do you unerdstand.....

My words are trapped inside me somewhere everytime i try to speak the get trapped in my thoart like my very soul doesn't want me to share. i find it enjoying to watch my pen slide across an empty page watching the inner feeling just fall out and scatter across the page and i some how get lost in myself i hear the beating of my herat and the tic of the clock slows down and thats when i know im gone and no one will be able to get me back until i finish..... if you don't understand where im coming fromthen you've never been so messed up insidethat writng the one thing that use to keep you sane it jst doen't flow anymore, you put your pen tothe the page but nothing works its like your lost inside some kinda void wanting someone to understand but you just you can't open up to anyone because if you do and the person has no idea what you mean all they will is "its ok" when you can feel it in your blood that somethings isn't right and you just can't put your finger on it....... if you understand what im saying and you feel this way you can talk to me...................
justsmile17 =]