All You Need Is Love

this is not really a story, persay, but i had to post this somewhere because it captures the little things about love that make up the essence of it and what it can truly be, and that's simply beautiful. and a little bit about myself, i'm a hopeless romantic, a "i'm in love with love" kind of person, so whenever i read this, i was jealous in a sense because i want to experience a love as strong as this, i want to experience that feeling of needing someone else so bad to the point that i can't imagine my life without them, i want the feeling of butterfiles in my stomach, heart racing, weak-knees kind of reaction when his smile reaches my gaze. and i also cried, a little, when i read this. lol. but anyway, enough of me rambling on. it's not mine, either. it's not a fictional piece. it's actually someone's else's feelings poured into words. and that's what makes this love seem so real to me.

i'm not sure how to start this. but i'm going to start by saying anytime i've told you you're the best thing that has ever happened to me, i wasn't lying. i mean it. you're always there for me. when this dumb disease is making me feel like i should just give up, you help me through it. when i fall, you pick me back up. when i cry, you make me smile again. you'll always be the one i turn to when something goes wrong, because i know you'll always be there for me. as stupid as it sounds, i feel like i can't live without you. yeah, people say that, but what do they mean? i don't know what they mean. but i know what i mean. i mean i wouldn't know what to do if something happened and i lost you. my life would not be the same without you. you're the person that puts the smile on my face. and you have kept it there. which is pretty amazing for me. you don't let me think horrible things about myself. people tell me i'm beautiful, pretty, gorgeous. but i don't believe it unless it comes from you. i miss you a lot. i gave you my heart not knowing it would be this hard. well i say that like i regret it, but i don't regret it at all. when i first met you, i never would have imagined that i would have such strong feelings for you. i never would have thought that i would have dreams about you, or miss being by your side. or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name. when i first met you, i never would have thought that i would love you. remember when i said i love you more than anything and you said i love you more than that? well sometimes i don't believe that. we fight a lot. and i'm sooo sorry about that. you amaze me. you put up with all my crap. no one really understands us. i don't understand us. you swear you love me more, but i think if you really knew how much i love you, you'd be surprised. i don't know how many times i've told you, but the feeling i get when we kiss is just unexplainable. i don't care what anyone else thinks. i'm in love. that's not changing. i don't care that i'm only fourteen. i think age is just a number. you mean the world to me. the only place i want to be is in your arms. i keep thinking of how much i love talking to you. i daydream about you all the time replaying pieces of our conversation, laughing at funny things that you said. i wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, i know one thing for sure, you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.
you've made me cry many times, but if you added all the times up and multiplied them by infinty, that would be how many times you've made me smile. i don't think you know that you're amazing. you think i'm going to find someone better. well babe, there is no one better. i have the best. i know you don't think you're a good boyfriend, and i know i sometimes tell you you're not. but you know me. i say things to make you feel bad. i don't mean half of it. when i say you're a bad boyfriend, i really mean "i can't think of a reason that i shouldn't be with you". yeah, kinda confusing, i know. i like it when your arms are around me and my head is on your chest. i feel safe. not the kind of safe like "someones gonna kill me but you're saving me" safe. (even though i know you would!) but the "i know you're not going to break my heart" kind of safe. i don't really care how much it hurts in the end. i'm with you now, and that's all that matters. i don't think i could ask for more. well i could. i wish i got to see you a lot more. even if i can't, i'm going to love you. i tell you i hate you, and you tell me you love me. i hope you never stop loving me, cause i'm never going to stop loving you. not sure why though. i mean, i know we're going to break up sometime. i don't want that to happen soon, but i think you know what i mean. there's still going to be a part of me that's going to love you no matter what happens to us. i don't know if you've seen it, but i think we've both changed eachother. i'm not sure how i've changed you. but i know how you've changed me. i actually believe in myself a little bit more than i did a few months ago. i was so scared to love someone. but with you, things are different. i was always so negative, and you gave me reasons to be positive.