I Watch You As You Slowly Falter [Jussi Vuori] Chapter 45

My bag was already buried beneath the piles of blankets and pillows in the backseat of my car, bags of food and bottles of water occupied my passenger seat, three jackets all scattered in various places; my parents were going a little overboard on the protection thing with the cabin. I was leaving early, planning on making one stop and one stop only.
"Veera you call if you have any problems ok?" My mother insisted kissing each cheek; I hugged her tightly and moved on to my dad; an awkward hug was shared.
"Bye!" I called out getting into my car and finally leaving, I sighed with great relief already feeling better. I tapped my finger on my steering wheel, feeling nervous for the first time in years, knowing I was about to see him. I stopped by his mailbox, parked my car and got out. Slowly I made my way up to his house, knocked on his door three times, and entered.
It was too early for him, or anyone of his family for that matter, to be up. I crept my way through his house, knowing exactly where his room was. I opened the door and dazzled at his sleeping form, I smiled gently and walked up to the side of his bed. I sat down and stroked the hair from his face, he shivered. I leaned down and gave his lips a soft kiss, after a few seconds he responded.
"Vee?" He asked, tired and out of it. I chuckled and nodded.
"Yeah, I came to say goodbye."
"Goodbye?" He was suddenly awake and alert, sitting up slowly. I placed my hand on his bare chest, chuckling to myself.
"I'm going up to my summer home for a week, I need a break."
"From what?" He asked, grabbing my arms and forcing me to face him. His eyes smothered mine, begging for answers.
"I need a break from it all. You've seen how I've been acting, not myself. Even I've realized that," I laughed as if it was an inside joke, "I think a break will do me good." I finished up smiling.
"Well let me go with you, we can just spend the week together. Locked up in each other's arms, just us." I was already shaking my head no before he finished his first sentence.
"This has to be me and me alone. I need to work things out, think things through. The only way I'll be able to pull through is if I solve this all by myself, and I can't do that with you around."
"And by things you mean, Henna and the Goths right?" He asked worried, I brought my hand up to his face, cupping it as my eyes read the sympathy I felt for him.
"Things is everything Jussi. From the Goths to school, to us." I whispered us, not sure if I wanted him to hear or not. Quickly his head fell, his whole mood shifted.
"I love you." I whispered, lifting his chin up and giving him one last kiss. I stood up and walked to his door.
"I love you too Vee." I hesitated at the door, but left regardless.
I fought the tears the whole three hour car ride up, I wanted to make it there in one piece. I called my mom when I arrived, making the conversation short and sweet. Once I hung up, I turned my phone off and placed it on my bedside, planning to use it only as an alarm.
I curled up into a tight ball in the center of the king sized bed, I gripped my sides as if they were splitting apart, a gaping whole that was left open and infected. I gasped for air as my eyes began to sting and the familiar feeling of acid overwhelmed my mouth. I let the pain wash over me, the sorrow invade me, the nauseous feeling overcome me, the exhaustion kill me.
Like that I was out.
Forgetting you but not the time...
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