I paced back and forth, furiously; a pang of nervousness in my heart.
"What is it?" Asked my brother, Zac. I didn't stop. I sped up actually, almost tripping over Josh's feet. Jeremy and Hayley sat on the bed. It would be easier with just my brothers in the room, but of course Hayley and Jeremy feel the need to be here as well.
"Oh God, you're not on drugs are you?" Josh asked, and I shook my head, still pacing. His hand was shaking; maybe I made everyone worry way too much.
"Did someone hurt you? I swear I'll kill the-"
"Hayls, no one touched me. Calm down." I snapped, but felt bad for being bitchy. I smiled pathetically. It's no one's fault. I thought.
"Ooh! Pick me! Yeah! Does it have to do with the mafia?!" Jeremy never took things seriously. Hayley smacked him in the head.
"Please tell me your not pregnant. Your only eighteen." Josh placed his head in his hands. I stopped and glared at him.
"I'm not fucking pregnant! I'm still a virgin!" I screamed, taking things out of hand. "I can't even...." Now or never, Bullet Rose.
"I asked..."My voice cracked, "To talk to you...because...okay....well..." I couldn't spit it out. Just say it!
My hand, shaking, grabbed a tissue box, and ripped a tissue out. I licked it, and swiped it across my right wrist to reveal a tattoo. The cover up now lay without a purpose on the crumpled tissue. I lifted my wrist and showed a heart with rainbow stripes filling the black outline of the heart.
"I don't get it." Jeremy said, clueless. Josh nodded, as it clicked in his head. Zac got up to look closer. Hayley stared.
"I'm gay." I whispered, looking at my pink and black Vans; well hello there, favorite shoes of mine. You accept me, right? You're not afraid my feet will hit on you?
"Bullet, why did you get that? And how? You just turned eighteen." Josh seemed pissed at the fact I have a tattoo, not the fact I was gay. I sucked up tears.
"Ex girlfriend." I whispered, and began crying. Zac pulled me in a hug.
"Josh!" Zac snapped. I couldn't see, my tears blinded me.
"I'm sorry!" I cried. Zac held me tighter.
"Bullet, Josh and I still love you the same, you're always our baby sister...even though you're older than me." Zac said, and I smiled.
"I didn't mean to get you upset Bee, gay or not, I'm still happy for you and I'll never treat you differently." Josh said, hugging Zac and me.
"AWH! GROUP HUG!" Jeremy said, and hugged us. I wiped my eyes, looking at Hayley, who was still giving me the same empty stare. I broke out of the grasp, standing above Hayley.
"Hayls..."
"Bullet, are you sure?" She asked. I nodded slowly, and she got up and ran out of my room, and down the stairs.
"What did I do....?" I asked, and Josh ran after her.
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Hayley's POV
Oh God no. No. No. No. She's lying.
She can't be gay. She can't like girls....Bullet Rose Farro couldn't be a lesbian.
But she is. My best friend's gay. Why won't I accept it?!
I felt my feet running fast, they had minds of their own, I swear. What was I doing?!
"Hayley!" Josh yelled. I realized I was outside, and I fell back on the grass. I looked up at the stars, now blurry shiny dots in the sky; fuck, I was crying. Josh caught up to me, and fell next to me.
"God Hayley, what is wrong with you?!" He snapped,and I kept my gaze on the stars that covered Franklin. I normally felt safe under them, but I felt so vunerable tonight.
"Josh... I don't know...I'm...oh my god...." I held my head in pain from a massive headache.
"You do know Hayls, you love Bullet, don't you?" He said calmly. I sat up and glanced at him, letting my gaze fall to his eyes. Josh was crying too.
"I love her so much, you don't know how much she means to me..." I cried as I began spilling my heart out, "Obviously...I like girls too..."
"Hayley it's okay." He pulled me into a hug, but I pushed away.
"...We kissed-"
"WHAT?!"
"SHH! It was when we were younger....I was seventeen, she was fifteen....we both were curious. Ever since then... I've liked her...a lot....but she always joked with that..."
"Hayley..."
"Josh, what if it was all a game to her?" I began crying harder; I craved kissing Bullet again.
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Bullet's POV
"And then...I kissed her.." I finshed my story, looking at Jeremy and Zac.
"Bullet it's gonna be fine...You love her..."
"She doesn't even like girls, Jeremy!" I yelled, "I'm being ripped apart for falling in love with a girl who won't love me back."
"What do you have to lose, Bee? For once, let your heart win." Zac wanted me to be happy. And I knew pure happiness lied within Hayley. As if my feet had a mind of its own, I sprinted down the stairs and out the door to see Hayley, crying and in an embrace, with Josh.
My heart sank. I closed my eyes and shook my head.
"Bullet?" Hayley called out, springing my eyes open. Josh ran over to me, and hugged me quickly before going inside. I sprinted to Hayley, falling next to her. The stars of Franklin covered over us as if to say all was restored to it's proper place.
Hayley sat up and looked in my eyes, pushing my black bangs out of my eyes. I grabbed her by the shoulders, and kissed her.
Oh my God. It was like the last time, pure bliss. Her lips were soft and sweet; I craved being this close forever. She pulled away, holding my hands. I finally found someone, just like me.
"I love you, Bullet Rose Farro." She whispered. I smiled.
"And I love you, Hayley Nichole Williams." Hayley kissed me again, and that's when I realized I let my heart win... and I got what I desired.
