Too Weak, Too Afraid {memo}

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Jason was chasing me. I was running but not really getting anywhere. He was getting closer. I turned my head to see how much distance there was between us and that's when I saw them. The entire town...all the kids from school...all the teachers were behind Jason chasing me. They had torches and clubs and any weapon you can think of...they were yelling, calling me monster and that I should die. I turned my head back around and saw Mrs. Wilson's smiling face ahead of me. I outstretched my arms and smiled. Right when I was about to reach her she moved to the side and extended her foot. I tripped and was falling until somebody came up and caught me.

I opened my eyes to see Blake Wilson.

He looked at me in a way that I hadn't been looked at in years. He looked at me with love. He stood me up and wiped a tear from my face again. His hand lingered on my cheek then he stepped forward and brought his lips closer to mine...we were almost about to kiss...then he stopped. I looked into his eyes...they were scared. "Monster" he said in a shaky voice then he pushed me away...straight into the hands of Jason.

The mob circled around me...Blake was nowhere to be found. Jason spun me around and whispered in my ear. "Worry...be afraid...cuz this will hurt you a lot."

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I sprang up in the bed screaming. I looked around the unfamiliar room frantically. I saw clothes on the floor that weren't my own...this wasn't my bed. I screamed again until a man bust thru the bedroom door. My screaming turned into bawling...I was beyond terrified. "GET AWAY FROM ME!! IM NOT THE MONSTER! YOU ARE!!" The man sprinted toward me and I whipped the covers over my head. He tried to hold me but I threw my arms and legs everywhere. "GO AWAY!! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO YOU AND YOU HATE ME! LEAVE ME ALONE!" "I don't hate you." The man's voice was soft and hurt. "YES YOU DO! YOU ALL DO! AND I DO-!"

The tears overwhelmed me...I started gasping for air and convulsing.

The man forced me into his arms. "Joselyn! Breathe! Calm down! Don't cry, please!" "I-(gasp)-cant-(gasp)-I-(gasp)-cant!" "You have to!" "I-(gasp)-cant-(gasp)-too-(gasp)-afraid." "You don't have to be afraid...I'm here for you now." I slowly got my breath back but the tears wouldn't stop falling. "Please don't cry...it kills me to see you cry." He placed his hand on my cheek and wiped my tears away.

Deja vu.

I grabbed his hand and opened my eyes that had been shut tight...Blake. I wanted to start screaming again...to run away...but I was too weak. I gathered all the strength I had in me to speak...my voice barely above a breath.

"I'm not the monster...you are."

He cringed but held me tighter and rocked me back to sleep.