Have you ever felt so lonely it hurt? Like no-one in the world cares what you think. Or how you feel? Like you'll speak but they don't hear. Or they hear...but they just don't listen. You can scream at the top of your lungs and not one person will flicker an eyelid. And the world keeps spinning and day by day people move on with their lives. But you are just merely existing. These people you know...they say they're your friends...They say that they care. They see you and they smile...but its all just pretend. They have no interest in what you say. They never respond to your comments or conversations. They never try...not like you do. You give and they take. Its a one way process. Yet, if you mention it...you are in the wrong...You are the one being unreasonable...
You are the scum on the bottom of their shoes.
It is like being invisible only worse. To be invisible means you are cut off from all contact. But at least you know where you stand...then you can find and fit into a group of people that appreciate you for being you. But the constant doubt clouding your mind, when at the start, they seem so nice...and after, its like you are hidden from sight. Like you dont exist. The switch back and forward is hard to take. You start to question yourself. Am I boring? Am I stupid? Am I ugly?...
Why do these people treat me the way they do?
Of course at the time the only explanation seems to be to blame yourself. Why would these people act the way they do, unless it has something to do with the way you are. What else could it be? It couldnt be that they are just selfish, insecure people who don't have any consideration for others whatsoever. It couldnt be that these people only like to hear their thoughts, and their opinions and their ideas...as if what they were saying was law...As if they were God...
But No. Its your fault.
And so, you try a little harder. Be even nicer. Give a little more. And they just take and take and take. Until you have nothing left to give. And then you are useless. Because you have nothing left to offer. What is your worth now? So what else is there to do? You might as well be gone. You might as well be hidden. You might as well be...
...Unseen.
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Hey everyone, Maari-Chan here. I have to say the idea for this story started when one of my friends made me feel a bit crappy about myself. Of course i've exaggerated what i've written to fit the storyline. Im fact most of what i write is based on my real life experiences. And others not....if i write about flying broomsticks please don't message me with some smart comment saying 'Oh..so you've experienced THAT have you?!?' lol. But i'd just like to say thankyou to anyone who has bothered to read this and a further thankyou to those who go an extra step and message me on my journal to let me know what they think. Its very much appreciated ^.^ Look out for part two which will follow straight after this since its 1am and i'm not in the slightest bit exhausted lol. Till then, Maari-Chan :P
'Unseen'...The prelude. (With pics)
Hi everyone...this is my first story/quiz. It starts off a bit dark, but hopefully that doesn't put you off ^.^ as people keep telling me...What main character doesn't have a bit of darkness to them? :P Hope you like it...Did you like this story? Make one of your own!
