The day seemed to slowly linger on. Each moment being a Living hell.
History-Torture
Chem- Even worse
English- Someone hurt me!
Finally. LUNCH! It seems now that whenever I hear that word, Angles sing.
I came to the table to find Todd, sitting alone, looking deep in thought.
"Dude?" I mumbled softly. He turned his head up from the table. Whoa. What was wrong with his eyes? The looked... Restless and... Un-Todd-like-. "Dude are you okay?" I asked.
He glanced back down at his cupped hands and then back up at me. "Actually... N-no... Not really..." Concerned as ever, I rushed to his side and flung my arms around his neck.
"What's wrong dude?" I mumbled quietly into his ear. I suddenly felt his hand tug at my arm and I moved them back to my sides.
"I... I can't talk about it here... Can we go, I don't know, Somewhere more privet?" He voice squeaked out the last couple of words. I nodded and pulled him out into the court yard. It was winter and Cold So no one in their right mind would even think about coming in here. He looked around quickly.
"Not good enough..." He rushed me down the courtyard stairs and pulled me over to the side. A tiny niche where the door leading into the boiler room is where we ended up. He once again looked nervously around.
"Dude, What is it? What, Are you Pregnant or something?" I asked jokingly. As I laughed slightly to myself, he began harshly glaring at me. "Whoa, okay, okay, What is it?"
"Riley... I think... I think I'm... I'm... I'm..." His voice trailed on. He seemed to be at a loss of words, racking his brain hard on how to put what he was about to say next.
"Your?..." I repeated, trying to get him back on track.
"I'm... Well... I Uh... I'm not like Normal boys Riley..." He said quietly, looking down at his feet.
"Well no duh. You're Todd!"
"No... I don't think you get it... Well... You know how... Uh... Boys um... Like girls?"
"Yeah, What about the band?"
"No, Not the band!" His voice raised slightly. "I mean how boys have sexual attractions to girls!"
"Oh! Yeah... What about it?" I asked. He looked back down at his feet quickly, then up at the sky, and then finally, back down at me.
"I Uh... Don't..." He mumbled quietly.
"What? I can't hear you..."
"I don't..." His voice became only slightly louder.
"You're gonna need to-"
"I THINK I'M GAY AND FOR GODSAKES GET A HEARING AID!" He yelled.
Wait... Did Todd just say... What I think he said?
"Uh..." My voice trailed on. "Dude... Did you just say... You're gay?" I asked, softening my voice to a hushed tone.
"Yes, I'm pretty sure I am... I mean... I don't like girls... And... Well... I've just always been a little bit more, I don't know, Feminine, You know?...Please don't tell anyone..."
"I promise I won't. Scouts Honor." I Crossed my fingers over my heart and then stared back at him. "So... You're really sure about this?"
"I... I'm not completely sure quite yet, But I'm getting there... " He sighed to himself, leaning back against the cold stone wall. "What the hell is Zach gonna think? You don't think he's gonna... You know, Ditch me or anything? do you?"
"Zach's your best friend and it's been that way since the first day of 5th grade. Knowing him, You could be a killer and he'd still be right next to you helping you pull the knife out of the corpse..." I voice began to shake slightly.
"Thank you for that visual... Dude... Are... Are you okay?" My head shot back up to face him. It was only then he got a clear shot of my eyes. "Riley, Have you been...crying?" He asked quietly.
"What? Of course not..."
Thank goodness for my amazing lying skills or else I would have never gotten out of that one.
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For any of you that are interested. *cough* Anyone that answered my Journal*cough*, Hm, Excuse me, I must be getting a cold or something.
Anyway. I hug out with Aiden today. Man He is such a sweet heart! ^^ We talk about everything and even when all of his friends are around he'll talk to me.
But I also hug out with Luke. *sigh*... He's so damn perfect... But... why don't i get the same butterfly's?
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