Burning Water--Synyster Gates--Onze

Me:What the fuck do you want? Synyster:I'm sorry. I didn't look at him, I was still pissed adn I didn't want anything to do with him right now. Me:Sorry?!?You want me to believe that? Synyster:It was just a kiss. Me:You know how many times I've heard that? Synyster:Ava, look. Me:And here I thought you were something to me since you helped me get Matt back. Synyster:I still am. Me:Don't talk to me. I walked past him back onto the bus. I took out all my things from his bunk and Zacky and Johnny were watching me. Zacky:What are you doing? Me:Leaving, too much fucking drama.Oh and did I mention, lies? Johnny:What'd Synyster do? Me:Why don't you just ask him? I stormed off the bus and I heard someone follow me. I didn't turn around but I knew who would be behind me. I had a bottle of Jack and some morphine that had been stored away in case of an emergency. I stopped in my tracks and came face to face with Matt. Me:I'll do it, I swear. Matt:Over a guy?C'mon that's not the Avala I know. Me:The Avala you know is tired of being lied to and used. Matt:I'm not lying to you. Me:Yeah, thanks for that. Matt:Just put the bottle and pill down. Me:Um, no. Matt:What about Nick and Drew? Me:What about them? Matt:What about your band? I thought about it and I looked at the bottle in my hand. I seen an animal inside the bottle that I've become. One that was in love with drinking, rage, and lust. I threw the bottle down on the ground and it shattered into pieces. I stormed off and I knew Matt was still following me. No one wouldn't leave me alone and it was just pissing me off. I finally went back on Avenged's bus and stayed away from Synyster the rest of the day. I think I just listened to my music and slept but that was about it. Then there was a concert that night. For some reason, I was a lot darker. So dark that even my fans noticed when I was on stage and my band noticed. It was like a big dark cloud was over me and I was just feeding off it. That night I went out drinking and was partying with just about everyone. Doing shots, chugging, you name it, it went down my throat. Then all I remembered was everything went blank. My band was watching me from a distance and that's when they went to get Matt. Matt was busy with some girl at the time, but he walked over to me and took Synyster with me. Matt:Take her back to the bus. Synyster:What me?Why? Matt:You love her don't you? Synyster:Yeah. Matt:She's passed out, take her back.Watch her. Synyster:But I'm having a good time. Matt:Look, fucker, you're the reason she's like that. Synyster looked down at me and he knew he was right. Synyster:Fine. Synyster picked me up and took me out to the bus that was sitting in the parking lot. I felt myself get layed onto something soft. I must've been half out of it since I decided to say something as Synyster looked at me. Me:Help me please. Synyster:What? Me:It's not me. Synyster just kissed my forehead and pulled himself closer to me. Synyster:I love you. That's all I remember hearing since I was out of it for the rest of the night.
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