M.Shadows *No Ones Heart Beats More For Him Than Mine* M. Shadows

" =talking
* = thoughts
() = talking to self

(www.myspace.com, login, ahhhh blog, blog, blog, here we are blog, time to start my morning)

Hey everyone in myspace land, its me, your best friend, TaY. aww who else would it have been, i guess today is going to be my rational day, ive already told the person that works at tim hortons what i think of their shitty service, and i told the guy at the gas station what i think of his comments about my lamborguini. so word to the wise stay out of my way today. after i finish this im going to my brothers house, you know brian my big bro. he just got back from touring and hes having a huge bbq with the band and friends. my dad says itd be nice for me to make an appearance. see back in the day i used to like a certain member of the band, and he liked me back only problem was i was too young, and he had a girlfriend, but just like the title of this blog says no ones heart beats more for him than mine. but... only you guys will ever know. peace out myspace peeps im going to shower.

(save, post, log off, start menu, shut down)
"bye bye laptop" i said closing the screen and walking into my bathroom.
i showered super fast and got dressed in a short mini and a white beater with my white flipflops, i put my hair up in a pony tail, put on eyeliner, mascara, powder and lipgloss, grabbed my sunglasses, cell phone and keys and headed to the vehicle.

(hmmm what cd, lets see, avenged, no, coheed, no, fallout, no, damn i need knew music, ahh here we go vengaboys, just what i need)
as i pulled out of myyard i had the windows down, sunroof back, blarring 'boom boom boom boom' by the vengaboys.
(damn people staring at me assholes)
i pulled into my brothers yard and turned my car off, i stepped out leaving my cell phone and shit but bringing my keys.
i walked up to the house and opened the door.
"michelle darling im home" i yelled knowing michelle would be in the kitchen.
"aww my tay tay how ive missed you" she said hugging me tightly.
"gotta breathe sweetheart gotta breathe"i said laughing.
i grabbed a plate of ribs and made my way out back to matt who was running the grill.
"here you go pretty boy" i said handing them over.
"ahh looky at you and your sexy ass" he said laughing.
he hugged me and kissed my cheek.
"matt you shouldnt say that you have a lover remember" i said laughing.
"shhh shes inside though" matt grinned.
"whos inside" val asked walking up to us.
"michelle" i said saving matt.
"oh i thought you already saw her" val said eyeing me.
"i did VAL, i was discussing something about her with matt though" i said through clenched teeth.
"oh well are you done" she asked.

without answering i turned on my heel and walked over to my family.
"hey daddy" i said hugging him from behind.
"hey sweetheart how are ya" he asked.
"good good, just working recently and dealing with assholes" i said hugging my step mom as well.
my lil sister ran up to me and hugged me.
"sissy sissy sissy i missed you dont make me stay here with these freaks lets go to the music store or tattoo shop instead" she said laughing.
"for one your not old enough to have a tattoo, and two im being forced to stay as well so we will suffer together" i laughed.
"hey sis" brian said hugging me.
"hey bubba how was tour" i asked.
"good crazy people crazy fans you know the drill" he laughed.
"that i do, wheres my boys at" i asked.
"matt i--"
"not matt, im talking about MY BOYS" i said laughing.
"oh their over by the pool" he said smirking.

i walked to the pool lifting my shades off my face.
"well arent you assholes a sight for sore eyes" i laughed.
"tay whats up" zacky said being the first to hug me.
"nothing hows things" i asked.
"great never better" he said smiling.
"gena hug me i need love" i laughed.
"i know you always want my love" she laughed.
"damn straight"
after hugging jimmy and johnny and chatting with all of them for a while we were told to go eat. which this dinner should deffinitely be fun.
"so tay what have you been doing" brian asked me.
"little bit of everything" i muttered.
"prostituting" val mummbled.
"actually, im tattooing, and helping with geffen records, and im doing a comic book with gene simmons and nick simmons, also im running a website for a band called to thee i vow" i said looking her in the eye.
"sounds fun whats that band like" zacky asked breaking the tension.
"their like you guys only their all huge like matty boy" i laughed.
everyone laughed.
except valary.
"so val hows your life been going, having fun mooching off the band" i asked.
"your a bitch" she said.
"well your the only girlfriend in the band with no job, you started a clothing line then signed it over to matt cause it was too much for you so like i said are you having fun mooching off the band" i asked.
"aww so you do google my name" she said grinning.
"no actually kids message my myspace telling me all the horrible things about you and telling me to talk my bestest friend matty into dumping you, would you like me to keep going" i asked.
" no id like you both to shut up" daddy said.
" ok then bye" i said getting up.
i walked up front to my car with my brother and zacky right behind me.
"i guess ill see you tomorrow when we come over" brian said smiling.
"dont bring her" i snarled.
"we wont" zacky said smiling.
"better not" i grinned.
i climbed in my car and rolled the windows back down, cranked it up and blared 'amaranth' by nightwish.
i saw matt at the corner of the house looking upset when i pulled out.
i made sure to flip the bird at val who was walking up behind him.
i used to have no problem at all with valary, but then she found out i liked matt, now she uses it against me. every chance she gets she makes me look bad in front of matt. one of these days i swear i will put an end to her.

(ok house key house key house key, ahhh there you are.)
i walked in and put my stuff on the counter, as soon as i sat on the couch my phone in the kitchen started ringing.
(jesus fuck phish why me)
i walked into the kitchen and picked up the phone.
"hello the incredibly gay escort service here what can i do for you" i asked.
"tay its matt" he said sounding angry.
"hello gorgeous what can i do for you" i asked.
"why did you tell val when you were here earlier that you hoped our unborn children died and that you hope she dies giving birth and that you wish she was out of my life" matt said practically yelling.
"matt i know whats going on and ill be right over to solve it" i said.
"good fuckin idea" he said hanging up.
i walked out to my car leaving my cell phone and shit behind.
i got in and drove to matts house, the house he shares with 'valary'.
i got out of the car and walked up to the house and right inside.
"who do you think you are walking into my house" val asked.
"umm tara haner, tay for short, and you are... " i grinned.
"shut the fuck up and solve the problem" matt yelled.
"wow fiesty lil man" i laughed.
"solve it now" he said pissed.
"see matt i never said anything like that to val i didnt even talk to her until when i was talking with you about michelle ^i winked while saying that^, and then at dinner, so its impossible that i could have said any of that to her, and if you dont believe me you can ask michelle cause i only talked to her in the house and then took food out to you with her." i said smirking.
"val you have explaining to do" matt said.
"well if she wasnt so in love with you i wouldnt have to try ruining her" val screamed.
tears streamed down my face and out the door i went.
i drove for forever, i didnt know where i was going but i was gonna get there and fast.

i remember turning a curve at a highrate of speed and then i remember everything going black...

i woke up in a bright ass room, so bright i had to close my eyes at least four times before they were adjusted to the light.
"where the fuck am i" i asked
"heaven my child" i heard a voice.
then laughter filled the room.
"zacky your an asshole" i muttered.
"you got in a bad accident and your paralyzed" johnny said trying to hold back a grin.
"johnathan your an asshole to" i smiled.
" ok truth is you got in an accident your head hit the steering wheel really hard you were almost to la when it happened what the hell you were doing way the fuck out there is beyond me but yeah youve been out for three days" brian said.
"oh i remember now" i said looking up at everyone until my eyes met with matts.
"why were you headed to los angeles" johnny asked.
"i was going to meet some friends" i smiled at him.
"going 112 around a 90 degree turn" brian asked.
"i was late" i smirked.
"ahhh ms haner your awake" the doctor said walking in.
"yep and ready to go lay in my own bed" i grinned.
" i bet, your free to go after you sign these release forms" the doc said.
i signed them and then got dressed.
"hows my car" i asked no one in particular.
"totaled" johnny laughed.
"are you serious" i asked.
"yep so matt volunteered to take you everywhere you need to go" brian smiled.
" gee thanks" i said watching the ground.
"which means right now im taking you home" matt said pulling me towards his car.
i got in and buckled up as did he.
after everyone else pulled out matt turned to me.
"why did you tell me before" he asked.
"i tried to you said i was too young for you" i said facing the window.
"your not too young now tay" he said pulling my chin.
"yeah well your with valary" i said snarling.
"not anymore" he said in a happy tone.
"yeah well just the same" i said crossing my arms as we pulled out of the parking lot.
"uh matt you passed my road" i said watching the road go by.
"i know your staying with me since im driving you everywhere, your house is for said by your dad and all your stuff is at my house waiting to be unpacked" matt said grinning.
"he cant sale my house and you cant take my things without asking"i said pissed.
"well, we did you were out for three days they didnt know if you were gonna make it" matt said sounding a bit hurt.
"sorry im just pessimistic" i said looking out the window.