As I followed Bam to the little tree area I looked back at everyone else.
They had all stopped to watch me leave.
I shrugged at them and gave them the ihavenoideawhatthehellisgoingon look.
They nodded and went back to whatever they were doing.
I turned back and closed the distance that I had made from Bam and me.
As soon as we reached the treed spot Bam turned and looked to see if anyone was looking at us, when he noticed they weren't he grabbed my arm and brought me out of the view of everyone else.
I was pretty sure they couldn't see or hear us from this spot.
I looked at Bam extremely confused.
"What did you want to talk about Ba-"
I was cut off by Bam pressing his lips to mine quickly.
I was shocked and didn't process what was going. By the time I did Bam had pulled away and stared at me.
I just stared at him with a blank expression on my face.
"Say something." Bam urged.
"I...you...kissed...what?" I sputtered.
He smiled and took that as a sign to explain himself.
"I didn't get to kiss you the last time we were alone. I got so angry that I put myself out there and you denied me that I left before I could say or do anything. Then, the next day when I wanted to talk to you, you weren't talking to any of us anymore. I just wanted to talk to you." he explained quickly.
"I don't understand Bam. Why would you want to kiss me so bad? I just assumed you got caught up in the moment." I told him.
He shook his head. "Thats what I thought too! I went home that night and thought about it for a really long time."
"And?" I urged him.
"And...it wasn't me caught up in the moment. I knew it was something more. I was jealous of the relationship you and Novak had. I couldn't stop thinking about you, or when the next party would be because I thought it was cute when you were drunk. I couldn't wait to argue with you, cause you crinkle your nose in the most adorable way when you yell. I couldn't wait to come to school because maybe if I was lucky it was my turn to carry your books and I got to spend a day with you. And I couldn't wait to make you nervous because you always bite your lip and it drives me crazy." he told me.
I was speechless. No way had I ever thought Bam Margera felt this way about me.
"So, Jayce, I wanted to kiss you and tell you all that stuff just so you would know that I really am not playing around when I tell you that I missed you more than I've missed anyone in the world these past few weeks. I think I'm in-"
"If you finish that sentence you won't have a tongue anymore Bam." I warned cutting him off.
"But I want to say it!" he tried to tell me.
I shook my head no. "You aren't sure that you love me or even like me Bam. You haven't spent enough time getting to know me-"
"Then let me get to know you!" he said to me grabbing my shoulders.
"I...I don't know Bam." I said still mildly unconvinced that he really felt this way.
"It could be your teenageness acting up. You're probably confused. Just give it some time." I explained to him.
He stepped back and shook his head no at me again. "I know how I feel Jayce. I've had three weeks to think this over. I think I might love you, but if you're not ready to believe that then I'll leave you be."
I sighed and looked up at him. "I'm not ready to believe it yet Bam."
"Fine." he said cooly and walked away.
I sat down under the tree and huffed.
I sat like that thinking about all that Bam had done and said. I knew that I liked him but I really was scared of what his feelings were towards me. I've never been in love, but maybe now was my chance.
I breathed deeply looking down at my hands.
"Is life getting tough for you?" I heard someone ask.
"Hey Ryan." I said in a monotone voice.
"See that's not the tone I was expecting to hear after someone just confessed their love to you." he told me smiling.
I looked up at him confused.
Sensing my confusion Ryan replied. "Bam confided his feelings of you to me a week ago. He swore the next time that he saw you he would tell you exactly how he felt."
"That takes guts." I said without thinking.
"Yeah...it does." Ryan repeated.
"But Ty said that Bam had a new girlfriend, thats who he had been talking to on the phone all the time." I told him confused.
Ryan laughed. "I would hope it wasn't Bam's girlfriend. Cause most of the time he was talking to me about everything....No one seems to notice when I slip away do they?"
"Aww Ryan!" I laughed before hugging him.
"So..." he said. "Does this mean you'll give Bam a shot?"
I looked at his hopeful face. "I'll think about it, but he seemed pretty pissed off that I had denied him just now."
"No one can ever stay mad at the ones they love." he told me.
I pouted. "Since when have you become so philisophical?"
"Always!" he smirked.
I laughed with him and talked for what seemed like ages until I realized how late it must have been.
"Ryan, I need to go home, my mom's going to get worried." I explained.
"Yeah, and the guys must be waiting for us by now." he replied.
We both got up and walked back talking about random crap till we reached the place where everyone stood waiting.
"Glad to see you've returned my boyfriend." Kristin smirked grabbing Ryan.
"Yeah, he talks to much. You two are perfect together." I laughed.
"Damn right!" Ryan yelled before slapping her ass.
Kristin turned bright red because Ty was standing right next to her scowling.
"Don't do that infront of me." he growled at Ryan.
"Sorry dude. Forgot you were there!" Ryan smiled.
"Enough of the chitter chatter. I need to get home! Whose got a car?" I asked.
Everyone's eyes turned to Bam.
"I do." he answered.
"Anyone else?" I asked again.
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