~1987~
Nikki Sixx is struggling to get sober and needs help. Doc McGhee has required someone to live with Nikki to save his life.
Hard working Kerry now has that job.
Kerry and Nikki end up falling for each other and she's there for him all the way, she chases away sleazy drug dealers and anyone who can kill Nikki.
She can't sleep in the guest room, thanks to Slash pissin the bed, so Nikki incists she sleeps in a bed and she sleep in the same bed as Nikki.
Based on The Heroin Diaries. (based on Karen Durmount's character).
Age: 24
Likes: Nikki, rock.
Hates: Anyone who wants to kill Nikki, drug dealers, Playboy Playmates etc.
All the way throughout Girls and Dr Feelgood era.
Nikki answered his door, clearly he wasn't in any mood to deal with Doc and his crew.
"Yeah?" Nikki opened the door groggily.
"Nikki, can we come in?" Doc asked.
Nikki sat them on the couch, "Want a drink?"
"What do ya have?" the girl asked nicely.
This made Nikki's heart melt...
"Jack, Water, Coke, umm...Vodka"
"I'll go for a glass of Jack N Coke" she grinned.
"Okay" Nikki then noticed she had luggage...luggage? Hold on a min!
He poured out her drink and handed her it, "thanks".
"Ok Doc, why are you here?" Nikki was puzzled.
"Well, this young lady is Kerry, she'll be staying with you to keep you alive and to stop dealers coming by, she's a bit like a nanny"
"Doc! I don't need support...no offense" he directed at Kerry.
"none taken, but I was like you once and deep down inside I did NEED help" Kerry said.
"Okay...yeah I do" Nikki admitted.
"Nikki if you want to stop this addiction, you gotta meet us halfway, that's what we're all here for, to help you. Me, Kerry, the other guys, and Tom." Doc explained.
"Doc It's not safe here for chicks" Nikki informed.
"It's safe for groupies though" Kerry icily said.
"Hey! I don't bother with groupies anymore!" Nikki said as-a-matter-of-factly.
"That's just like a clear Heroin addict, saying he's sober. When there's like trace marks and he is like stumbling everywhere" Kerry mumbled.
"She's in" Nikki smirked - his usual famous one.
"Well I better go, someone kept buzzing my pager before, cya both" Doc left.
Nikki seen him to the door and sat back down. he used his remote to turn his T.V onto the music channel.
"So tell me about yourself" Nikki sat back. "Wait I think I know you! I dunno where from!" Nikki said confused.
"Umm maybe I dunno...well I'm Kerry, I live in Van Nuys, near you. I work as a waitress at The Rainbow, I'm a rock chick; I love bands such as Ozzy, Aerosmith, Kiss, Motley, Hanoi Rocks, Guns N' Roses, Dokken, cinderella etc...and I'm, well was....Randy Rhoads girlfriend". Kerry said with a tear in her eye.
"That's where I knew you from, I seen you in the Rainbow AND I knew you as Randy's...shit don't cry! Sorry I made you cry! Ah fuck!" Nikki panicked.
"It's okay...I just cry a little when I think of him, but life goes on. I'm not as hysteric as I used to be especially the year it happened" Kerry shrugged.
"I'll tell ya about me, Struggling Tatooed Heroin addict seeking love and soberness and hopefully a ticket to hell" Nikki told her.
She laughed a little, "aren't you a sweetie"
"Oohhh...GnR!!!" Kerry took her eyes off Nikki at stared at the television screen, as it viewed Guns N' Roses - Welcome To the Jungle. The opening riff caught her attention. "Their album is out tomorrow, I can't wait to get it!" Kerry said excitedly.
"I like 'em but the lead singer's a dick" Nikki admitted.
"The lead singer is quite hot, although he can be quite a push-over....I might date him, if I'm lucky" Kerry joked.
"Booo, you have the hots for him and not me!I'm ashamed of you!" Nikki pushed her...off the couch.
"Bitch" Kerry smirked.
"Oh you're pushing it!" Nikki playfully pinned her down.
"I'm missing the riff!" she wailed and started rocking out to Slash.
"You're something...Oh I better get the phone" Nikki reached over for it, "Yeah".
"I'm comin' over, dude, I'm worried 'bout ya!" Vince practically yelled down the phone.
"Nah It's alright, I have company" Nikki smiled,
"Who? a drug dealer?" Vince replied coldly, "No! A chick, A very hot one!" Nikki winked at her.
"Fuck you! She's mine!" Vince hung up.
"A special friend will be attenting tonight for his main course; pussy" Nikki tried to say without laughing.
"Ooooh, bon appetite?" Kerry had this -he-can-fuck-right-off look.
"He wants you, ya see he doesn't like me being around chicks" Nikki reached out for his Jack and poured some out. Kerry was gazing into his eyes, they leaned closer until their lips were inches away, as the opening riff for Crazy Train started. She looked away, "sorry! I got a little carried away there" she said quietly.
"...Don't worry, It's ok.....OH!" it dawned on him what's on T.V, not just the normal Crazy Train video, but the Live Randy tribute one.
She tried to force a smile at the TV watching her former - boyfriend in action, when fucking Vince stormed in the room.
"Nikki I FUCKIN' HATE YOU RIGHT NOW!" Vince pouted.
Kerry raised a brow and glared at him, "I'M TRYIN TO FUCKIN WATCH SOMETHIN'!" She snapped at him.
Vince looked her up and down, "Ignore the shit on t.v and come sit with me!", Kerry got up and smacked him over the head with a huge box which was lying around. "THAT'S NOT SHIT, THAT'S RANDY RHOADS AND OZZY!" She said as-a-amatter-of-factly.
"Why do you care?" Vince repled coldly.
Kerry stormed off, Nikki piped up, "That was her fuckin' boyfriend Vin! JUst before he died, they were still dating and that's all you can say!"
"She could've told me!" Vince argued, "SHUT UP, NOW JUST GET OUT, YOU FUCKIN' PRICK!" Nikki gave him a death glare.
Vince glared at him back, "Nikki stop fuckin' sticking up for her, just because you like her! You stupid fuckin' cunt!" Vince shouted right in Nikki's face.
Nikki decked him and threw him out.
He entered his own room, "Hey, you okay?" he asked,
"Is he gone?"
"yeah he is I punched and kicked him out for ya" Nikki embraced her.
"Sorry, but it's hard you know..." She sighed.
"Are you always like this hun?"
"No, it's only sometimes, it used to be all the time back in 82 and 83. Usually birthday or anniversary, or nearer to those times" she told him.
"If ya want, I'll take ya to any gig ya want for a nice night out, what do ya say?" Nikki asked, "That'd be great, I heard Alice is recently going to be playing".
"Great, I'll ge ya a backstage pass and ticket, and tomorrow I'll buy you Appetite For destruction"
Nikki and Kerry were in the record shop browsing the next day.
"There it is!" Kerry ran over to it desperately, "Ooh I'm lucky!".
They walked over to the till, Kerry was checking out the DVD's at the front of the till, Nikki was paying the guy. "Thanks Nikki, this is just amazing!"
"LOOK WHAT ELSE IS OUT TODAY!" Nikki pointed at the new releases.
Not only was Appetite, and girls were there, but the Randy Rhoads Tribute album.
Nikki went over and picked up a copy, he winked at her and handed the guy more cash.
Kerry started having love feelings for him, ever since she met him yesterday.
Nikki took her to some cafe, he led her upstairs and into some room where there was posters everywhere ansd advertisements. He took her over to a til, a bored looking girl reading an issue of rip, and wearing a Poison t-shirt was there.
Kerry recognised her from somewhere, but couldn't quite put her finger on it, "I know you!" Kerry piped up.
Nikki looked at her confused, "Do you?"
"I seen you somewhere, I can't remember where from?"
The girl placed her magazine aside and looked her up and down, you can easily see she was bored.
"........KC!!!!"
"...Rebecca Macken?!"
"You betcha!"
"I haven't seen ya in years! How ya doin?'" Kerry asked excited,
"Not bad, have a couple of jobs, band, home and stuff, you?"
"Waitress at the Rainbow, and nanny for only Mr Sixx here" Kerry linked him.
"He has kids?"
"no, just him" Kerry smiled.
"Cool, good luck with that! Hey I get off work in a few minutes, wanna come and hang out? Nikki can come along"
"yeah sure, how about you Nikki?"
"Yeah, I'd love to come...oh can we buy 2 tickets and backstage passes to Alice Cooper" Nikki placed his credit card in the slot.
"Okay" She printed all the info off and got the tickets ready. Smiling, she handed them to Nikki, who put his credit card in his pocket. "Thanks" he winked.
"So Kez, you and Nikki dating?"
"Umm no"
"Anyone?"
".....yeah you know Randy Rhoads"
Kerry was so used to saying that.
Nikki embraced her, well not at the mo"
"Yeah, he's umm ya know....aw I'm sorry honey for mentioning it, I didn't really know, I'm not a big fan of Ozzy, I only like Bark at the moon...well that's all I ever heard"
"It's ok, I'm fine" Kerry smiled weakly. "Well lets get going for a drink!" they headed out to the roxy.
~At the Alice Cooper gig~
Becke decided to come along, after all she loves Alice.
They kicked off with feed My Frankenstein.
We're gonna meet Tommy backstage, he's giving us a lift, as earlier after we arrived Vince stole my porsche, he better not have sex in it!" Nikki hollered.
Some rockers stared at him, "Let's get going" Kerry told him.
They flashed their passes and succeeded on getting through.
"Oh my god Nikki! We're gonna meet Alice Cooper! Aw thanks!" she kissed his lips lightly.
Nikki gazed at her and blushed, "Well there's the door..." he trailed off.
They entered, Alice was sitting there on the couch talking to couple of fans. Tommy was stood at the bar with a girl, she had brown red hair, with black streaks. She looked around 5'6 and you could tell she was a rock chick. He had his arm around her waist.
Becke entered the room, "Sorry, I was busy.." she whispered to Kerry. Kerry nodded and headed off to the bar.
Nikki greeted Tommy. "Hey dude!"
"Hey bro, how ya doin'? Ooh who's the chick?"
"Kerry, my nanny, she has to live with me, Doc hired her"
"Oh cool, hey there chick-a-dee" Tommy smiled warmly at her.
"Hey, oh this is Becke" she introduced the girl standing next to her.
The girl nudged Tommy, "you forgot about me dumbass!" she elbowed him with a slight drunken giggle.
"Oh this is Taylor, my girlfriend" Tommy wrapped his arms around her.
"Oh aren't you both lucky! She's nothing like Honey" Nikki winked.
Tommy glared at him, "PLease stop talking about pyscho's in front of my girl!".
Kerry raised a brow, "Ooh he's cool, I like that".
Taylor turned round at the legend approaching behind Becke and Kerry, her green/gray eyes glowed, they'd change every now and then (green to gray).
Nikki turned round, "Hey".
"Hey you guys, I've heard of you, you're the Motley guys of course, I've read about you everywhere and I've met Vince"
"Cool" Nikki's eyes twinkled with delight as this was one of his favourite rockstars.
Kerry was just gazing in amazement.
"I'm Nikki, This is Tommy, his girlfriend Taylor, that's Becke and this is Kerry" he put his arm around her.
"Oh cool, so you all sticking around?" he asked,
"Of course!" Becke actually said her first words to Alice.
~Later~
Loads of people left, there was only Alice, Kerry, Nikki, Tommy, Taylor, and the barmaid left. The rest of the band left to get drunk, and the groupies followed, Becke called a cab and went home.
Kerry kept going to the bar and ordering a glass of Jack and coke, it ended up with the barmaid giving her a two litre bottle of Coke and a large bottle of Jack.
"You better cut off your drink sweetie" Nikki whispered in her ear, "I'm okayyyyyy" Kerry slurred.
"Babe, you're a chick, you can't hold as much as us guys"
"You sexist prick!" she whacked him with a cushion.
She was too drunk to argue or anything, so she just sat there.
"Jess ya comin'?" Tommy slurred at Taylor.
"My name's not Jess! It's TAYLOR!"
"OH!!! SORRRRY BULLLLWIIIINNNKKKLE!" he drank his glass of vodka.
"Ignore him, he's fucked up when he's drunk, one time he called me Vassilliki then the next time he called me mom" Nikki shrugged.
"Okies" Taylor felt much better.
Alice told them he had to go, and he left Nikki and Tommy with his number.
When they got outside; Kerry was stumbling everywhere, she had to link Nikki.
"I'll drop ya guys off, I have my van"
"You STILL have your van?!"
"Well I couldn't drive a jaguar to a Cooper gig, who knows what could happen to it" Tommy opened the passenger side door for Taylor.
Kerry and Nikki sat in the back, "Wait a minute! Are we supposed to be drunk driving?" Nikki wondered confused.
"Uhmmm..." Tommy burped.
"Lemme drive, I'm LESS drunk!" Nikki unbuckled his seatbelt.
"No you're not, I only had one small glass of jack and coke, you had at LEAST 5!" Taylor protested. She switched places with Tommy and started the ignition.
"Nikki, I wanna have more Jack!" Kerry wailed.
"No, you're umm drunk so you're not getting anymore"
"PLEASE!!!"
Nope "
"not like yooooo to say NO!" Kerry stuck her tongue out, she folded her arms and looked away.
Nikki glared at her playfully.
"fine!" he faced the other way.
he laughed and playfully knocked her over. She groaned, "I'm wide awake!"
"no you're not! You're sleepy!"
"I'm wide awake!" She laid down, resting her head on Nikki's lap.
"I'm bored".
"I'm wide awake!" she protested, as Nikki carried her inside his house.
She started digging through her pocket for something, and she whipped out a condom.
Nikki raised a brow.
"Put it on!" she shoved it in his face.
Nikki actually liked her, he didn't wanna use her as a one night stand, she's beautiful, so why not give it a shot?
He shock his head to wear off his thoughts.
Kerry dropped down from his arms and lifted her top over her, she was too drunk to unbutton her jeans.
Nikki wanted to, but he didn't want her to wake sober and scream at him, then he'll never ever get a chance to, when she is sober.
"Not tonight babe"
"why?! But I want you to!"
"No you're drunk, you won't want me really!" Nikki replied.
Kerry rolled her eyes, "FINE! We'll do it without that!" she threw it to the floor and crashed her lips against his.
Nikki froze, he did have feelings for her, although he only met her a few weeks ago, and she was wise, especially about the drugs, and she took him on days out.
Nikki shrugged, 'well she wanted it'
Nikki was the first to wake, he looked over at a peacefully sleeping Kerry, he thought about last night, it all came flooding back to him.
'What am I gonna do?'
He seen the unopened condom lying on the floor, and he placed it in the bathroom.
Kerry started to groggily show signs of wakening.
Nikki worried that she was going to start ranting when she wakes.
Or what if she becomes pregnant, and she wasn't even his girlfriend.
Millions of thoughts rattled through his mind, the first thing he wanted to do was hide away from everything, so the first thing he did was...shoot up.
'She's going to definetely hate me now, i've fucked up, big time'
he pulled the syringe out, as the sound of the phone rang.
He managed to walk into his bedroom feeling confident.
As he answered his phone Kerry woke up.
It was Vince.
"Hey Nik, Listen, I'm sorry about the other week, I was over-worried about ya and I didn't like the idea of some girl looking after ya, I just don't know what came over me. Can I come over shortly and apologise to her? I'll bring her something"
Vince asked.
"I forgive ya and yeah sure" Nikki answered.
"One more thing, can I bring my girlfriend?"
"Yeah dude, I'll see ya then"
"Bye".
Kerry was already sat up staring at him, wondering why they're both naked, well she is half asleep. Then it hits her.
"Oh my God..." she gasped.
"Kez. Umm you kinda demanded me to...and you came onto me" Nikki told her slowly.
"No! I wouldn't do that, That would've made me look like a whore!" she protested.
"I'm Sorry, but you were like kinda drunk, well very drunk" Nikki told her.
"Your eyes....have you been shooting up again?! Cause maybe you did something like strip and strip me to make it look like that?!" Kerry worried.
"NO! I'd never do something like that to you, unless you wanted it".
"Well have you been shooting up then?"
"I'm sorry but only once! I was scared, that you'd hate me, and you might've thought I'd taken advantage of you!" Nikki cried out.
This time it was actually him to storm into the bathroom.
He needed to calm down, he didn't want to cry in front of her, after all he is fucked up, he admits it.
Kerry was worried about him, she couldn't be mad at him for shooting up again, that's what addicts are like, she was like that, she tried stopping, she couldn't, and after trying so hard, she managed to do so.
She knocked on the door ten minutes later, to see if he was calm.
Nikki unlocked the door, she gazed into his eyes and she knew he'd been crying, she even heard quiet sobs.
She embraced him, "C'mon lets get dressed"
"Oh yeah I almost forgot, Vince is comin' over"
"Vince?! Nah I don't like him..."
"He's coming to apologise, and he's bringing his new girlfriend, who knows you might become friends with her or something"
"Yeah you're right".
She changed into a Sex Pistols tee with her black jeans and black Chucks.
She stuck her bracelets on and applied some eyeliner, she didn't see the need in lipstick, as she'll be eating and drinking in the next 10 minutes.
Nikki changed into a Ramones top, with his Leather pants and boots.
He teased his hair and didn't bother with makeup.
Kerry decided she was just going to shower after Vince left.
Vince and his girlfriend arrived.
She had long Brown hair and blue eyes.
She wasn't too tall, and she wasn't too short, just like Vince. They're like a perfect match.
"Hey, this is my new girlfriend Leslie, we met last weekend"
"Hey, where did you meet him?" Kerry asked.
"By the beach, I sorta bumped into him and we fell for each other. He's so sweet" Leslie smiled.
"Aw, I'm happy for ya both"
While the girls were talking, Nikki and Vince were having a brief chat.
After about five minutes, Vince came over and apologised to Kerry about the other week, Kerry forgave him and went back to talking to Leslie.
After they talked for a while, Kerry found out, she was the same age as Vince - 26. Only a few months longer than him.
Kerry told her all about herself, and the time when she was Randy's girlfriend, all the way up to when she woke up and found out that her and Nikki fucked.
Leslie understood everything that she was going on about, then Leslie told her about her past.
By the end of the day, both became close friends.
After an hour, Vince and Nikki wandered off into the kitchen, for their 'men' talk. Leaving Kerry and Leslie behind.
"He's probably telling Vince about last night" Kerry said.
"You like him!"
"No I don't!"
"It's obvious!"
"but I love-....oh"
"I know you love him, Life goes on though and there's your prize" Leslie told her.
"But I'm just not sure, will it work out, I'm the one trying to get him sober"
"Getting him sober will be the most excellent thing ever! I wonder what the band will be like when they're sober...Doc talked to the guys, Vince and Tommy are up for it, Mick is wanting to find a second hobby other than drinking. It's just Nikki, he's the hard one"
"It may take months, but I betcha he'll be so sober next year" Kerry bet.
"Okay".
They continued talking about Nikki and Vince,the phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Hey, is that Kerry?"
"Yeah...Oh my God Izzy is that you?!"
"Yeah, I was wandering if you'd come and get me and Steven outta here" she asked.
"Where are ya?"
"Umm...jail in L.A"
"Why? What have you done now?"
"I got kicked out of Mom's and came to L.A yesterday. Then today my boyfriend Steven and I along with the gunners decided to argue with these jocks who name called me, then we like got arrested!"
"Hang in there sis, I'm, coming!"
Kerry grabbed her car keys as Vince and Nikki sat down, "Who was that?" Leslie asked.
"My sweet little sister has been arrested, I gotta go get her" Kerry said reluctantly.
She set off to the police station in her car.
She found the nearest one and checked the cells, there was her sister, a girl who used to be different, but she's now dyed her hair; Black and Pink, and she has a new clothing style (Jeans, Chucks and band top), a boyfriend, and a whole new heap load of attitude.
"I could see why mom kicked you out"
"well actually she kicked me out for having sex with Steven" she said whilst lighting up a cigarette.
"you smoke too?"
"haven't you seen a woman smoke, you square!" Izzy rolled her eyes and held her cig between her fingers.
"I just had to bail you two out, don't get me started!"
"sorry mommy!"
"I heard that! So what ya been up to kiddo, we have lots to share!"
"Well I seen this band called Dokken which changed me, I recently went to Fairfax high, where I met Steven. I spent shitloads of mom's money on new clothes, you should see them all, they're all at the gunner's place though, and I bought some CD'S, well ten in one day. Then I bought make-up. when I got home that night, I threw all my old stuff away and restocked it. Slash has gotten me into Jack, and Steven actually made me find the real me and stuff" she told her life story.
Kerry listened intently at everything, then told hers.
"I used to date Randy Rhoads, we were engaged, then he...he died and after those years I finally met someone, well I don't know if we're dating but his name's Nikki Sixx. I've been assigned to look after him and keep him away from his drugs"
"Whoah, Nikki Sixx, THE Nikki Sixx of Motley Crue!" Izzy said in amazement.
It started getting dark, Izzy was snuggled up to Steven, with the lack of heat. Finally through heaps and heaps of traffic they made it home.
Leslie and Vince were still there.
Kerry noticed Tommy was there too, he always manages to be there when he's meeting a new girl.
Izzy was wearing her home-made Guns N' Roses top, which Steven and Axl helped her with.
"Guys this is my little 18 year old sister Izzy" Kerry introduced her.
Izzy was kind of shy, as Motley besides Mick were in the same room as her, talking to her.
"And her boyfriend Steven".
"I seen you before!" Tommy pointed. "Dude I know Slash!"
"Umm, I like know, you've been round, I don't know how many times and one of you decide to sit on me when I'm passed out" Steven said.
"Oh."
Izzy and Steven sat down on the other couch, Leslie sat on Vince's lap, Kerry sat in between Nikki and Tommy.
"Oh Tommy, where's Taylor?"
"She's at work, we're heading there later, ya know the Roxy"
"Ok, will my sister get in, she's only eighteen"
"Umm...she might have to show her tits, if they I.D her" Tommy told her.
"Okay....I'm heading for a shower and getting dressed then" Kerry left.
Izzy sat there with Steven talking about their hetic day, Nikki, Vince, Tommy and Leslie were having an argument about the strip club and the roxy.
"No! We should go to the strip bar, maybe lil Izzy over there will get a job!" Vince smiled at her.
It made her heart melt, but it was a small teenage crush, her heart was with Steven.
Leslie slapped his face away from Izzy's direction.
"That's mean and stop flirting loverboy!"
"Hey! I was only saying!"
"She's only 18 though!"
"Oh sorry...say you still up for it Iz?"
Leslie slapped his face away from Izzy's direction yet again, "enough you!".
