"What the fuck. What the fuck. What the fuck?!" I yelled pacing back and forth in my room.
"Jayce?" I heard Kristin knock on my door. "Is something wrong?"
"YES!" I yelled colapsing onto my bed.
I heard the door open and saw her lay down next to me. "What is it?"
"Okay, I'm about to tell you everything that has been going on. I need some serious help here and I would appriciate no comments being made until the end of the story." I told her.
"Okaaaaay." she said slowly. "You're kinda freaking me out."
I laughed a little before starting to tell her everything. When I say everything I mean everything. She nodded at times and gave me looks at others, but all in all she wasn't as bad to confide in as I had orignially expected.
"So, what should I do?" I begged.
"Jayce, you always seem to find trouble. I'm sorry babe, but I can't help you figure this one out." she said simpathetically.
I grunted as a responce.
"Well, at least I have a while to think about all this, I mean, it's only Wednesday." I smiled.
"Ummmm Jayce, its Saturday." Kristin said quietly.
"What the fuck?! Where the hell did the time go?" I questioned frantically.
All Kristin did was shrug and leave the room, closing the door behind her.
I sat on my bed and began to think, about every little thing that has ever happened between me and Bam.
What did it all mean? Was there a future for us? How was I going to make a long distance relationship like that work?
These thoughts were racing through my brain. Everytime I seemed to have found a logical answer something new came along and contradicted it.
I was frustrated more than any other time in my life. I couldn't take much more thinking.
I finally got up and walked downstairs to find the house empty. I glanced at a clock and it read 2:34 am.
I yawned loudly before trudging back up the stairs and to my bed, where hopefully, I could escape my Bam problems for a few hours.
The Next Morning
I woke up to someone shaking me. I rolled over and saw Ryan standing there.
"Erm...Kristin told me to wake you up...she says today is the first day of the rest of your life. Personally, I have no idea what is going on, and from the looks of you, I don't think I want to know." he said before walking out of the room.
I sighed. Today was the day. I was pretty sure that I had made the right decision about what to do.
I walked down the stairs slowly. "Good morning Kristin." I said, tired.
She looked at me skeptically. "Did you choose?"
I frowned. "Yes, now give me my bowl of cereal. I have to get back home by midday."
She threw a box of cereal down onto the table and left.
Boy, was today going to be long.
Later
Everyone but Bam was currently gathered around my car.
I had just said goodbye to everyone here and Kristin and Erin looked as if they were about to cry that I was leaving again.
"I'll call as soon as I get in, okay?" I told them.
They both nodded their heads.
"You better call me before then, because...well you know." Kristin demanded.
I nodded, hugged everyone one last time and got into my car.
I started it up and sighed heavily.
I looked out the rear-view mirror to see that everyone but Kristin had gone inside.
I backed up the car about to pull out of the driveway, but I stopped instead.
One way I turned would lead to the highway, the other to Bam.
Kristin was standing there, she knew which way I had decided earlier. She could see it in my eyes.
Now she stood at the front door, her eyes pleading with me to make the right decision.
As an impulse I pulled out quickly to the right and drove off. I wasn't going to turn around now.
I had made my decision...
I'm caught up in the moment, but not in the right way.
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