Stuck between two [Chapter one - Lost]

-May 17th School yard, break time -
"so u going to summer camp Kay?"
"yeh, am lookin forward to it..."
"...it would be a way to get over him"
"doubt it .."
We walked off together back into the school building, and there he was standing right infront of the door, like he was waiting for this moment to happen. I blushed and looked at Marina, she knew what to do. She walked up to him, and asked him to move aside politely. He wouldnt budge. He was as stouborn as me, and wouldn't give up, until i spoke to him. I shook my head and walked casually towards the door. I looked deep into his eyes, but i didnt say anything, it stayed like this for a nice 3 minutes, until a few girls wanted to go through, Marina and i, took this chance and went in, before i could continue my walk through, he gripped my hand and asked me to stay.
"we need to talk" he said with his deep but soft voice. I still didnt say anything, but looked him in his green eyes.
"why are you like this?" he asked, i shook my head and tryed to pull my hand away - he wouldnt let go. i figured something had to be said, so i took a deep breath and spoke to him...
"cant u see, this isnt right." I felt tears building up inside of me.
"it was a kiss Kay ..."
i gave him the most horrid look and said...
"u've got a girlfriend Ty" succesfully i pulled away and stormed into the girls bathroom, marina followed hesitantly.
"i dunno what to do..." i told her "he never listens, if he brakes up with her..i, i dunno what i'll do!"
"aaw Kay, its gonna be fine, i can talk to him ..." Marina said tryin to soothe me, but i denied her offer. I whipped my tears, which finally decided to come pouring out, right after i swang the bathroom door open, and we both headed for our next class.
okay .. soo GO ON MAN - the tension is killin me!!
man this sucks ... remind me why am readin this?
-May 17th, class: Biology -
I love bio, but today i jus wasnt in it. 'Might of bin there physically, but spiritually, i was somewhere totally different. I couldn't stop thinking about that day, i kept blaming myself for everything that happened! it shouldnt of happened, thats for sure. and now i live to regret it. Why did he have to be that cute that day anyway??? i slouched and my head fell *bang* on the table. i couldnt even hear the teacher speaking anymore, all i could see and hear is what happened that day ...
*FLASHBACK*
*on the phone with marjolijn and anneloes (ann)*
Kay: he wants to take me somewhere because he wasnt there for my birthday.
Marjolijn: soo .. u said yes right?
KaY: well, yeh but am thinking about Mia and how she might react if she find out me and her boyfriend are going out for a day.
Ann: she shouldnt mind, i mean she knows how close you two are...
Kay: yeh but she doesnt know how close we wanna be (or at least how close i want to be.)
Marjolijn: Kay, have u heard from Edward?
Kay: no! i dont think i wanna hear from him...
Ann: dude that guy's an ass,jus leavin u Kay ...
Kay: dont even make me think about it Ann, or am gonna get soo angry, Ty was right all along, i hate it when people are right, and i end up being wrong. Makes me feel so dumb!
Marjolijn: so when he coming to pick u up?
KaY: somewhere around 4 thirty he said.
Ann: why so late?
Kay: i dunno, maybe he has other stuff to do. anyway gurlies, i gotta go, speakin of stuff to do,I have stuff to do - so l8er
Marjo: bye sweetii
Ann: byeee!!
*hangs up*
Before i knew it, time flew and i had to get ready, dont take me long, i dont put on make-up or anything, so i just looked for something to wear. I chose ...
my baggy pants and a fitting t-shirt
my baggy pants n my band tee-shirt
a mini - skirt and a fitting tink-top(its April btw)
well i personaly would like my baggy pants and a fitting t-shirt. :P
- April 29th, my house -
*door bell rings*
"hellow Tyler" my mum says
"heey Mrs. N, is Kay ready?" Tyler asked
"nearly, let me go tell er ur around, you can sit in the living room while waiting." my mum answered politely.
She walked up to my room and met me putting my trainers on.
"he's downstairs" she told me with a smile.
"i know." i answered back, trying not to look as anxious as i felt inside. She nodded and winked at me, then silently closed my door. I stood up, took a deep breath, grabbed my bag n went down. I saw him sitting on our gray coach, normally opposite the t.v. he was sitting with my older brother and i could have melted. They were getting along soo well, and the way he looked today was just amazing. The pants he was wearing, the way he made his hair, his eyes jus shining at every angle. I didnt know what i was feeling, but it felt wierd. I found it hard to breathe and i felt like my tummy was gonna explode! After the thing with Edward, i didnt think i would feel this way again, not ever! but here i am staring at this guy, the sweetest of guys with the same feeling (or worse)!!
"u look nice Kay" he said sweetly
"thanx" i answered still trying to breath. I kissed my bro, mum n aunt goodbye and we left holding hands.
"so, where are u takin me?"
"it a surprise" he said with his charming smile. i giggled and accepted. We walked into the park, to the busstop. He took me to town, but blindfolded my eyes once we got off the bus. I could hear music from all directions and this man talkin saying somethin like "here we go" and it had an echo to it. You could hear all kinds of beats, techno .. etc. He put his arm around my waiste and guided me through until he finally took the blindfold off and we were in an amusment park! It was the fair that came to town. We had loadsa fun, we went on the most wildest rides together. We had to leave, because he had something else planned, so once again i was blind folded. He took me to an italian restuarant (knowing i loved italian dishes); i couldnt believe my eyes, once i knew where i was, i gave him the bigest hug ever! with a kiss on the cheek. He made reservations and we got a nice view of the river bank we were sitting untop. We ordered our meals and talked a while ... next thing i knew we were holding hands untop of the table. It had been like that for a while, but my senses came to, and i pulled my hand away. I couldnt understand what was happening, did he forget he had a girlfriend or something? Our meals came and we ate silently but there was still tension. I could feel it. The way he looked at me, the way he smiled at me, everything brought tension. and my tummy was starting to feel the same way it did at home. i didnt know if this was good or bad anymore. i wanted to ask him what was going on, but it was like i had lost my voice nothing would come out! Once we were done with eating he asked me for a dance (how could i refuse). So we danced for a while with my head leaning on his shoulder. slowly the music faded away, but we still found ourselves dancing. I looked at him and i knew he felt something. We stopped dancing, and there was a silence, this started to scare me. It felt like the world around us stoped evolving. it was just me and him, staring into each others eyes. slowly we come nearer, so close i could feel his heartbeat. I knew this was wrong, but there was no stopping us now. Thats when it happened, we kissed in an italian restuarant while dancing. His lips were soft and sweet, i could feel his warm hands around my waiste and as much as i loved this i had to go, i had to run i couldnt believe that just happened. i didnt want to think about it. i ran to the bustop and waited. slowly it started to rain. he ran after me and apologized and asked if he could take me home. I agreed but i wasnt happy. When we reached home, i told him it wasnt right and i begged him to never do it again.
"Keshia? Kay?" i heard someone call me...
*END OF FLASHBACK*
it was Mrs.Hoeve...
"are you alright my darling, u dont look too good." she asked worried (mrs.Hoeve is one of the best teachers in my school)
"am alright" i answered but i still pleased to go n have a drink of water. On my way back, the bell rang so i hadnt caught any word the teacher actually said in class! I grabbed my bag with a sigh and left the room sorrowfully.
sweet!
why did u stop? fool!

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