[[Frerard]] Conversations in Silence {{Frerard}}

*The day before*
"Are you serious?, they could target me and i have no say in whatever they do...yeah I know this is inportant but-okay...I love you too...yeah i know, a picture of proof....goodbye!"
I couldn't believe myself for my actions I was planning on doing.
I sighed and got to work.
I was sure of it now, I was offically 'comming out'.
*end of flashback*


I was nervous as hell as I put on my long white shirt.
Stop the Hate was written on the front.
I wore my rainbow colored socks and used the rainbow eyeshadow.
I looked in the mirror....and this note bared on my chest:
"Silent for Lawrence King:
Please understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participating in the Day of Silence (DOS), a national youth movement bringing attention to the silence faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people and their allies. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by anti-LGBT name-calling, bullying and harassment. This years DOS is held in memory of Lawrence King, a 15 year-old student who was killed in school because of his sexual orientation and gender expression. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward building awareness and making a commitment to address these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today."

I was biting my lip.
I only told a few people about my sexuality.
And i basicly lied.
They thought i was just a man whore and everyone was fair game.
Thanks to my many girlfriends and one night stands with some guys on my block.
But today was my day.
And luckily, I didn't have to speak.
As I waited on the bus stop many kids gave me questionable looks.
Some laughed and one said "Oh, it's fag day again? Seriously, do fags want me to fuck them up?"
I looked down.
I felt ashamed a bit.
But getting to school was worse.
Random people came up to me.
"So, i can fuck you up and you'd never tell? Nah, i shouldn't do that, a freak like you would like that shit."
One of my friends came up to me.
"Iero, really? I thought you were joking....gay? c'mon man! pussy is surrounding you, you gonna add into that pile?"
I walked faster through the halls.
My friend Andrew was more confident on these days.
He called me and asked me to do this.
he moved to Cailfornia two years ago, and this ment a lot to him.

After first period I saw Jordan Linker.
He cracked up at my outfit and then asked.
"So, you and Way, the only gays in this school? What, did you want to fuck him?"

I was confused.
The only Way i knew was Mikey, and he was as straight as well, a straight person.
He was in my math class and I'd ask him there.
I saw him in the back.
I took out a paper and scribbled on it "Is there any other Ways' in this school?"
He first questioned why i had wrote it down then got the idea.
"Uh, there is my brother...why, you want to date him?"
He asked and my peers eyes turned to face me.
This day was mortifying.
"No, just...is he gay?"
I wrote down.
"Well no duh, unless the rainbow colored dress he's wearing and not speaking means he's just a supporter than no."
I giggled and heard the bell.

My next periods were awful.
My teachers mocked my protest and forced me to speak.
Although it was one sentence i felt as if I was letting down all the people who count on me to make this difference.

My sixth period was Lunch.
I walked to the back of the counter and sat on the grass outside.
Adrian came running down the side walk, his hands cupping his mouth.
"Attention all non-faggot students, it's that stupid day so protect your asses!, or Gerard GAy will get ya!"
I cowered in the corner.
I then saw a tall boy in a rainbow dress slide into a seat by the tree.
I walked by him and sat down.
He smiled at me and motioned for me to sit.
He took out a pen and paper and wrote this:
I know i don't know you, but thanks for the help, being the only gay person in this school feaks me out, so yeah....
I smiled and took the pen.
Yeah no problem.
Thank god i wasn't the only one either.
I thought I would die today.
He giggled and wrote sloppily.
Aww, no you wont, you know, you're kinda cute.
I blushed at that comment and looked into his eyes.
They were clear and thoughtful, carring yet apathtic.
I smiled.
Thanks, you are too.

We giggled again and for the whole lunch period we passed notes back and forth.
I think I had a crush on him...but i wasn't sure.
We exchanged our number and after i got on the bus he hugged me tightly. I took out my camera and we posed for our pictures for Andrew.
He then kissed my cheek and we said our goodbyes with our eyes and left eatchother.
I truly that day understood all the things you could hear in silence.
Forgive me? ya soshla s uma.....
All of the words in here were words used by my classmates today.....yeah I feel proud for this day and sad for the ones who are to ignorent to not care.
On a lighter note, hope you liked this, thanks! buh bye sexy peoples!