~Hold Your Peace In Pieces~

I woke up on September 1st after a long night’s sleep. College was pretty interesting this semester, but I missed Lia and Mike and William, but mostly I missed Adam. I rolled out of bed and took a shower then got some lunch and ate it in my room while I watched old episodes of The Office. My roommate was out with some other friends, so I put on high heels just for fun. I put on a dress and was dancing around to D.A.N.C.E. by Justice when I heard a knock on the door.

“Coming!” I said, quickly putting on some jeans and a t-shirt and taking off the heels. I opened the door and tackled Lia in a hug. “Hey Pheebs, what’s up?” Lia said smiling. “Hey Lia! Come on in” I said, moving so she could come in. I closed the door behind her and she flopped down on my bed. “You put all those pictures of TAI in here?” she said, looking around at my walls. “Yeah, so…?” I said as I looked at each one of them and smiled.

“Ugh, you’re a wreck.” Lia announced and rolled her eyes. “What do you mean I’m a wreck?” “Come on, you know you miss Sisky like crazy.” “Yeah, but I really don’t think he wants to see me Lia.” “What makes you think that?” “I ruined our friendship and any potential there was for a relationship! Speaking of relationships, are you and William dating yet?” Lia blushed and said “Don’t change the subject! And yes.” I squealed and hugged Lia tightly and we laughed. “So we need to go celebrate then” I said, putting my dress back on and smiling.

“Now all we need to do is get you with Sisky and then all will be good in the world.” We were at a little restaurant in Chicago and enjoying dinner. “What makes you think I even want to get with him? I just want my best guy friend back.” Lia snorted and sipped her coffee.

“Are you all done here?” the waitress said. “Yeah, can we get the check please?” Lia said. We paid the check, then started towards the door when I saw Adam. “Holy shit Lia it’s Adam!” I squeaked, hiding behind her. “So go TALK to him moron!” “No, I can’t, I mean…” We walked a little further and I realized he wasn’t there alone. There was a girl sitting at the table with him, and as I watched, he leaned close to her and they kissed. “Oh dear…” Lia said, taking my hand and pulling me out of the restaurant as tears filled my eyes and threatened to fall.

“Are you o-fuck that you’re not okay” Lia said on the cab ride back to my dorm. “Why would he do that?” I mumbled, playing with the hem of my dress and sniffling. “Because he’s an ass? Either that or he thinks you guys are just friends and it’s alright for him to date other girls.” “But I thought you were just friends? Or didn’t you say you only wanted your best friend back?” I nodded and blew my nose. “So then if he’s just your friend, then why does this bother you so much?” “I have NO idea!” I yelled, but in the back of my head the word ‘jealousy’ seemed pretty relevant.

I looked at my phone for the time (10:22pm) and saw that I had a text message. From Adam. ‘I saw you leave that restaurant just now, why didn’t you say hi?’ I groaned and banged my head on the window then replied ‘Maybe because you eating some whore’s face instead of your food?’ and turned off my phone.

“You need ice cream” Lia said decidedly, pulling me into the convenience store near my dorm and buying a pint of raspberry vanilla swirl frozen yogurt, which is the best flavor in the entire world. We sat on my bed and ate ice cream, crying and laughing while watching Love Actually and then A Walk to Remember. “At least I don’t have leukemia” I said with a small smile as I finished off the ice cream.