. Next message.
Xavii! Hi its Zacky. Got your number off Addi. Wana go see a movie on Saturday? Just you and me. If you want. I don’t mind. Sorry if I bothered you. Love Zach xoxoxoxox
Haha..Aw. I guess that was quite sweet of him. I hadnt seen Zacky much cause of what happened. I might go. Was it a date?! That could be embarassing. Next mesage.
Xaviara its Brian. Sorry about me being a dick earlier. Just worried about you. See you at the weekend maybe? Hope you don’t hate me. Brian xox
WouldI see him at the weekend? I dont hate him.. How could I? He had been so sweet to me ever since that day at the music store. And that card. Come to think of it Ive never really been as nice back as he deserves. But Im not used to it! I had nothing better to do so I replied all my messages.
Hi Addi. Its okay I understand. Sorry I blew off at you. Not great with the whole having friends thing yet. Not used to people caring either. Bare with me. Xavii x
You really want to go see a movie with me? You didn’t bother me. And that would be really nice, do you mean like a date? Xavii x
Hate is a strong word
There. That was that done. I cant believe I just sent that one sentance to Brian. I groaned out loud and plodded downstairs to get all my homework done. I was exshuasted, I feel asleep with my head on the kitchen table, not even letting the several vibrations in my pocket wake me.
^^ Awwww I just love him! Ya gotta love him! Right?
♫♪ As time passes by, regrets for the rest of my life, the ones who I confide, are gone in the black of the night ♫♪
