Me & You | [Ryan Sheckler] Thirty-Three

October; 6 Months Pregnant
So, its October now, I'm 6 months pregnant, which means I only have 3 more left! Thank god! I am so sick of being this huge and not able to do certain things because of this big ass stomach. Me and Ryan are getting along pretty good, I'm happy about that. My parents still keep offering for me to move back in, but I keep refusing. Things with myself have been, I don't know...I been feeling very fat, which is probably normal, but its making me feel bad about myself, giving me very low self esteem. I'm also having a bunch of different mood swings and I been VERY emotional. I don't wanna hang around Ryan because I don't wanna flip out on him or start crying for any reason in front of him. Ugh, this stuff is hard.
I'm at my brother's house, which is pretty much my home now. Brian went out with his wife and the kids, so I'm here by myself. My cell phone starts going off, its Ryan.
"Hello?" I answer
"Jenn, I have to talk to you about something. Can I come over and pick you up?" Ryan asks
"Is it important?"
"Very!"
"Alright, you can"
"Alright, great"
We hang up the phone. I wonder what he wants to talk about. I also wonder more about when he'll be here and how long its gonna take me to get dressed! I go thru my stuff as quick as I can, ya know for being pregnant and all. I get changed into this:
(all except the jewelry)
I go downstairs, and then a few minutes later the door bell rings. I walk over to the door and I open it, its Ryan.
"Hey Ry" I say
"Hey, are you ready?" Ryan asks
"Yeah"
We leave my house and we get into his Range Rover, he starts to drive.
"So why did you pick me up to take me to your house, just to talk?" I ask
"Hm, I'm not really sure. I thought your brother was home so I thought it would be a better place to talk" Ryan says
"Oh, alright then"
We get to Ryan's house. He gets out of the car and I just sit there. He walks over to my side and opens the door.
"Whats wrong? Are you okay?" Ryan asks
"I'm fine" I say
"No, whats the matter?"
"I'm so fat!!"
"Jenn, you're not fat"
"No, you try carrying around a huge stomach all day and night!"
"I know this must be really hard on you, but you only have 3 months to go, and it will be well worth it in the end"
"I know..its just...ugh"
"I know"
Ryan helps me out of the car and he shuts the door. He wraps his arms around me and gives me a hug.
"I hate being fat and ugly!" I say
"Stop putting yourself down! You are not fat and you are not ugly" Ryan says
"Sorry, but thats just how I feel right now"
"Don't worry, things will be better soon. And you're still beautiful in my eyes"
"Thanks Ryan" I half smile
"Mhm. Now put a smile on...a real one"
I stand there not doing anything, but then he makes a funny face and makes me laugh. Then we walk up to the door. I go in first because Ryan is behind me. When I open the door, all I hear is.....SURPRISE! I look around the room and see all my friends and my family, excluding my parents. Also see some of Ryan's skater friends, and a few famous people he knows. Even some of my old friends from NYC are here! WOW! I'm gonna cry! I feel my face get a bit red, I'm kinda embarrssed, and then I turn around and Ryan is right there. He puts his arms around me as my head rests on his shoulder. Haha, this was very unexpecting. Everyone in the room 'Awwwws'. After I get over it I say hi to all my friends from back home, I get a bunch of presents, and I see everybody, its just great. Ryan comes up behind me and puts his arms around me.
"So, did you expect this at all?" Ryan asks
I turn around in his arms
"No, which is why I was so shocked and I cried. Who's idea was this?" I ask
"Mine" Ryan says
"Yeah"
"You're still so sweet"
"I try"
I smile at him
"Alright face the camera you two!" Missy yells
"Missy!" Me and Ryan both say
"Nope nope, I want a picture of mommy, daddy, and baby" She says, "Now face me"
We do as she says, Ryan puts his arms around me and we smile. She takes a few pictures of us, just like everyone else. Everyone keeps taking pictures of us. Ryan goes off to talk to Casey, and my two friends from back home, Ashley and Kasey are talking to me.
"Wow, the girl moves to California, and starts dating Ryan Sheckler, has his baby, you did pretty good for yourself" Kasey says
"Haha, wow." I say
"You're so lucky!! I can't believe you're actually Ryan Sheckler's girlfriend!!"
"Oh, I'm not his girlfriend"
"What?!?" The two of them say
"We dated since..well, pretty much since I moved here. But we broke up and then we found out I was pregnant"
"Oh, well, Ryan is still very sweet for helping and being there for you the whole time" Kasey says
"Yeah, thats very sweet of him" Ashley says
"Yeah, I know."
After I talk to them, I walk over to Taylor and we start talking. We watch Ryan and his friends goof off a bit
"Ya know, Ryan planned this whole baby shower" Taylor says
"Wow, he said it was his idea, but he didn't tell me he planned it" I say
"Yeah, he planned the whole thing, its really sweet"
"Yeah, it is"
"Hes gonna be a great dad"
"Yeah, in my eyes hes already the greatest dad"
"Awwww!!"
I just smile
"So!! Are you excited?" Taylor asks
"I'm excited, and I'm still a bit nervous about this whole parenting stuff" I say
"Yeah, I don't know how you can do it"
"Me neither. Even though me and Ryan are pretty clueless, I'm glad hes with me"
"Yeah, me too. Ryan isn't the type of guy to blow it all off, I'm glad you have him, I wouldn't want you to face this by yourself"
"Yeah"
Me and Taylor's little talk really got me thinking about things....anyway....After the baby shower, I say bye to everyone and they all leave. Casey and Taylor go out to dinner so me and Ryan are at his house by ourselfs. I walk over to Ryan and I give him a hug
"Well hey" Ryan says
"Thanks for everything, it really meant a lot to me" I say
"Anytime, I'm glad you liked it. I figured it would be a good surprise for you"
"Yeah, it really was, it was totally sweet"
Ryan smiles at me
"Can I get you anything?" Ryan asks
"You did enough for me today" I say
"Alright then"
We sit on the couch and start to watch tv, then Ryan turns off the tv, huh?
"Can we talk?" Ryan asks