//CAROLINE//
I just sighed and thought about what had happened with Patrick, i sort of fell into a flash back sort of situation, just listen.
flashback;
After turning around at many different gas stations, and asking for directions, i finally got to Patrick's house at eight, even if his sloppy typical handwriting slowed me down a little. I looked up at the blue house, two floors. The grass was really green and it was actually a pretty simple place to live in. It was moe than anything i could ever afford in my life time, though. I turned the engine off in the car and sawa figure in the window for a split second before it rushed torwards the door. I shook as I opened the at door and stepped onto the smooth pavement.
I knew full well what he was doing once i knocked on the door. He did it when we were young too, waiting right at the door for a few seconds before opening it. He saw me and smiled a little, greeting me in.
"I made some tea.." He started.
"I had some before i got here." I paused. "Thanks though."
He nodded, pouring himself some really quick. He liked it plain, i knew it. "Sit down." He said, pointing to the small couch. His laptop was open, he was working on garage band, making music. I sat down and looked down at my feet, feeling stupid and not knowing what to say to him.
He sat down next to me ad put his hand on my leg. It sent shivers up my spine.
"You have some.. expliaining to do." I sighed.
Patrick just nodded again. "Caroline, no one told me when you gave birth to Brody-"
"Maybe you should have been there." I scoffed. "But oh, wait, you didn't want anything to do with us, you only care about your sell out band and your-"
"Sell outs?" He frowned a little. "I'm not done anyways. Just listen. I would have been there if i knew, I was scared," Fellings rushed up into me like a flood going through my body, i wanted to scream in his face and leave this damn place. "But i know that i wasn't the only one scared, i left you scared. I left you.. alone. And that was awful of me." He sighed a little and put his head in his hand. "I'm.. no good with words."
"No shit." I smirked a little. "I mean, i already knew that."
"What i'm trying to say is that.." He paused. "I never stopped loving you, Caroline."
I shrugged. "Well it sure didn't show Patrick, i mean, you seemed to love Ash-"
"I dont even FUCKING remember that!" He yelled a little. I jumped back an inch in my chair and his frown automatically turned into the cutest innocent look. "I mean.. I just want to say that i want to be a part of your life again."
I wiped away a small tear, god i'm so utterly fragile. "Patrick i love you, but you hurt me so much. It's just hard to trust you.."
He was crying a little too, we were perfect for each-
nevermind.
"I want to live with the one I love though..." He paused. "I want to be there for Brody, i want to be the best dad in the world. I want to see him smile every day and make him feel really special..."
I put my head in my hands. "you know... he has your eyes. And your smile. And every time i look at him i see so much if you, his hair curls a little on the sides." I paused. "Needless to say, he looks nothing like me and more like you."
Thats when i thought about Alex, his way of dealing with me, the way he made me smile every day, and the way he told me i love you before we laid down together.
But there was Patrick's face right in front of me, there was the way he sang me to sleep, the way he could make all my problems go away just by smiling, and the way he made me so happy, and so crazy, and so frusterated at the same time.
He's the only boy who's ever been able to send me through a spiral like that.
He took my hand and slowly brought it up to his heart. It made me melt, basically.
"I wont let you down, caroline."
I sighed and leaned into his couch, which suddenly seemed a lot softer. I smiled a little.
"The new place..." I paused, looking around a little. "It's nice."
"Doyouwanttocomeoverfordinnertommorow?" Patrick asked extrememly fast.
I looked over at him and giggled a little. "You never grew up."
He shook his head. "No, i didn't. I'm not going to either."
I smiled a little, and then i looked at his apple screen, which showed the time.
"I have to go, Mrs. Wentz.." I said, pointing.
Patrick's smiled faded quickly. "Oh, okay. Well i hope you have a good night." He got up and helped my up from the couch, with the hand he was still holding. He quickly let go. "Tell Brody that.." He paused. "Daddy, yeah, daddy says hi."
I nodded. "I'll make sure to do that."
"Marcin, too." He smiled. "I'll pick you up around eight, you can bring Marcin and Brods."
"Brods?" I giggled. "I call him that all too much."
He nodded happily. "Yeah." He paused. "Oh and caroline!"
"Yep?" I stopped again as i went to get into my car.
"It was.." He bit his lip. "Really good to see you again."
I nodded in agreement. "I think it was too, Stumph." I said, before getting in my car and starting up the engine. I was going to sit there for a few minutes to collect myself, but he wouldn't leave his doorstep, so i pulled over on the side of another road to lean my head against the steering wheel and think.
Do i really want him back?
What am i thinking.
i know i want him back.
I started the car back up again, and went right back to Patrick's driveway, i left my car on and knocked on the door until if finally opened.
"Caroline? Did you forget-" He started, before i shut him up with a long passionate kiss. We finished and he touched his lips a little, grinning like a little boy who just got a new game boy game.
"I'll see you tommorow." I whispered before rushing back to my car and leaving Patrick once more, dumbfounded on his doorstep.
end of flashback(:
"And thats exactly what happened." I smiled, sitting down on my bed and figeting with my thumb. "How about you and Panda?"
She smiled and explained the whole story, and how they were goingout tommorow night too. "It makes me feel so awful, but I'm falling for him again." She ended with a sigh, falling back on my bed. I sighed and nodded.
"I feel bad for Alex though." I groaned, laying down next to her. Marcin must have heard me because he came bolting into the room to come and lick my face. "MARCINNN!" I groaned again.
Brooke just laughed a little. "You're taking him back all too easily." She pointed out. "I mean, you actually wasted the gas to go back and make out with Stump."
I brushed my top lip with my finger a little and smiled. If i imagined hard enough i could still feel his skin near mine and the warmth of his lips. "I couldn't help myself!" I argued. "Whatever, i'm going to sleep." I laughed, pushing Brooke over a little and putting my face head down into the pillow. She just giggled, and went to sleep herself.
I woke up and groaned, expecting to hear the sharp cries of baby Brody or baby Aleera.
But i didn't, and that kind of worried me. I pushed Brooke around a little until she got up. She stirred until i finally made it clear that it was actually quiet in the house, well a little quiet I heard small voices downstairs.
We both rushed up and bolted downstairs, tripping over eachother before we both hit the bottom of the stairs with a thud. Brooke made an epic oomf sound as she hit the ground.
"Babbbiiiesss!" I called them, they must have been awake, and they weren't in their cribs.
"Did you mean us?" I heard a voice call from the living room, Pete and Patrick were both in the house, holding their children and playing with them. Mrs. Wentz knew exactly what was going on, and just stood behind us, grinning like the happy woman she was.
