The Test Says Positive (please tell me i'm not pregnant) [[1]]

He looked at me, his jaw dropped. Almost immediately after noticing what he was doing he cleared his throat and asked, "What?"

"Don't make me say it again, please." I said looking at my hands.

"What happened? I mean...how?" he asked.

"Well I think you know how…" I said trying to remove some of the tenseness from the room.

"Haha well I know that but I mean..."

"We forgot to use a condom." I said answering his question.

"Oh." Shaun looked at his hands, my belly, then at me. He stared me straight in the eyes.

I cried. I knew he was disappointed in me. I didn't care what my parents thought. I didn't care what anyone thought. I only valued my brother's opinion and no one else's.

"Why are you crying sis?" He asked wiping the tears from my eyes.

"Your ashamed of me...aren't you?" I asked.

"No! Why should I be?" He asked putting his hand on my shoulder.

"You always told me to be careful and the only time I didn't pay close enough attention I might end up pregnant!" I said.

"Lindsay..."Shaun said wrapping me up in a hug. My head was up against his chest and I was soaking his shirt with tears. The smell of his cologne was soothing and I actually calmed down a little. Not saying that I'm in love with my own brother or anything, but I love his cologne. That's how the whole house smells sometimes and with me being so close to him, when I smell that smell it relaxes me and it stays in my mind and at that moment I know that he'll always be there for me. That's why it soothes me so much. Just to clarify that. I took a couple deep breaths. Each time breathing in Sean John (cologne). I wiped the tears that were now streaming down my face. Shaun had been rubbing my shoulder and he laid his head on top of mine. He continued where he left off, "if you are pregnant, we'll just have to work through it. It's no that big of a deal." I thought he meant being pregnant was that big of a deal. He actually meant that I didn't have to make a big deal out of him being ashamed of me. Which he wasn't. I looked up and smiled at him. He pulled me harder into the hug and rubbed his hand up and down my arm now, reassuring me that everything was -and is- gonna be okay.

"And by the way Lindsay..." Shaun said.

I looked up at him, "Yeah."

"Mom and dad aren't gonna be home for another couple of months. So I guess your in the clear until they walk in and see your 3 month baby bump." He said jokingly.