Into the darknesS [Chapter 1. About the boy...and his demons]

Several thoughts were going through my head by now, but I couldn’t bring myself to believe a single one of them. He hadn’t changed, though, I swore he had before. Yet as I sit here in this dark closet there is still something in my gut that says, “This still isn’t who he’s suppose to be. Just keep trying, he’ll realize it one day too.” I sure hoped so anyway.

As I was stuck there, though, he was gallivanting off somewhere in the castle. Reeking havoc no doubt. I mean come on he’s a teenager with a demon filled head, do you honestly think he’s going to go apologize to anybody? Yea, I didn’t think so. In fact he had actually gone crazier since he was free. He hadn’t been this free since well… since he could remember! “Now to get out of this insane asylum! I can hardly take it any more!” he said under his breath as he ran down the long, never ending hall. Then one of those voices he sometimes herd in his head “spoke” to him…

“Josh! What are you doing? Aren’t you forgetting the girl who risked her life for you?”

“Huh? Who are you!” he demanded to the clearly empty hall.

“Go back for her Josh, go back and take her with you. She loves you and you know you love her too.”

“She don’t love me! She could care less about what happens to me. If she really wanted to save me, she would have taken me away from this freak show place!” he yelled louder this time.

“Josh, you don’t understand her love for you, she’d die for you if it was necessary! Maybe she’d never love you in the way you think. Maybe she never would “date” you, but you’ve got to believe me when I say that she cares for you more then most people. I know her thoughts and they use to always be about you. In fact she still thinks of you from time to time, yet sadly you’ve made it to where those thoughts are more negative.” The voice was so sweet as it came to him, such a gentle, loving, and peaceful voice.

“So then you agree she doesn’t care. And yea, maybe I do love her, but so what!?! It will NEVER be!!!” At this point he broke down to the floor. Eyes closed tight as he fell, head thrown into his hands forcefully. He cried out in agony as his heart was being torn on the inside. “Huh why does love have to hurt so much?!?!?”

“Listen to me,” the lady who could have only been his guardian angel put her hand on his shoulder. “ Don’t sit here and wish things could change, get up and do something about them.” Her words were true and he knew it, yet what was he suppose to do? Sure he could go back and save me, and he would it’s just he didn’t know what to say once he did.

“Good bye for now Josh; never forget that I am also here, and so is the one you love whether you know it or not.” she ascended to the ceiling and disappeared.

“I know what I must do now, thank you…” he said empowered by a newly found strong will. He rushed back to his room partly scatter brained.

Err clump! I shielded my eyes as the closet door opened again and the light from Josh’s room spilled in. “Umm. Hey…,” was all that he said. I was bewildered! I couldn’t believe that that’s all he had to tell me. I gave him this scornful look and he gave me a sad, sorry one as he dropped his head down to look at his feet. He kind of reminded me of a puppy with no home, but I guess you could say that’s basically what he was, though. “Yea look, I’m really sorry for what I did, but I was so confused… I had no idea what I was suppose to do! But I think I do now, and I’m willing to fully trust you this time. I promise.