EVAPILOT00/TERMINATE {Neon Genesis Evangelion} {1.-) .hatred

Angels.

Humans.

"What are the angels?"

"What is..."

"Who are..."

"STOP IT!!!!"

"All systems are green, the unit is ready to synch with the pilot."

"Continue with the Project Unit."

"Hold on a minute! The synch ratio is sky-rocketing! The EVA and pilot...we...we can't distinguish the two of them!!"

"Abort the operation!! The pilot is in danger. I repeat, ABORT THE OPERATION."

"go away go away go away. GO AWAY. PLEASE. STOP. GO. I. CAN'T...-"

"What the!! The EVA is creating it's own AT field! It's...it's..."

"HATE YOU."

"I told you to abort!!"

"We CAN'T!!!"

"Cut off the power! NOW.""

"I want to..."

"die."

"Commander Ikari!! DO SOMETHING. She's your daughter!!"

"Yuuki."

I suppose, all my life, I have wanted to die. I am, an abomination, I told myself, ever day. I deserve to waste away.

But they wouldn't let me.

Eventually, those feelings hid themselves away behind the fake smile, and the fake eyes. My face became a mask of happieness, hiding the feelings of disgust at being ALIVE. Because, because...he wanted me too.

My mother died when I was young, and my father shipped my twin away. Too painful I suppose? I don't know. I could never read my father, only in my dying throes did I finally realize...realize...what...?

Anyway, I grew up disjointed, and away from everything possible. I...I...

Where am I?

you are you are you are you are you are.

SICK. DISGUSTED. HATRED. HUMAN. WHATAMIWHATAMIWHATAMI?!?!

I was 14.

When I died.

I...wish...I could've...

I wish...

Oh Shinji, I am so sorry. So sorry. I'M...SO...SORRY.

Failure! Failure! The AT Field, it's expanding. It'll...explode...killing...

ABOMINATION OF MANKIND.

Shit. Somehow, I'm crying. Crying into this...empty...abyss.

Where am I?

Are you there, Kaworu? I hope you are. If you can hear me, please answer. Please? You understood. You, and I, and Rei... we were all...I...

I'm so sorry, Shinji! Go back! Don't come here!!!

EPISODE 1.-

"The Angels, they're coming again. Soon, am I correct?"

Deadened Silence.

"I'm speaking too you."

Speaking TOO me?

No, correction.

Speaking AT me.

"Yuuki."

I lifted my head off my pillow, looking at my father with deadened eyes.

"...I suppose. I'll have to pilot..."

"Correct."

"Shinji..."

"I've sent for him, he'll be arriving tomorrow afternoon."

"I hate you."

My father glanced back at me, and quickly turned away, pushing his glasses up further onto the bridge of his nose.

"I realize that. You don't have to like me, Yuuki."

NEXT DAY.-

"You'll be piloting alongside your brother." Ritsuko looked at me, studying me carefully, "Incase he is unwilling, god forbid, Commander Ikari has stated Rei will take his place alongside you."

I merely nodded, leaning against the elevator wall, waiting for the doors to open.

"Uh- Miss Misato are we-"

His voice.

The doors opened and Misato Katsuragi and...

Oh Shinji, you idiot. You idiot. I love you. Your big sis loves you. Always and forever. Tell-

"Misato, we do NOT have time for this!!" Ritsuko scolded the purple-haired woman, "Now hurry up!"

"Yes Ma'am!"

-------

"Will you do it?"

Shinji, poor Shinji...

You looked...scared...

"Shinji, it's alright." I touched his shoulder gently, and smiled, "Don't be forced into this."

"But Yuuki, you..."

"I'll be fine. I'm...not sure about Rei but-"

A sudden jolt interuppted me.

"The Angel has reached NERV headquarters!!"

A scream was heard behind us, as Rei fell, her injuries worsening.

"LOOK OUT!" Both Shinji and I saw the incoming beams, heading towards her.

....

"The pilots!"

"Unit 01 acted on it's own!"

mama.