I thought Sesshomaru had a cold heart? (profile)

recap: you had been invited to a ball and sesshomaru was off to find you a dress while rin was up in her room, looking for something to wear herself.

~Quiz Start~

"Kia! This is the one i want to wear!" she shouted gleefully. She was holding up a pinkish red, old gothic dress that looked like something a little girl might have put on her baby doll before Barbies were invented. It was actually a very pretty dress. "well, what are you waiting for? try it on" you said. She went into her walk-in closet and came out a few minutes later swirling. But it looked kind of off. "Hon, wait a minute" you said, realizing the problem: the dress had to be laced up in the back. you took your time, lacing and tying til you reached the top and you made the most beautiful bow you could, then you were done. The dress was sort of frilly...and you knew the one thing to go with it: black boots. but wait, this was feudal japan...sesshomaru shouldn't have english clothing in his closets! "Rin...where did you get this clothing?" you asked. "well....see.....sesshomaru has been in the present world before...lots of times. sometimes he buys me dresses and shoes that i can play in" she replied. *he really cares for her alot* you thought, smiling. "That's nice of him. do you have any black boots?" you asked. "Lots! Come look!" she said. So you followed her to the back of her closet and there were rows and rows of shoes. It took you a minute, but you finally found the right ones. "Look rin, these will go perfect with your outfit." you pointed out, talking about a pair of black boots with a buckle on the sides. Rin ran over and tried them on right away. Sure enough, they looked gorgeous with her pinkish-red frilly dress. Now what were YOU going to wear tho? As if reading your mind, sesshomaru came through the door, holding a long VERY closely fitted dress that came out about have way down your calves. *I'm going to have to walk like mortisha!* you thought. then he pulled out another. it wasn't so closely fitted but it still was kinda tight It was an all black dress with no straps, just some black see through frill around the top that draped behind your shoulders. You like it alot. but you liked the red one, which also had black see through frill around the top and draping behind. "Thank you, Sesshomaru. I'll go try them on" you said. He smiled and sat down on rins bed. "He's so different than he was when we first met" you whispered to yourself. It took you a few minutes, but you finally got the red dress on. You didn't exactly have to walk like mortisha but it was pretty close. you fluffed out the bottom and opened the door. Sesshomaru and Rin both sat there gaping at you. "What are you guys? a bunch of dead fish?" you asked. "Compared to your beauty, yes" Sesshomaru replied to your remark. You blushed. alot. Rin smiled. "Alright you two whats going on?" you asked. They both just stared at you. your face turned an even more brighter red and you had to turn back into the closet. You tried on the black dress, and you were right. It did have more walking room. But then you spotted something...it was a black corset with red lace and then dress part flowed out in beautiful black. You were stunned just looking at it. so instead of walking out there you took the dress you had on back off and you tried on the red and black corset dress. "Its beautiful" you said, spinning around in the closet by yourself. *But why is this in rins closet?* you wondered. You opened the closet doors. Same response as last time. "Kia, where did you get that?" Sesshomaru asked. "I found it in rins closet. it looked alot prettier than the other black one" you said. "kia, follow me" he said. he led you down the dark staircases to the garden, yet again. Rin had gone to get something to eat. Then sesshomaru began acting....different again. The garden looked like no other now. it was dark but sesshomaru had lit candles all over the place, it was dim, and the water sparkled. it was probably one of the most romantic things you'd ever seen. But what was more surprising was you felt two hands lightly touch your waist from behind, then Sesshomaru walked around in front of you. He put both hands on your waist. "Kia....might I.....dance with you?" you could see him struggling with his words to say the right thing. His amber eyes glistened down on you, and suddenly, his words meant nothing to you. he didn't need them. "Yes" you replied, and wrapped your arms around his neck and swayed back and forth..you really didn't know how to dance. Suddenly sesshomaru leaned in close, and whispered in your ear, "Your so beautiful, Tsukiko." it sent shivers down your back. "your quite handsom yourself" you replied. then you decided to ask questions. "We've talked alot..on and off..about this..but...why do you love me?" you asked. he took a minute on that one. "You draw me to you. i think about you all the time. and there is this feeling...this sensation i get..everytime i see you. i can't draw myself away. And your so beautiful.......but thats besides the fact. i love you. i can't explain why, kia. i just do" he explained. You nodded and smiled. "But..do you love me back?" he asked. "Sesshomaru-Sama i've loved you since the time i met you in the woods, while i was with inuyasha and kagome." you replied. "I see." he said. Suddenly he spun you outward, then brought you back to him and caught you in his arms, so you were all wrapped up, unable to move. "i thought we were dancing" you said. "were, is the keyword." he said and he gazed down at you, planting a gentle kiss on your lips.The kiss left you breathless. you didn't know what it was but it left you in a trance. "You have something to ask me, Tsukiko?" he offered. "How did you know?" you asked. he just smirked. "Thats not the question you wanted to ask me, now was it?" "No..." you replied. He did a quick move and spun you around into his other arm and caught you just in time, still being held by only sesshomaru-sama's brute strength, you asked "So....what about the times in my room? you gave me the necklace and everything. you told me your feelings...yet it seemed....empty. and you kept saying something about 'true love' and knowing feelings....what was going on??" you questioned. "i am very ashamed of my self, son of inutaisho, to admit that naraku did cast me under a spell. and that necklace your wearing is actually a tracking device. no...i would not have admitted my love in such an...odd way." he explained. you gasped. "Oh..which reminds me," he grabbed your hands and ran his up your arms to your shoulders where they rested along your neck, and with and effortless yank, ripped the necklace off. he crushed it in his palm and dropped the shards to the ground. "This, is from me" being sesshomaru, as odd as he was being, he was not going to lower himself on his knees. but, he did pull out a beautiful satan black box. "Its yours..i hope you like it....and that you wish to keep it..but if you do not that is ok too." he said. "Oh Sesshomaru-Sama anything you give me will be cherished forever...literally...unless you rip it off my neck and crush it in your palms." you giggled, holding sesshomaru in suspense. "Please, open it." he asked of you. you slowly opened the black satan box and inside was a long silver necklace with a purple crescent moon, and a choker to go with it. "Its beautiful. it reminds me of you in such a wonderful way." you told him. you were sure you almost caught a smile. "Queen Tsukiko, these are not just jewelry pieces. . they.. are slightly tainted with my power. so in which you may always be protected." he explained. you felt your eyes water. "Sesshomaru... i ... i never knew i meant that much. i mean sure you say you love me but...i can't believe this" you threw yourself into his arms, hoping he wouldn't mind. evidently he didn't for he wrapped his arms around you tightly and kissed the top of your head. The moonlight glistened in the stream, reflecting dim light all around the garden. finally you pulled away and sat down next to it. looking up at the full moon.
"tis beautiful tonight..is it not?" you said, staring up at the stars the way you used to. out the corner of your eye you could see sesshomaru looking at you. "its very beautiful. though...not as beautiful as you," he said. You smiled, not being able to help it. you scooted closer and he wrapped his arms around you as you lay your head down on his chest. "So..." sesshomaru began, but noticed you weren't listening. he looked down and realized you'd fallen asleep.
~Sesshomaru's POV~
*she's so beautiful when she sleeps. I've come so far. i can't believe i, Sesshomaru-Sama, have fallen for, and admitted my love for, another girl. a part human part dog demon/vampire girl.* you picked Kia up and took her to your room. She stirred a little but she seemed to still be asleep, so you laid her down on your bed and grabbed another satan blanket to put over her. then her body started to glow with a purple aura, as you realized she was transforming in her sleep. Her fangs grew out and her ears popped up as did she grow claws. "I love you..." you whispered, heading out the door. you still were..unable to handle love. as a demon weren't to have a heart. you didn't think it was possible to love. but as you were walking out the door, she said "No sesshomaru. please don't go. please no" and tears began to form. you knew exactly what dream she was having. you walked over to her and climbed in behind her and wrapped your arms around her waist. "I'm right here. i will never leave you again" you said in her ear softly. she relaxed and smiled in her sleep. "Thank you sesshomaru" she said. you thought maybe she'd be awake and talking to you, but she was still merily sleeping.
~next morning~ Kia's pov~
the sunlight shining through the window woke you up but as you went to shut the blinds you realized you were trapt in something- Sesshomaru. you gasped. then smiled. he looked so sweet and innocent in his sleep. suddenly you became enveloped in your feelings for him and you sunk back into the covers facing him and wrapped your arms around him as well. "Good morning" a sesshy voice said. "Hello" you replied. "don't get too comfortable" he warned. "Why not?" you said, looking at him with a questionable look on your face. "You've got a ball to attend, and you must not be late." he said. "OH shit!" you said jumping up...just to be brought back down. "I didn't say you could go" he smirked. "Sesshomaru.." you said, kinda aggrevated. holding you tight and rolling himself on top of you he kissed your forhead. "now you can go" he said. you giggled, he was so funny when you were alone.. yet it was kinda scary. then he got a serious look on his face. "go. now." he said. "Grrrr! fine" you replied and got up to go to your own room. you were in a long red gown. "That pervert changed my clothes again" you growled to yourself in the mirror. *oh well..nothing i can do about it* you thought. So you put on your corset dress and earrings, holding your ever beloved necklace in your hands. you put it on and added your shoes, and such. your hair was held up in a clippy, so it kinda sprouted out like a fountain in a way. your pale base and dark eyeliner made your eyes glow a bright bright blue. it was gorgeous.
something you would never realize yourself.
~Sesshomaru's POV~.
you were in your studys, and rin was in her room getting ready. as was Tsukiko. They had already finished and tsukiko was probably in rin's room, helping her dress up. *maybe they're done* you thought. so you stood up and walked down the corrider to rin's room and knocked. "yes" a chorus of both girls came. "are you two about finished?" you asked. the door opened. "What do you think of rin?" Tsukiko asked. but you couldn't look at rin your eyes were fixed on Kia and you couldn't get them away. her hair was up in a fountain like shape and her blue eyes were gleaming with content. her beautiful pale skin smelled of cocanut and her corset was rather tight, but it shaped her body well. she had some clevage showing in that dress though and it complimented her hips alot. "Uh.." was all you managed. *oh father...what am i doing? standing here, watching a two girls both in which i love so much. what a shame* *(slap!) "Sesshomaru! stopped staring! what do you think of rin?!" she demanded of you. her face kinda red. "oh, rin, you look...nice" he said. "Thank you!" she thanked him and did a little curtsy that made kia giggle. "Well, what do you think of Tsukiko?" she asked. "uh...tsukiko looks gorgeous. but..dear.. must you wear that dress? i think you need to pick a diffe-" "No." she demanded. "well..." "whats wrong with it?" she asked. she looked kind of hurt. you walked up to her and hugged her. "don't take it the wrong way..you look gorgeous in it. too....gorgeous.." you told her. hoping that was hint enough. "if you say so.." but she didn't seem to believe you. "come on, lets go" you tried to distract them. so they got on the two headed dragon and you were going to walk. "jaken!" you yelled. "Yes?" a sqeaky voice came. "Stay here and watch the castle. if anything should go wrong..." "Yes ok mi lord. nothing shall go wrong. have a wonderful time!" he said. you didn't reply you just grabbed the reins on your animal and headed out. rin in front, kia in back. it was silent for a couple miles. til rin spoke up. "Tsukiko...are you going to marry sesshomaru?" she asked. "ummm. i don't really kno..." *if only* you secretly thought. "Why not?" sesshomaru came in. "because...." you couldnt' exactly find a reason except..you weren't ready. you were only a teenager really. you didn't want to get married. "because?" he kept at it. "because i don't know" you replied. Sesshomaru stopped in his tracks and turned around. "What do you mean, 'you dont' know!'" he said. "i don't know!" you repeated. "HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW??" he shouted. "HOW THE FUCK WOULD I KNOW! I SAID I DON'T KNOW I'M SORRY!!!" you screamed back. "SORRY DOESN'T CUT ANYTHING. WHY NOT? YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME IS IT ALL FAKE?? WERE YOU LYING?" he yelled. "n-n-no" you said. tears welling up. screaming was one of your many weaknesses. "Stupid wench. don't even know why you don't want to marry someone you supposedly love." he commented. " 'stupid wench, stupid wench' is that all i fucking am to you? a 'STUPID WENCH??' " you asked. "Evidentally thats all you want to be to me!" he shouted again.

-i'm leaving you there. i know this is weird but i honestly am getting back to my stories. i'm sorry its sooo slow. i'm trying to keep everything right.