(Gerard way) Disenchanted (Mikey way)

GERARD'S POV
"OH MY GOD!!!!!!!" I shriek as I jump up from my bed. That dream,it happened again.
"Oh Mikey! why do you stay in my mind!?"
I quickly put on some jeans,a random shirt and then walked downstairs to the kitchen. There he was,Mikey. Sitting down in a chair drinking some coffee.
Just like my dream
"H...hey Gerard" I heard Mikey say lightly as he turned to me
"Want some coffee?"
I had to leave,NOW! I will never let my dream come true,Mikey is my brother! How can i think about him this way!? Its unnatural!
"N...no Mikey,i really have to go!" I said back as i Grabbed my coat and headed out the door.
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The cold October air hit my face as i walked in the streets of jersey. I just couldn't stop thinking about that dream I had last night,and how it could have become real,today.
"OK Gerard,there is a logical explanation for this" i said,trying to convince myself
fuck that Gerard,you know nothing is logical in life! and since when have you said "logical"?!
I have said logical whenever it was needed to be used! and i don't think I'm thinking about Mikey because I...like him somehow..

well,maybe you do and maybe that explains why you have not been liking amber so much...

Are you saying I might be...GAY!?

exactly and maybe you like someone in particular
Mikey?
There was no answer
Hello!!?? Answer my question i really need to know this!
There was still silence
"Man,I'm going crazy! I'm talking to a voice in my head!" I mumbled
I didn't know what to do at this point,do i run? do i cry? scream,yell,accept everything? I don't know.
Maybe I should just go home and watch t.v,I will feel relaxed after
that...maybe
When I saw my my house I pulled out my keys and opened the door.Right away i put up my coat and walked up
to my room.
I opened my door and fell on my bed.
"I will not go to sleep,I will not go to sleep"I told myself over and over to myself.Boy was I out of my mind today