Going Away to College (Zack Merrick) 5

"Your hair looks longer." Zack mentioned before he was going to take a sip from his drink. I took a strand of my hair between my fingers and twirled it.
"Getting a haircut is probably the last thing on my to do list."
"Understandable. How's journalism going for you?"
"Umm, well I actually changed my major to english."
"English? What like to become a teacher?" he asked. He leaned back as the girl from my history class put his plate down and smiled at him. He smiled back considering she was tall brunnette, with the biggest rack I've ever seen.
Zack still had the smile on his face as he looked up at me, but he quickly dropped it.
"Yeah, like a teacher. Hey Mel." I said to the girl as she put my plate down.
"Oh, Mollie! Hey, you know we still need to plan on going out to dinner sometime." I smiled and nodded my head.
"Yeah, maybe this week." She smiled back too, and nodded. But then someone called her name and she rushed into the other direction.
"Sorry." Zack muttered with his eyes on his plate.
"For what?"
"For staring." I let out a stiffled laugh.
"I don't care, Zack. She is engaged to her four year long boyfriend, and we're not dating so I have no control over you." He took his fork and started playing with the vegetables on his plate.
"So you wouldn't care if I had a girlfriend?" I shrugged a little.
"I guess not. I mean if she makes you happy isn't that what's important?"
"So do you have a boyfriend?" He asked, still not looking me in the face.
"I have no time." He nodded his head and let out sigh.
"Well, I'm miss you a lot."
"Thank you."
"Please say it." He begged setting his fork down and leaning in toward me.
"Say what? We're broken up, Zack. It's nice to see you is all I got."
"This is total bullshit. We hardly even talked about this. The only reason we broke up was because of the space between us. A lot of people can work through this."
"We didn't."
"That's because you didn't try!"
"Me? You're the one who is blaming this all on me! What happened to our plan? You and I were suppose to go to Boston University, but you tell me you're just going on warped tour and that's is. You're out of the band. You told me you already told the guys, and they were looking for a replacement. Did you think I never found out you were lying to me? I knew this wouldn't work the minute you told me that you decided to stay. But who was I to be the one to hold you back? So I let you go, I let you chase your dreams, but Zack you can't get everything. It was either me or the band. You knew that, but I didn't make you choose, you had choosen so long ago, I don't even remember why I stuck around."
"So now you're turning this on me?"
"No it's both our faults, the minute you picked up that bass and played with the guys, I should have known by the look in your eyes. It was almost identical to the look when we first had sex."
"I don't love the band more than you." He muttered. He had already pushed his plate aside, and had his elbows rested on the table.
"We both know that's a lie, because if that was true we wouldn't be here, we'd be in the apartment we were going to get cooking ramen." I paused as he ran his hands over his face. I knew I was being rash but I had.
"But that's okay, Zack," I reached out to touch him, but he flinched away. "You're doing something you love, and I not angry at you? How could I be? You're happy with what you're doing, so I happy for you."
"It's not okay, Mollie! I want to be with you, and in the band. This isn't fair! I can't love this when I don't have you. I won't be happy, because I'll keep remembering that I lost you in exchange of the band." I didn't have anything to say to him so I stayed quite.
"I'll quit, just be with me, Mollie." He begged I was so shocked that I all I could do was shake my head. I couldn't let him do that.
"No, Zack. Don't. Quitting the band isn't going to solve anything, I don't want to be with you anymore. Just stay with the band."
"You don't want to be with me anymore?" I shook my head and thank god for the acting classes I took in high school.
He shook his head and pulled out forty dollars.
"You're a stupid bitch." He slide out of the booth and walked out of the place. I sat with a shocked face. I could feel the tears welling in the corner of my eyes. I couldn't believe he had said that. Not once has Zack ever called me a name. I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes, but after that they kept flowing down my face. I had to let him go, even though every inch of me was telling me to say yes, yes stay here with me Zack. But I couldn't. It wasn't even for sure that he and I would last, and I couldn't take him from the band, not after what he's been through with them. I quickly walked out of the place, avoiding the stares I was getting. With hot tears pouring down my face, the winter wind seemed much colder.

As I walked home I tried to calm my nerves but even when I opened the door and I saw Alex Gaskarth sitting with Penny, I let the tears roll down my face.
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"He actually called you a stupid bitch? " Penny smack Alex's arm as she combed her fingers through my hair with her other hand.
"Sorry, I've just never heard Zack say something like that to a girl." This comment made me cry even more.
Penny gave Alex a glare and wrapped me in a hug. Alex's phone went off and he quickly glanced at it and stepped out into the hall.
"Mollie, if he knew why you were saying it, he wouldn't have said it."
"I guess." Alex walked back into the room as he stratched his neck.
"Umm, I'm suppose to pick up Zack's things." He was looking everywhere but me. Penny left me to sit on my bed as she pulled out his boxes.
"You're friend Zack, has to be the stupidest person on the planet." She kicked the boxes toward Alex. He quickly stacked them on top of each other and picked them up.
I layed back in bed as I watched Penny close the door behind Alex. She turned toward me and shook her head.
"He doesn't know what he's missing." She said pulling back her covers.
"Yes he does."
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