After your thoughts ran in circles, you covered your ears and pulled your knees to your chest.
And cried…
The door opened and Chris sat next to you.
What’s wrong? Baby? Talk to me… – He put a hand on your back and rubbed it soothingly.
You looked up at him and his loving green eyes… And knew he’d understand.
Taking his hand, you turned to him and took a deep breath.
You remember the other night when you were like *better safe than sorry*?
He shifted his eyes, trying to figure out what you meant.
OMG… - He muttered. – You mean..?
Yes.
He covered his lips an you noted he makes the same gesture as his mom. Which was so adorable.
You know what I mean? – You asked.
He just nodded, still with no reaction.
Sorry! – You smiled and wiped away a tear.
He laughed and threw his head back.
Looking up at you again, he just laughed like he was surprised and relieved at the same time.
He scooped you into a hug and said to himself. – I’m gonna be a daddy!
So you wanna keep it? – You pulled away, with seriousness in your voice.
Don’t you? – He furrowed his eyebrows.
I do. – You said realizing yourself that you did want it. – Of course I do! – You said to yourself like you have been so stupid for even considering abortion.
We gotta celebrate this! – He jumped up and hit his head on the roof of the car. You just laughed and kissed his forehead.
So Chris went to buy champagne and you went inside and noticed your answering machine flashing.
Hello, sweetheart, it’s me. – His voice rung through the air, making your heart stop beating. – I couldn’t wait for you to call me anymore. Uh, we… God, that’s awful. I can’t imagine how you must feel…
I felt just fine till this call! Damn it! I was happy! Stop it, just stop it! – You yelled at the machine, not listening to what he was saying. – Enough… - You calmed down. – That’s it, that is it! – You ripped the phone outta the wall and slammed it on the floor. – I’m sorry, Ville. But… I’m fuckin’ starting a family.
The word family felt good. You sat down and smiled to yourself. It was a kind of sad thought, but it also made you happy. You just realized that could be Chris’ only chance to have a child and form a family. And he was such a great man… He’d make a wonderful father. And you wanted to be the one to give him that chance.
You were so excited and called Mel right away, from you cell phone, obviously…
Hello?
Mel, it’s me!
Hey, what’s up?
I’m pregnant!
What? You are? OMG, I was right!
Yeah, that’s kinda not the point…
Shut up! OMG, congratulations…
Thanks. I just told Chris and he’s positively beaming! We’re keeping it!
God… well, let me talk to the proud father!
Oh, he’s out, buying champagne or something… to celebrate!
Great…
If you’re alone, come on over…
Oh, I’m with Orlando.
Um…Well if you’re not getting’ busy, bring him over too. Chris’ll be surprised.
Sure then. We’ll be there in twenty.
Cool.
Babe?
Yeah?
This is so incredible…
I know.
~~~Fast Forward One Month~~~
*Fill in: when Orlando and Mel came over to congratulate you, you announced you’ll also be leaving in about a week for Germany for a new therapy for Chris. And another shocker was that in a few months the auditions for the casting of LOTR would be over and that they are already looking for the just right locations for the filming and making the sets. Mel already made arrangements for you two to go on some acting classes and several photo shoots, so you’d be more in their face when you try out. It was pointless for you now, but you decided to be there for her and agreed that, when Chris couldn’t make it, she’d go with you on Lamaze class in return.
And, so you went to Germany with a new streak of hope for better days ahead.
