Vampires Love Forever {{gerard way story 11}}

Well, turns out my well thought through decision resulted in my getting completely lost, seeing as I hadn’t any clue as to how I even got to Gerard’s house in the first place, since I was blacked out on the way there.

I blindly made my way through the woods surrounding the house, and it seemed that the further I got, there was no way to block out Gerard’s face in my head. Each time it forced its way back into my mind, I wound faster and faster through the huge trees and another flow of tears came through. I was lost…and I didn’t know whether to go back and beg him to let me stay or to just keep delving myself deeper and deeper into the forest.

I trudged along, the quiet pattering of my feet slowly driving me to the point where I couldn’t take it anymore. What it was…I had no clue. I spun around quickly, took about two steps, and then collapsed to my knees, my head in my hands. I thought I was going insane. Slowly I stood back up, turning around again. I just stood there, looking around but not really seeing anything around me.

I looked to the left, and there was a little trail leading out to a small clearing. I walked slowly through to the clearing, and there was a log set right in the middle. I always thought it was weird that all of the forest circling the house seemed like it was all man-made. Not the forest itself, but the way it was laid out. With the perfect little trail, and the way the log just fit inside the tiny clearing. Maybe it was just me….

I fell beside the log, gasping for air from still crying, and lay my head down, closing my eyes. I didn’t even try to block out Gerard’s screaming in my head as I slowly cried myself asleep.

….

I opened my eyes but I could barely see anything around me, like I was fading in and out of consciousness. It felt like there were arms around me, and I could feel myself moving. I moaned and closed my eyes again. But when I opened them next, all I could see were a pair of hazel ones coldly looking right back into mine. I smiled.

“Gerard?” He looked away but I reached for his face. He begrudgingly looked back down at me, his face rigid. My eyes closed again. Damnit! Stop doing that! I thought to my unwilling eyes.

“You’re going home.” He said, his voice fading….

….

I woke up, remembering my dream. I finally figure out my damn feelings for Gerard and he’s gone. Well…technically…I’m gone. I opened my eyes and I was in shock. I wasn’t in the tiny clearing. I wasn’t in Gerard’s arms. I was in…my room. My room as in…not Gerard’s house. My house.

Wait! I gasped. Fuck! He did take me home… Shit! Why didn’t I wake myself up and make him take me back! Why didn’t I just tell him to put me down and plead with him, beg him to forgive me, tell him exactly what happened with Frank. Why didn’t I just tell him how I really felt in the first damn place!? I couldn’t have just figured it out!? I silently cursed myself for being so stupid…as usual….

I came to find that I was lying on the empty, dusty floor of my empty, dusty room. My bed wasn’t here, and neither was anything else.

I got up and walked around, dust flying everywhere, and coughed. I quickly covered my mouth though, because I didn’t want my dad to find me back, since I was planning to find my way back to Gerard’s as soon as I possibly could, obviously.

I opened my door and peeked around quietly, but all I could see was empty. I gasped in shock. Nothing was anywhere. No furniture, nothing, only dust. I walked, stunned, through the house, but found nothing at all. I ran outside, but everything looked normal as ever. The neighbors were outside mowing their lawns and all that shit. My car, and my dad’s car, weren’t in the driveway.

I ran up to a random person, “Hey, do you know anything about the house down the street?”

“Um, yea, they moved out a little over 5 months ago. Um…the man’s daughter was kidnapped, so they moved away I think. I don’t really know, I was moving in right when they were moving out.” He held out his hand, “I’m Jeff, by the way.” I stared at his hand until he dropped it.

Jeff flicked his hair out of his eyes. I stared. His eyes were the most beautiful blue I’d ever seen.

He smiled awkwardly, “Sorry. I um…” He scratched his head, “Why were you so curious anyway? About the house, I mean.”

“Just curious I guess…” I said quietly, a tear running down my face. I cannot believe that I’m here, alone. I wasn’t planning on staying at my dad’s place anyway— I didn’t really have a plan on where I was staying at all actually, just…not with my dad…’ya know…in case he found me or something— but it was just the prospect that he left, and wasn’t here at all, that got me.

Jeff winced, “I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to upset you! I’m so, so sorry!” He reached towards me and gave me a gentle, awkward hug. I gave in when more tears began their flow. I hated that I gave in to my stupid emotions so easily.

Jeff stood with me for a couple of minutes, “You wanna go inside? I can make us some coffee, if…”

I pulled back and looked at him. He had this little shy, sheepish grin on his face, like a little kid. I smiled a small smile, “Okay.”

……………………………………………

I’m sick of being overridden with revenge. She’s never going to come back. He took her from me. He killed her after he laid her in his trap.

I can’t believe I actually left them alone for a split fucking second. I just couldn’t stand to see another one of those egotistic smirks run across his face another time.

He thinks he can get whatever he wants. And that includes all the girls I fall in love with.

And now she’s gone. She probably hates me now. I won’t blame her if she never wants to see me again. Not after she finds out about her dad…she’ll probably figure it out, she’s not that stupid after all. I mean, why would she expect he never called to check on her but that once?

I don’t regret what I said and did when I went over to see her dad…but she won’t love me anymore when she finds out. She’ll come back though. I’ve got Patrick for that. Maybe…no, nevermind. Don’t think about that, he wouldn’t do that to you. Not Patrick.

I can’t believe I just put her there. I don’t know what I was thinking. That she’d get up and just stumble outside to Patrick?

Maybe I should go and watch her…Just to make sure….No. Nevermind.

Well…