{Scream It Out Loud} [01] {Bill Kaulitz}

"Come on girls, time to go" My mother called from downstairs, I got off my bed and walked to get my jacket but Miya stoped me.
"Where these, go change..fast!" She handed me a pair of sweat pants that had on the back the words 'JUICY' in silver writing as the pants itself were black with rinestones on the hem of the pockets at the top. The hoodie that went overtop of my plain white shirt was black also and had silver rinestones on the hem of the hoodie also. The letters 'NC' was on the back in silver letters also, it stood for out band.
You see Leah, are little, favorite chinese frined can make killer clothes, so she made some cool threds for our band :)
I quickly placed them on as Leah did my hair in low pigtails, next thing ya know I had silver hoops in and some cheery flavoured lip gloss on my lips with a touch of silver. Wow, their good and fast!
No wonder I hang with them
We walked downstairs and ended up infront of the front door, the door was open as my mom was in the family van. Its silver and is a mini van.
I placed my skater shoes on that were black with lime green on them and placed my hood on while my pigtails and hoop earing were in full view, I will admit this.I looked gooooood.
We walked outside as I locked the door behind me and we hoped in the van, the engine roured up as we all sat in the back and didn't bother with seatbelts (shh ;P)
since were just rebellious like that.
"Oh this is gonna be fun, they already have drums and two guitars there so, yeah, sweet!" I looked out the window as Miya and Leah began to talk about the recording studio and wondering how we'll do.
We drove past Dundass Street and CheeryTree Rd, my mom soon took a left and we were right infront of the studio. We opened the door and hoped out, but sadly I turned my head to see a picture of my dad and brother in a picture frame hanging from the rear view mirror. I tryed not to cry as I got out of the van.
It was a picture of me, my mom, my dad and my brother. My dad and brother died in a terrible car crash three weeks ago, so its still fresh in my mind. I tryed to stay strong as Miya and Leah walked inside the studio and my mother parked the car.
I just stood outside and remembered what my dad and brother always used to say:
-Flashback-
It was 1995 and on Christmas day.
Me, my mother, father and older brother (Mike) were standing around waiting to open our presents.
Dad already opened his, it was a beer glass with a big glass of beer to boot. Mom got some flowers, some homemade stuff me and Mike made and some cooking gear that she wanted.
It was Mikes turn "Go ahead Mike, open this" Mike was 8 as I was 5, so he wanted to open his first since he was 'older' than me.
He opened it to find a new video of Batman and some new car toys. He got all hyper all of a sudden and started to hug our parents, then Mike handed me my present.
Everyone looked at me as I just stared at the flower wrapping paper around the box "Go on Angel, open your present" I blew some red hair outa my face and opened the box. It was a kareoke machine and I smiled big. Everyone smiled at me as we pluged it in.
I took the microphone and smiled at everyone, I blushed as I breathed into the mic, making it echo through the speakers. They all giggled at my shyness and that when a song came on. I didn't even know the words that well, but I sang it anyway, ocassionally messing up.
My father began to talk to everyone else "She will have a beautiful voice when she gets older, I belive in her and I belive that she'll become pretty famous one day" I sang and sang as everyone claped and gave me hugs. It was the best Christmas Ever.
-End Fashback-
I tryed not to cry, Once it was Mike's 20th birthday dad got him some hockey game tickets. They went to go but the road was slippery from the rain and ended up sliding into another car which in the end, led them to fall into a ditch that was pretty far down.
When me and my mom got the news we spent 3 days crying together, eating take-out from McDonalds and watching movies of us when we were small.
I wiped a tear from my eye as my mother closed the car door and pressed a button to lock it. I turned around before she saw me and I steped into the studio.
It was large and well..studio like. Like a normal recording place where the stars and celebs went to go to to make albums for the fans. I saw Miya and Leah wave me over as I faked a smile and walked over. They normally could tell when I was faking but luckly they were so excited that they didn't notice, so I thankfully I wouldn't get any questions and 'are you alright''s.
A young man came into the room, he looked to probably be at least 23-24 and he soon ushered us into a different room. It held the equipment and a place where I could sing, a microphone and headset.
Leah handed him a CD of the sound of the music, just the background music so when I place the headphones on I can hear it well.
"Hello girls, I'm Kayden Rashford and going to be seeing if you girls suit the rockstar life, whos the lead singer here?" Everyone pointed to me as I backed up a little, just incase.
He smiled at me, showing his obviously lazorized white teeth at me and pointed to a boxed room that held a microphone and some headphones with a small stand infront of the microphone so you have your lyrics stand on it while singing it.
"You go in there darling, now, whos the drummer?" Miya and I pointed to Leah who blushed, he then pointed to another small box area with a nice drumset inside of it. She walked in and got set up as the man soon looked at Miya.
"I take it your the bass guitarest?" Miya nodded and already new what would happen so she just walked into the box area with the black electric guitar was.
"Umm..I play guitar also" The man looked back at me and nodded, he quickly turned around and opened a large closet where some guitars where.
"Pick one" I walked up and stood beside him, there was a lime green and black one, a hot pink and black one, a clear one and an orange one. I took the hot pink and black one, it looked rather neat.
I flipped my red hair to the side, which wasn't dyed bright, bright red by the way, and I ajusted it on my shoulder as I walked into the other room. I new what Miya would tell me before I would sing, she always said 'image that your the only one in the room, like nobody is there but you' which really worked.
I stood infront of the microphone and placed the headset onto my head while fixing the cords on the guitar. I strumbed it once and nodded, satisfied with the sound it made.
The music in the headphones came on and I took them off a minute to hear that Miya and Leah had already began to play, I placed the headphones back onto my head and blew a strand of hair out of my face.
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes
*I promise you dad and Mike, I will try to get far, just for you both* I said to myself in my head.
In the headphones the sound of a violin being string very loudly started up and then the guitar came, same with the drums. (Me: This is naturally by the Veronica's called Untouched).
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