Just Walk It Out [8]

I went to take my place at the dinner table where i always sit with my friends, but i found myself being pulled by someone else. When i sat down i realised it had been Dylan. I looked into his eyes. Wow he is amazingly cute.
Dinner went by really fast. A little too fast for my liking. I wanted more time with my friends and expecially Dylan but we had to get to bed early we had been up late the past few nights and it was really tiring us. The guys couldn't stay and hang with us girls after 8 PM because of some stupid rule saying that boys couldn't be in the girls dorm after 8.
__Friday Night__
We were all walking off school grounds heading to the park. As always we were laughing and joking around as we ran down the street towards the park. We had been sleeping alot better lately so we had no problem with staying up late tonight.
We ran until we got there it was only about 9 so we werent any where near tired enough to sleep. We ran into the trees and sat in a circle. The park was to lit up so we sat next to it under the shelter of the trees.
It was driving me crazy, Dylan and I havent kissed since that night we first had to kiss because of some silly dare. I really wanted to but i was far to nervous to do it myself. As he always did he put his arm around me when i sat down and pulled me closer to him.
As the night went on he seemed extremely paranoid which made me feel really uncomfortable. I didn't know what to do because everytime i tried to talk i couldn't even open my mouth. Everyone else started to leave, but when i went to get up Dylan pulled me back and told everyone else we'd see them later. Before they left Aubrey and Melissa turned and looked at me with huge grins out there face and i could have sworn Mel mouthed have fun.
Dylan pulled me farther into the trees and i was starting to get a little scared about what was going on. Then he suddenly stopped me and wrapped his arms around my waist. and pulled me close to him. He looked into my eyes and i got even more nervous. What was going on suddenly i kept thinking to my self. Then he finally pressed his lips to mine. I had forgotten how amazing it felt to kiss him.
This wasn't the same as the first time we had kissed this one was passionate loving and getting really rough. I could feel him pushing me back. He pushed me back until i was right against a tree.
As amazing as this was i was a little scared. Did he want to... i mean did he want to uhmm have sex with me right now? i could feel him getting rougher as our bodies grinded against eachother. I couldn't stand it anymore as scared as i was i couldn't help it. And i let out a soft moan. I felt him smirk into the kiss as his hand started to move underneath my shirt. I felt his hand move up to my breast and then i knew forsure he wanted alot tonight. As much as i didn't want to i pushed him away.
"Jenna, is everything alright?" I could feel the tears in my eyes. "Dylan I-I can't..." "Babe don't worry, we can no ones going to know and-" "No Dylan. I can't I'm not ready!" I could see the hurt in his face. "Jenna..." will he ever stop trying? he came up on me again kissing me trying to get me in "The mood" i could feel his hands moving to my butt. I couldn't take this i wasn't ready. His hands moved to my pants zipper and thats when i did it. I pushed him back so hard he hit the tree behind him and i screamed no at him.
I started running back to the school. Scared that he might follow me and try again which i wouldn't be able to take. I'm not ready it's not fair i kept repeating in my head. I kept running till i got back to the dorm i slammed my door and ran into the bathroom in tears.
"Jenna is that you? Are you ok what the hell happened?" She was trying to open the door. So i ended up coming out at when she saw my face she threw her self at me and hugged me begging me to tell her what was wrong. I told her what had happened between me and Dylan that night and she told me that it was new for him. "What do you mean?"
"What i mean is he has only ever dated one other girl and it didn't work out. He wants to have some kind of connection to you. So he was hoping that would be the right kind of connection."
"But he scared me. It wasn't even him when i looked into his eyes. He pushed me back again trying again and again. I thought he was going to rape me. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared to go near him now. What do i do Mel!!"
"I really don't know Jen I really don't know..."
It was a long night after that trying to get to sleep and i could tell it was just the same for Melissa. Lots of tossing and turning and trying not to think. But it didn't work.