Note: If you are not concentrated better not read this 'cause it may seem vague and you might curse me. Also,I put "(Name)" because I'm tired of me choosing names selfishly and I think this is better. Aside that,I will edit all of my stories in order to make them clearer for the reader and that's what I'm going to do from now on. Enjoy!! Ps-the story begins with a flashback !
"Shiro-chan .. " you bowed.
" What are you doing here, (Name) ? " , Toshiro asked coldly,not even turning toward you.
" I.. I was allowed by Ichimaru Gin-sama .. " you faltered,looking into the ground. A moment of silence had spread between the two of you. A soft sigh escaped Hitsugaya's pale lips as he turned around,still avoiding your gaze and looking straight forward.
" I told you million times not to talk to him anymore. Why aren't you listening to what I say to you ? " a tint of irritation cooed his thick and genuine voice.
" I'm very sorry, Shiro-chan--"
" Hitsugaya-taicho" he corrected immediately, looking briefly in your eyes.
" Yes. Um.. "
" What is the reason ? " he walked past you,gazing at the sparkling stars,just a small nuance added to this special,mysterious night.
" I have come to let you know that I .. " ,you slowly sat up,watching how his shadow let his head fall down slightly while another sigh of fatigue evaded from his mouth.
" I .. I am sick. And I will be prisoned for a period of time .. and .. " the tears that you couldn't held anymore,slowly trickled down your warm cheeks. " ...and I was wondering.. if.. Shir-- I mean, Hitsugaya.. are you happy here,in Seireitei ? "
Hitsugaya turned around abruptly and glared at your back,which was provoking slight motions accompanied by a soft sniffing. You turned around and met his cold glare but dared to smile warmly.
"Go back to Rukongai (Name) .. I still left the paperwork undone. " he looked one more time at you and walked past you,leaving you escape from the rest of the tears that you were bearing for such a long time.
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The hours,days,months had passed like a leaf in the breeze,leaving two bewildered people thinking about each other and being far away from each other.
Hitsugaya tried to concentrate on his usual paperwork,but the response of his ego was only a frown and his eyes narrowed confused.
" What should I do ? " he whispered under his breath,throwing away the pen.His white locks moved slightly forward and then came back at their place as Rangiku walked into the room and slammed the door open. Being cheerful and coquette as always,she leaned slightly on his dark wooded desk,almost popping her breats in his face. Hitsugaya made a small squealing noise and leaned back for safetly.
" Matsumoto !! "
" Relax.. Taicho. You've been really stressed lately. Eh..? You're not even able to do the paperwork corectly " she asserted innocently. A small vein popped on the white haired taicho's forehead.
" No,because this is your paperwork and MINE also. HOW THE HELL SHOULD I CONCENTRATE MATSUMOTO !? " he yelled,cooing every word and hitting the desk each time he did that.
" Uhh.. gomen taicho .. " she smilled nervously, " I think Kira's calling me for a round ! " with that,she stormed out of the room leaving a twitchting little captain.
" Round .. ? "
He sighed silently and passed his hand through his white silky hair. " What should I do.. ? "
" What should I do.. ? "
The question that was eating the insides of his heart ever since that day.
" Hinamori.. " his surprised eyes quickly gazed at the girl standing in the door frame.She bowed slightly and walked toward his desk,sitting down after a few seconds of looking at Hitsugaya. She spoke gently.
" How are you doing ? "
" ... "
" Fine " he answered obviously uncomfortable in this atmosphere. The words were followed by a good few minutes of silence. By now Hitsugaya had returned to doing his work.
" Why did you change so much .. Toshiro ? " she looked now at him,pain shouting in her dark chocolate eyes. Hitsugaya stared at the girl ,trying to chose his words with care.
" What's the meaning of your question ? "
" It's about (Name)-chan .. "
" ... "
She grew angry at his dead response and got up with tears in her eyes.
" You don't have a heart ! You're not the Shiro-chan I knew !! " she screamed,storming away when a cold hand caught her wrist. She sniffed and turned her head slightly,looking away.
" You met her? "
" By mistake ... But I was happy! I talked to her.. she.. she was unchanged. She told me.. that.. she's sick.. and that you don't seem happy here"
Toshiro looked down,slowly drawing back his grip on the girl's wrist.
" How could you not care? How could you do such a thing.. ? I .. I just.. It's too difficult for me to imagine this. " she closed her eyes and breathed in " I'm sorry I disturbed you. I have nothing to do here anymore" she left.
" Hinamori! " his voice reached her too late and the door was slammed shut.
" What shoud I do .. ? What ? "
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Hitsugaya pressed firmly the sheath of his zanpakuto and inhaled deeply. He leaved his office,closing the door behind him and bumping into his lieutenant. He growled faintly, rolling his eyes.
" Taicho ,where are you going? "
" To Rukongai " he pushed her aside and walked forward. Ichimaru happened to be around and breathed next to Rangiku's frame.
" Who's goin' to Rukongai ? " . She pointed toward her captain, all nerves in her body,trembling.
" Well well.. isn'it a shame for a captain to go in Rukongai ? " he cooed in his usual happy voice,bouncing slightly toward Hitsugaya.
" That's none of your bussines Gin. I have some something to do there and I don't give a damn about being a captain or not right now. " he attacked with harsh words. Gin pouted mockingly.
" Well then.. Bye Bye ! "
" Hn. "
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You slowly opened your eyes and looked around you.
I slept a lot again .. .
The same landscape that you've been seeing for the past few months. A dark chamber with sun rays penetrating shyly through the isolated windows. It made you vomit,seeing it so often. It made you metally tired.
" (Name) ? "
You looked around with wide eyes. It seemed like a familiar voice had called your name.
I'm hallucinating.. right?
You leaned back on the rigid pillow and closed your eyes.
(Name) .. . You looked up again to see the sillhouette of a not so tall person,walking in. Your eyes widened with surprised at the image of the white haired young man.
" Hi-Hitsugaya-kun .. what.. what are you doing here ? " . He walked to your bed and rested his hand on the edge of it,frowning.
" (Name)-chan.. I'm sorry. "
You looked at his face. How white it seemed in all this darkness. It was like a light sparkling in the middle of nothing. The perfect line of his lips moving up and down and not being able to form words yet. You could feel his steady breath close to your face. It was like a exhalation of ice.
" It's alright Hitsugaya-kun "
" Being a captain ... doesn't make me happy. Having power.. doesn't make me happy. Being a prodigy.. either. "
" .. Toshiro .. "
" I realised that .. I don't care if I'm a captain, I don't care if I live in Seireitei or Rukongai as long as I am unhappy. But.. that's not all .. " he looked down again,bitting his lips. You stood higher and gently touched his cold hand with your warm one. He looked back in your eyes.
" It makes other people unhappy too.. and I don't want that. " He threw his arms around your shoulder,breathing in your innocent scent. " I don't want to lose you .. "
" Shiro-chan.. " a few tears made their way gracefully,on your flushed face, and you smiled. " I'm going to die anyway--"
"Don't say that so reckless!! " his grip tightened.
" Shiro.. "
" I'm here to make it up to you in order to forgive me. "
" I already did "
" I made a fool of myself all this time.. " he pushed you gently back,looking in your eyes and stirring emotion and more tears.Brushing his lips over yours and catching them in a airy dance,both your hearts flinched with ache and desire.You felt how the butterflies in your stomach were bouncing restless and you gently rested your hand in the crook of his neck. Your lips finaly parted away and both stared in each other's eyes.
" I will never take any other path that's not including you again .. never.. " he whispered affectively,buring your head in his chest. You smiled warmly and wrapped your arms around his waist,crying tears of happiness.
Di End !! Hope you liked it ^____^
