One Month Later
Some people talk too much. Some people criticize too much. Some people laugh too much.
I however, think too much.
Sitting on a couch, I'm overanalyzing the small things that make the huge things happen in your life.
Something so insignificant can change a whole course of time.
If my grandmother's foot wasn't hitting the pavement the moment that car turned the corner, she would still be alive today.
If my father had chosen to climb that ladder one second later, he might not have broken his arm.
If my sister had missed the train that was delayed, she may have not gotten her job.
It all circulates, finds it way to come back around. Something that you can view as normal, or just a progressive action can be affected and turn into something that is so much more.
It's the same with people.
You find yourself meeting one person.
And before you know how, you somehow get yourself accquainted. Find yourself being able to call them your friends.
If I had never bumped into Shelia at a party, and then saw her a week later in the mall, I would have never have been exposed to all the things happening right now.
I would never have met Ryan. I would never have met Brendon, Jon, or Spencer. Or Josie.
What would I be doing now?
Probably sitting home, watching a movie with a bowl of ice cream in my hands. Or walking around to get some fresh air and hoping not to be mugged in the night. Or even spending some time with my roomate Megan. Or my sister Alison, who I only get to see on weekends.
But those are all possibilities. 'Would's.
I have a problem with overthinking things, especially when I'm left with some time to spare.
And you have plenty of time to spare when Ryan Ross is getting ready to go out.
So, here I am, sitting on his couch. Thinking that if this was a few weeks prior, I wouldn't have even known who he was.
Thinking that if this was before, I wouldn't be right where I am.
Thinking that any moment before this, I wouldn't be seeing his smiling face walking into a room.
A smile that I couldn't help but return.
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I already promised myself that I didn't like Ryan. And I couldn't. And I wouldn't.
There was so many reasons that I shouldn't, that my rationality was taking some serious control of the situation.
For one, he is Shelia's cousin. And it's against some unspoken code to date your friend's family, especially when they are close to each other.
Secondly, I've only known Ryan for a total of three weeks. Twenty-four days, if you want to be precise. But who's counting?
Third, I didn't want to mess up any sort of friendships that the past month has allowed me to forge.
I could go on and on for hours. Believe me, I actually have.
But I don't want to bore myself all over again.
The only problem is, everytime I go and convince myself I don't like Ryan Ross, he just does something stupid.
Like tell a joke that only I can hear. Or flash a smile in my direction everytime no one is talking to me. Or give me a piggy-back ride when I complain my feet are tired.
And things just get harder from there.
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"So you know how you were complaining how you've never been camping?"
"Yes..." I answered Ryan, looking up at him.
"And that you were deprived of a childhood?" he continued, laughing a little.
"Yes.."
We were in Ryan's house, and it was about an hour before anyone else was due to arrive.
"Well, I just wanted to make that up to you."
Upon speaking, he pulled my hand up and made me follow him farther into his house, and towards the room with the television, as opposed to the dining room.
My mouth fell open in surprise, as I saw a tent was set up in the middle of the floor. Next to it were graham crackers, chocolate, and marshmallows.
"Oh Ryan..." I breathed, looking at him in surprise.
I had only made that comment in passing. I barely even remembered it myself, so I could hardly believe that Ryan would.
To anyone else it may seem strange, but to me it seemed perfect.
Like I said.
He makes this so much harder.
Resutlts..<3
So I'm watching some Eragon.
What are you doing?
Oh...rating?
Sounds good to me. =)
