“I know how you feel!”
How many people actually know how I feel? How many people say hat and believe it? Were they three with me? No one actually knows! Yeah sure some might have gone through the same thing, but they aren’t me! Everyone is unique, how is this on little situation different?
I’m talking about MY life that I a 16 year old is living right now. No one will ever be me so why say u know?
Lets back up a little. Lets start at 14 when I was still young and naive. Yeah good start!
14
14 is the age when you already passed 13 and are about to really feel life its fullest. Actually it isn’t even life its more like hell. Hell that shows what’s fun but really doesn’t care about you. Hell that kills all your brain cells and eats anything that gives you hope or even a smile in the mornings. Hell that….well actually just hell. But no one tells you this ‘cause they think you’re different. I might be but I still need to know this.
Well anyhow a friend of mine was going to have party on Friday the 13th. We all know that’s a bad day but she was born on it (hell really hit her hard!). I of course was invited but I knew her. This wasn’t going to be just any party but The Party everyone would want to go to. (Even thou only a few would be invited.)
I packed my stuff and left the house. No good byes were needed for no one was home anyway.
I stopped at her house to drop my stuff off.
Man!
She has this mansion that every little girl wants to live in it, and she knows it. She isn’t spoiled but she gets whatever she wants. Wait? Shut up! I do know the meaning of spoiled.
“Britt your friend is here,” Britt’s mom yelled.
She was the trophy wife every husband wants. Her legs were long and she had junk. A lot of junk! Her hair was perfectly brushed and styled. She was wearing a tank top with a mini skirt with white healed sandals.
“Thank you Mrs. Luca.”
They had a long last name, and well frankly I didn’t want to learn it…and I can’t remember it.
“Damn Ariel! What took you so long?” I’m Ariel…duh. Most people call me Arie but Britt wasn’t most people and she was pissed.
“Well I did have to walk,” I dropped my stuff and hugged my friend. “Some of us have to do that.”
Britt had the perfect body of a blonde model but her hair was black and her eyes were gray/blue. She was wearing a blue and black-stripped tank with a gray mini skirt. She knew she was perfect and let people stare at it. Her make up highlighted her facial feature and they were her lips. Everything else was just there.
“I’m going to have 10 people over,” Britt pulled me up the stairs and intp her princess room. Seriously it had crowns and even a clamed shaped bed. “I want to play spin the bottle and truth and dare.”
If you think she is the only child, you’re wrong. There are five of them and she is the middle child, splat in the middle.
“Arie I want you to get a boyfriend,” Britt held my hands in hers. “It kills ne to see you all alone.”
“Britt I have been fine,” O scanned the room once again. “I’ll be fine.”
“We’ll see.”
Britt was one of those girls that thought and never acted and acted and never thought, same with me but…never mind.
I made my self at home and heard those words: “School time!”
I didn’t hate it. It was fun when you aren’t in class and forced to listen to stuff you will forget anyhow during the summer.
Britt and I stepped out of her mom’s brand new hummer. If you were driving and you saw Mrs. Luca behind the wheel you would think she was a child.
“One day it hell…” Britt stopped.
“Come on before you fry your brain,” I pulled Britt into the 300 student building, and that was just the middle school. High school was even bigger.
You know in those movies when the pretty girls get to walk in slow motion and their hair is blowing and frankly they look hot?
Well it happens to us all the time, well not the slow motion walk or the blowing of hair but we do turn heads.
“They look so perfect.”
“I wish I was their friend.”
“I wouldn’t mind dating her.”
“I wouldn’t mind getting it on with both of them.”
The last one also made me turn and see who said it.
It was a guy who looked like a geek or something. He had brown curly long (well not too long or curly) hair that bounced. His eyes were green but his glasses made them look weird. One top of that I had no idea what his name was.
“Arie lets go!”
Britt was tapping her foot and doing something weird with her hands.
“Chill Britt. This is my fave part,” Britt smiled and linked her arm with mine.
The carpet in the hall ways were blue but it had a puke looking green in it. If you looked at it too long you would get sick (and the teachers haven’t noticed this yet). The lockers were long and green. This wasn’t a forest green or a nice green it was a “Damn these lockers are green!” green. Nothing seemed to match anything and it drove Britt crazy most days.
I unlocked out locker and dropped my backpack inside. I took my history book out and gave Britt her Algebra 1 book. I know she acts dumb but she is very book smart.
“I think they split us on purpose,” Britt hugged me.
“Stop!”
Britt’s puppy eyes caught me.
‘Yeah they did.”
She knew how to work people, a gift and a curse on her part.
“I’ll see you later Britt,” I smiled and closed the locker. “Don’t make the teacher cry again.”
“He has no fashion taste,” no matter how much I knew she was right, but It was wrong to make him cry.
Britt let go and walked down the hallway.
“Princess!” I smirked. She really and truly was a princess.
“Dreadful room of 302,” history class was one of those you only like in the beginning. My teacher was great, it was only the fact that she bored me to sleep.
The room had blue walls (to make it feel like the ocean). Pictures of many famous explorers were hung on the south wall. The north wall was the front of the class with a white board. The other walls just had pictures of anything random that was ever made. One said, “Who needs rules…I got money”. The teacher couldn’t see it and she never cleaned the room so we hung the random stuff.
“Come in and sit,” Mrs. Aaron said. (She has lost her husband to who knows what.)
She also had no fashion state at all. She was wearing a multi colored hippie skirt with a white men’s dress shirt. I’m pretty sure she wasn’t home last night. After all her shirt smells like a guy.
“She seems crazy today,” the geek boy told me.
I wanted so badly to make him the guy all the ladies loved but I didn’t know him that well, actually I don’t know him at all.
“Whatever!”
I sat in my seat in front of him and watched as Mrs. Aaron ran around yelling about something.
“Who are you?” the geek boy whispered.
“If you don’t know Arie you are crazy,” a girl whispered to the geek.
“Arie?”
“To you its Arie!” I snapped. He seemed like a nice guy but I didn’t care.
Mrs. Aaron ran pass me and I almost fainted form the strong…whatever was on her shirt. It had too many different smells.
“She is going to be like that the whole class time,” the geek said.
I turned around. Something about him drove me insane.
“Stop talking to me as if you know me. I don’t care is she is like this and…” I stopped. I was about to ask him his name.
“You want to know my name?” the geek gave the victory look. His left eyebrow went up.
“No!” I sat back facing the front of the room.
He was right; Mrs. Aaron was crazy the whole time. The whole “Saved by the bell” is so true. If it didn’t ring I might have knocked Mrs. Aaron out.
“By the way my name is Elric,” he whispered into my ear, he walked away without another word.
The only thing that went through my head was “Elric? There are people names Elric?” I picked up the 50 bound history book and went to the “oh my god” green lockers.
“How was class?” Britt asked.
“Mrs. Aaron was crazy,” I went through my books until I found science. “She isn’t her self crazy but madly in love crazy.”
“Shit!”
“She didn’t do anything,” I smiled.
All the sudden Elric caught my eye. He was standing laughing with his geek friend about god knows what. His mile was filled with joy and perfect teeth.
“Who is it?” Britt jumped and looked around.
“No one,” a part of jumped in joy that Britt didn’t know. Britt and I walked towards the science room.
It had desks with different experiment objects on them. Posters of science information were everywhere.
“You all will get one note with a number,” Mr. B said. We actually don’t know his real last name. “Match that number to 3 others and that’s your group.”
Britt frowned. We haven’t been in the same group for a while and this didn’t help.
Britt picked 5. She looked around to see who else had number five. 3 girls who looked alright smiled at Britt.
“God help me!”
“If you bite don’t pierce through the skin,” I laughed.
I put my hand into the bag and took out number…3. I looked around to see Elric. He held his number up…oh my god it was 3.
“Mr. B can I change my number?” I asked.
“Ariel you are with Elric and his friends and well they can help your D come up to maybe a C,” Mr. B walked away.
Britt hugged me.
“I’m with crazy, you’re with geeks,” Britt laughed.
“I’m about to force something down your throat!” I snapped. Britt flinched but smiled. We only kid with each other and she knew it.
“Are you following me today?” Elric smirked. He didn’t act like a geek but like a bad boy.
“The whole bad boy thing doesn’t fit you,” I turned away. “Geeks can’t be bad.”
Elric was caught f guard. He was shocked to say anything.
“Hi we are matt and Dan. We are your other partners,” two more geeks appeared.
“Crap!”
“What? Dan had blonde hair. He wasn’t tall and didn’t look too bad.
“Never mind.”
Matt was the definition of a geek. He had the glasses, the clothes and the teeth.
Yes I have something with teeth. They are important and that’s what I think.
Three guys who seemed to be different but weren’t too different stood in front of me.
“What are you thinking prep?” Elric asked. He was acting nasty.
“Don’t start with me,” I glared at Elric. “You are nothing to me.”
“Can we start?” Dab looked so innocent kind of like a child.
“Do you have everyone around your finger?” Elric asked. All 300 students?”
“No, I actually don’t,” I didn’t know what to say. “Lets start.”
“You care about this?” Elric stood in front of me. He leaned in closer. “Why should you? You were going to let us do all the work, right?”
“No!”
“Are you sure?” Elric was provoking me. His eyes screamed out to me, his hair was perfect, actually he was perfect no matter what he was suppose to be. He was getting closer and closer. The closer he got the more he seemed perfect.
“Elric?”
Matt and Dan pulled Elric aside.
Thank god! If he came closer who knows what I have done. He is a geek and we can’t mix, I have to keep telling my self that.
“Ok we are ready,” Matt took out the glass beaker and other science related stuff.
“If we add ¾ of…” Matt soon lost me. I didn’t even know what the class was about.
Thinking about perfection makes you drool I guess ‘cause Britt had to tell me. She gave me the “God you’re scaring me” look.
She was right,, I didn’t know what was up with me.
Finally the day ended and I didn’t want to think about Elric…SHIT just did. It was Britt’s party and I was going to be there, well some of me.
“They should be here now,” Britt was dressed in her party clothes. She was wearing a corset looking shirt with a black mini skirt. She was smiling and nothing could hurt her.
And nothing did.
Everyone showed up (after all everyone that were invited wanted to be there) and we played the games Britt wanted to play.
It was getting later when Britt wanted to play seven minutes in heaven.
She went first, of course. She got the school’s most popular boy. Their seven minutes soon became 15 minutes.
I went next. I pulled out a blue colored paper and looked around the circle. A boy that looked like Elric but without the curly hair and the glasses stood up. He walked into the closet and waited for me.
I followed, a part of me really wanted to know how he kissed and another wanted to do it for Britt.
“I’m…”
I never finished. His lips moved on mine and then his tongue was playing with mine. He wasn’t gentle and he was leading everything.
“You’re done!”
He turned to me and held my hand as we walked out of the closet.
“Would you date me?” he asked in front of everyone.
Britt jumped with happiness.
Shit! Britt sit your ass down, I don’t like him, but I couldn’t say that. So I said “Sure.”
He hugged me and twirled me around.
When everyone were gone Britt jumped to me and smiled. I knew that smile and I didn’t like it.
“His name is Kevin, he is the running back for our football team and he has 3 siblings,” Britt gave me the “Who the hell cares about that” look. “He has liked me for 2 years.”
“WOW!”
“Britt…” Britt looked so happy and naïve about all of this. “He is perfect.”
Perfect didn’t almost leave my mouth. I knew that perfect was Elric sitting in science room, or Elric trying to make me laugh in math even thou I gave him the soul piercing glares/ Kevin was scary and I knew it, but didn’t want Britt to know.
I dated Kevin for a month and he started t ask The Question! No I didn’t want to sleep with him and I wasn’t ready. He was like a tick that didn’t know any better.
“You keep that window open and someone will come in,” Elric yelled up to me. He lived or rather moved right next to me. I frowned but felt good to have a good guy around me.
“Why keep it open?” Elric yelled.
“Shut up and leave me alone,” I gave him my back.
“Ok.”
