[Joe Jonas] Pushing Me Away [ONE SHOT]

[Joe Jonas]Pushing Me Away [ONE SHOT]
~Two Years earlier~
Joe's POV
"Becca?" I said as I stroked her hair lovingly.
"Hmm?" She replied looking up into my eyes.
"We got the record deal." I said avoiding her gaze.
"That is so great!" She said before wrapping her arms around my waist.
"I'm leaving on tour for two years." I said pulling out of her grip.
"What?" She said in a shaky voice.
"I'm so sorry." I said fighting back my tears that were already on the brims of my eyelids.
"Joey, you’re not leaving me." She said as tears cascaded down her gorgeous face.
"I don't want to be I couldn't do that to Nick and Kevin." I said whipping the endless tears from her face.
"I understand." She said looking away from me.
"I love you Becca." I said before giving her one last kiss and leaving her house.
Every last word, every single thing you say Pushin' me away
I sighed playing that memory over and over in my head like a broken record. I loved her so much and I still do... After I left I called every day. She had answered every time for the first few months. But then she stopped taking my calls, avoiding me on IM, not replying to my texts... I don't know what I did but it had caused her to stop speaking to me all together. I still called her every week only to get the 'she is out right now, can I take a message?' From one of her family members. I missed her so much. It was killing me on the inside to know that she was avoiding me with everything in her and I didn't even know why. I wish she would just tell me what I did...
I'm getting close, so take my hand And please just tell me why
Becca's POV
"Hey Becca! Joe is on the phone!" My older brother Daniel yelled. "Just tell him I'm busy." I sighed as tears formed in my eyes. "Uh. Yeah I'll give her the message." Daniel said. He turned off the phone and walked over to me. "Becca, why won't you talk to Joe? He really cares about you." He said looking at me, trying to read my face. "I don't know." I said dropping my face into my hands and letting tears fall from my eyes. I loved Joe but I couldn't talk to him and I didn't know why. I missed him more than anything. It had been two years since he left and I would die to see his face, run my hands through his hair, hug him, kiss him, and remember the way he smelt... I didn't understand why I pushed him away when all he did was care about me. I wanted to just talk to him but I couldn't bring myself to do it and it hurt me more than anything...
Try to stop now but it's all ready to late Pushin' me away
I sighed as my eyes fluttered open after a long night of crying myself to sleep. Ijumped into the shower and got dressed in jeans and a polo from American Eagle. I decided to go for a walk. As I opened my front door someone was walking up my steps. He had on a pair of white sunglasses, tight pants, and a red shirt with a pair of checkered vans. "Can I help you?" I asked before he looked up and gave me a weak smile. Oh that smile was one that I hadn't seen in a long time, but it was one I would never forget. "Well talking to me for the first time in a year and 8 months is helping already." He said softly. "Joe?" I said as I felt my breathing quicken. He took off his sunglasses and I felt myself getting lost in his eyes. They had that same sparkle of happiness that I remembered. "Hi Becca." He said walking over to me. I felt tears fill my eyes but I wasn't about to let them fall out. "Hi" I said trying my best not to let my voice get shaky. "I think we should talk." He said seriously. "Okay." I choked out.
If you really don't care just say it to my face Pushin' me away
We walked down the sidewalk towards the park that we had spent so many nights just staring at the stars. Once we got there I climbed to the top of the jungle-jim and waited for Joe to follow up. He sat down next to me. I breathed in the sweet smell of him. It was like a drug. I looked at his face. "He was staring at nothing in particular.”Why did you stop talking to me?" He said looking over at me with hurt in his gorgeous eyes. With him sitting here beside me finally realized when I just stopped talking to him. I sighed heavily and took a deep breath. "Joe... I couldn't take it." I said softly. "Couldn't take what?" He asked patiently. "Being able to hear your voice but not see your face, hearing your laugh but not seeing your smile. It was tearing me apart to hear that you loved me but not hearing it in person. You telling me the crazy things you did but not being there to witness them. Not being with you was eating me from the inside out. I missed you too much to talk to you. It hurt too much." I said letting the tears I had been holding in out. "I'm sorry." He said turning his head away from me. "No Joe, I'm sorry that I let my own selfish reasons hurt you. I shouldn't have just stopped talking to you out of nowhere because I couldn't handle it. All you ever did was care about me and I pushed you away not even considering how you would feel. You probably hate me but just know something...I love you with everything that I have in me and you are so amazing. Even after I stopped talking to you, you still called. If anyone has something to be sorry for it is me." I said as I started to climb down the jungle-jim. After a few minutes of walking I heard footsteps chasing after me. "Becca!" Joe yelled grabbing my hand. I spun around only to find my lips pressed against Joe's. I smiled into the kiss and let the world around me fade away. His hands were placed firmly on my waist as I wrapped my arms around his neck. I ran my fingers through that gorgeous head of hair and kissed him like I would never kiss anyone ever again. He pulled away and placed his forehead on mine. "I love you Becca." He said softly as his warm breath hit my lips. "I love you too!" I said as he pulled me into anotherkiss full of all of his love.
Push push pushin' me away Pushin' me away....