Until the Day I Die - A Joel Madden Story43

A few days later, you were released from the hospital. Joel came to pick you up late in the afternoon, fumbling with carriers and strollers and bags. "Joel, give me something" you giggle, taking a carrier from his hand. ^Don't worry, I got it^ The nurse comes in with papers to sign, and then another nurse arrives with Skye and Benjamin. Placing them gently in their careers, you got dressed and ready to leave. Joel noticed a sad look on your face as you put your coat on. ^Baby, what's wrong?^ "Oh, nothing sweetie. Nothing at all" you said, remembering to smile this time. Sighing deeply, you picked up Benjamins carrier and walked down the hallway. Standing in the parking lot, you squinted to find Joel's car. ^Over here^ he points to the first parking space. "Oh" Getting in the car after securing the carriers in the back seat, you stared out the window, feeling a little weird. ^Babe, what's wrong? Do you feel ok?^ "Yeah" you sigh, smiling at him and squeezing his hand. The next weeks were unbearable for you....Skye never stopped crying, and Benjamin was sick as soon as he got home. All you wanted to do was lay in bed and sleep. ^_____ get up, Benjamin needs to eat^ "You can do it, there's formula in the fridge" Joel glared at you and laid Benjamin next to you in the bed. ^Feed him, I have to take care of Skye^ Glaring at Benjamin, who stared up at you innocently, you picked him up and carried him to the kitchen. Getting a bottle out of the cupboard, you poured some milk and sat down with him as he ate. Staring blankly into space as you heard him suck on the bottle, you jumped when Joel touched your shoulder. ^Skye is asleep. How is he?^ "Good, he's eating" Joel kissed your head gently and rubbed your back a little. Benjamin finally finished, and started grabbing your finger playfully. Looking down at him blankly, you got up and laid him down in his crib next to Skye. Giving you this "don't go away I want to play" look, and started to cry a little, but fell asleep before he could continue. Trudging back to bed, you crawled under the covers and curled into a ball, trying to sleep. Joel came in a few minutes later, shutting the door behind him. ^_____, I need to talk to you^
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Jolting awake, bracing yourself on the bed frame and panting a little. The room was dark and silent. Suddenly you heard a high pitched cry...it was Skye prolly waking up from her nap. "Joel!" you yelled, but got no answer. "JOEL!" After a few seconds of no response you begrudgingly got up and walked to the living room where you had set up the nursery. Skye was crying pretty loudly, curling her arms up tightly and kicking her legs a little. Benjamin slept soundly beside her, completely unphased. "God, what a set of lungs" you mumble as you pick her up and rub her back gently. She cries for another 15 minutes, then calms down a bit. Sitting down on the couch with her, rocking her gently and laughing when she grabs at your hair, you feel a smile come to your face. You giggle a little when Skye grabs her foot and tries to bite it, pulling at her sock and cooing sweetly. Laying her down in the crib again, you set out to find Joel. Looking in every room of the house, you just couldn't find him anywhere. "Joel" you called quietly outside, shutting the door gently when you got no response. Opening the front door, you noticed the car wasn't there. "Lemme try the cell" you said out loud as you walked to the kitchen to get the phone. Ring. Ring. Ring. ^Hey, this is Joel. I'm not here right now. Leave me a message and I'll hit you back later...Peace^ "Crap" you mumble as you hang the phone up and plop down on the couch again. You drift off to sleep listening to Benjamin's and Skye's breathing......The next morning, you woke up on the couch, to a muffled ringing of the phone. "Hello?" you answer sleepily. *Hey, how are you today?* "Actually, I feel about 100% better. How are you?" *Good* Benji answered, chomping on some cereal. "Hey, is Joel with you?" *No, he's not with you?* "Nope. He went out last night, and I don't think he's home yet" *Hmmm...I'll call him and see what's up. OK?* "Whatever, he's mad at me about something. He's prolly cooling off" *Yeah, well, I'll call you if I hear anything from him, ok?* "Cool, thanks. I'm gunna go, Benjamin is waking up" *Aww. Tell them I said hi. Later on this week I'll try to stop by to say hi to them, if that's ok* "Of course it's ok. Stop by any time, just call first" You say goodbye and hang up, and go about your day. That night Joel still wasn't home, and still wasn't answering his cell phone. "Joel, it's me. Pick up the damn phone, I want to make sure your ok" Hanging up the phone you sigh a little in frustration. The following days pass by much the same way. Benji always calls in the morning and wakes you up somehow, and you spend the rest of the day taking care of the twins and trying to contact Joel. About a week later, the phone rings unexpectedly at 3 am......
What happened?
"What?" you mumble from under the covers. ^Get up^ Groaning a little, you throw the covers from over your head and sit up on your elbows. "What do you want Joel?" ^I want you to get up and do something. Whats wrong with you baby? I'm worried^ "Jesus Joel, just leave me alone." You lay back down and turn your back to him. He crawls into bed with you and wraps his arms around you tightly. His touch was like a dagger...you didn't want to act this way - deep down you wanted to get up and do something. But there was this overwhelming feeling inside you that wouldn't let you move, feel, speak...anything. It was like something died inside of you. ^I wanna help you^ "Help by going away. I'm just tired is all, I'll be fine in a while" ^No, you won't. You've been this way for weeks. I think you need some help^ Turning around to glare at him, you shove his arms off of you and sit up. "Just leave me the fuck alone, ok" He glared back at you and got up. ^Fine. I'll leave^ You laid back down and went to sleep. Your dream was a weird mix of reality and fiction. You dreamt that you were the baby, but you could think as you always do. So many things were going wrong that you decided to go off on your own, but your a baby so it's hard. A strange looking woman picks you up and puts you in this oven. Feeling the heat rising around you, you try to cry out but have no voice. The oven seems to be falling over,and then you wake up.....
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