Morgan sits on the couch and begins to cry. It happens every where she goes and it becomes horrid after a while. No matter where she is high school, college, her old job, even here, everyone automatically thinks the worst of her. She doesnt go after other peoples boyfriends, in fact she doesnt go after guys at all. The last guy that she had dated.
"Liked to beat me for fun."
Morgan grumbles. Her last relationship had been horrible, and the one before that, the guy had cheated on her regularly enough with her ex best friend that he spent more time with her ex best friend than with her. Morgan shakes her head standing up, moving, hoping the movement of her body will distract her mind. She looks at the phone and grabs it with her bandaged hand putting the wet towel in the sink. Morgan hits speaker phone and dials Brit.
Brit: Hello??
Morgan: (tight voice) Hey
Brit: Whats wrong?
Morgan: I miss you
Tears begin to roll down Morgans face again.
Brit: What happened?
Morgan: I dont know something happened with Dan and Gwen and..
Morgan can hear Brit sigh loudly.
Brit: Everyone blames you?
Morgan: Yea.
Brit: Did you at least try and defend yourself.
Morgan: Well I smacked Tom with a mop but I fell and hurt my elbow.
Brit: (chuckles) I meant did you try to explain it to him?
Morgan walks into the living room and sits the phone on the coffee table and sits in the couch.
Morgan: I tried, didnt work though, I could tell.
Brit: You need to stop acting like everythings ok all the time. Everyone is going to think your bipolar.
Morgan: Why drag people into the fact I feel miserable all the time?
Brit: Because it would explain you a little more, maybe.
Morgan raises her face up to the ceiling as if trying to keep her tears from falling down her face.
Morgan: No one cares anyway.
Brit: Well that isnt true, now is it? I care.
Morgan: Yea..
Brit: Dont start walling up on me Morgan, just because Im not there.
Morgan shakes her head and wipes her tears and smiles at the phone faking a light voice.
Morgan: I dont know why I even called you, Im fine, just over reacting.
Brit: Stop it Morgan, I know you better than that.
Morgan: Its alright, Ill write and it will be Ok.
Brit: Did you ever think maybe you need to deal with this stuff before you write it and discard it?
Morgan: What do you want me to do Brit, have sex with some random guy just so they leave me alone?
Brit: Uhh, ew!
Morgan: Well, thats probably what it would take.
Brit sighs.
Brit: Try dating someone.
Morgan: No.
Brit: Daniel was as dog, not all guys beat on women Morgan.
Morgan: No
Brit: And Alex was a dog, and Kara was a slut! You just have bad luck with guys, but you dont even show interest in any guys and that is what gets you into trouble More.
Morgan: I was just talking to Dan, Brit. He needed someone to talk to, He reminded me of Andy, you remember, before the baby was born?
Brit: Yea, I know that, but they dont. Here you are probably totally shutting yourself off from everyone, then suddenly your talking to a guy, a taken guy.
Morgan sighs and pulls her knees to her chest again and cries into her knees.
Morgan: I just..want to finish this and go home, disappear from sight.
Brit: Not going to happen Morgan, your in the publics eye. Not only that, if what I have been hearing is true, your writing is starting to suffer.
Morgan: Yea..
Brit and Morgan become silent as Morgan sniffles then whips her eyes
Morgan: I dont know how to fix this Brit.
Brit: Well usually you dont fix them, usually you just hole yourself up and write and wait for it all to blow over.
Morgan: You make me sound like a hermit.
Brit: Hey I call them how I see them. Talk to someone Morgan, you gotta stop pretending your happy all the time.
Morgan nods.
Morgan: I know.
Brit: (sighs) Look, Not ever guy is going to beat you within an inch of your life and not ever guy is going to cheat on you and tell you how worthless you are and how lucky you are to have them, OK?
Morgan: Yea, right, thats the only type that seems to like me
Brit: Bull shit and you know it.
Morgan shakes her head instantly closing up again.
Morgan: Brit I have to go, the battery is running out
Brit: Oh, ok then, call me later tonight after it charges.
Morgan: You got it!
Brit: later Morgan, I LOVE YA!!
Morgan: Love you too Brit.
**click**
Morgan closes the phone, the battery still fully charged. Morgan moves her elbow a bit and winces. Morgan stands up hearing Toms door click closed.
Did he hear my conversation? God dont be conceited Morgan, he doesnt even care.
Morgan shakes her head and walks carefully into the kitchen and rummages around and finding that she really isnt hungry she sits back down in the living room. Morgan stares blankly at the black TV screen remembering her last two relationships. Tears start streaming down her face and she shakes her head growling in frustration at herself.
"Stupid Morgan, quit crying! Your so pitiful. Smile stupid, people like it better when you smile."
Morgan plasters a fake smile on her face and pushes everything down. She begins to clean the living room not wanting to sit still. Suddenly her phone rings. Morgan walks over and sees that it is her little brother she puts it on speaker phone so she can keep cleaning.
Morgan: Hey David how goes it?
David: Hey!! How is England?
Morgan: Well its..
David: Yea yea, anyway, can you do me a favor?
Morgan: Depends on what it is?
David: My birthday is in a few weeks, can you get me pictures of some awesome historical points.
Morgan: You got it kid.
David: Cool, well have to go, thanks Morgan
Morgan: By-
**click**
"Bye."
Morgan sighs, and closes her phone and finishes rearranging stuff. Morgan sees Tom walking down the stairs and she plasters her smile onto her face.
"Hey, sorry about..earlier."
Tom shrugs and grumbles.
"Alright."
Morgan nods and walks over to the couch and hops into it and relaxes a bit. Tom walks in a little later with a sandwich and sits in a chair. Morgan and Tom sit in silence as Morgan plays with a pen in her hand.
"Let me see your elbow."
Morgan hesitates a second.
"Its alright, just bruised I think."
Morgan chuckles.
"Yuen would have murdered you if you broke it."
Tom looks at Morgan seriously causing Morgans smile to fade and her to shift uncomfortably. Tom sighs causing Morgan to look at him confused.
"Im sorry I got so angry at you, its just.."
"Dont worry about it, I over react all the time."
Tom begins to shift as if contemplating saying something. Morgan looks at him worried.
"You alright?"
"What? Yea, Im fine."
"Sorry about the mop thing."
Tom stares at Morgan confused then as if suddenly remembers nods.
"If you would have broken it, my mum would have killed you."
Morgan laughs and Tom smiles watching Morgan. Morgan stares at Tom the two seeming to stare off. Suddenly Tom becomes extremely serious.
"Not all guys are like that you know, hitting women."
Morgan instantly stiffens up Oh god he heard, do something, say something, blow it off, laugh.. Morgans mind tries to get her to react as if its nothing but her body wont react she just remains stiff. Tom watches her and Morgan snaps herself out of it.
"Um, I, um..its..I, need to go to the bathroom."
Morgan stands up and quickly rushes back up to the bathroom and closes the door. She sits on the floor knowing she has only a few minutes before Tom unlocks it. She shakes her head trying to come up with a good excuse for what Tom heard. But after 20 minutes nothing happens and Morgan opens the door and peeks out seeing Toms bedroom door closed. Morgan carefully walks out of the bathroom and down the stairs to the empty lower level. Morgan sighs in relief and flicks on her lap top the next scene suddenly in her head. As she types suddenly the phone rings. Morgan looks at it annoyed until DAN Flashes on the screen. Morgan picks it up.
Morgan: Hello?
Dan: Um, everything calmed down?
Morgan: Yea.
Morgan puts the phone on speaker phone not wanting to hold it to her hear.
Dan: You didnt kill Tom did you?
Morgan: No, not at all.
Dan: Im sorry you got into the middle of all this.
Morgan: It isnt being in the middle that bothers me, its when I didnt even know I was in the middle that bothers me.
Dan laughs a bit, but it sounds forced.
Morgan: So whats up?
Dan: Gwen called a break.
Morgan: She dumped you?
Dan: No.
Morgan: She called the engagement off?
Dan: No.
Morgan: She said she still loves you?
Dan: Yea..
Morgan: Apologize
Dan: FOR WHAT?! I didnt do anything to her, she just suddenly called.
Morgan: Doesnt matter, she blames you for something. Best to apologize then figure it out later.
Dan: Im not going to apologize for something I didnt do.
Morgan: Well from what I gathered from my little conversation with Tom, she thinks you and I are up to something.
Dan: WHAT?!?!?
Morgan: Yep.
Dan: That is ridiculous.
Morgan sighs throwing her hair over her face to hide it from the phone.
Morgan: Look, dont get me wrong, I am your friend and all, but Gwen doesnt like me for some reason.
Dan: But..
Morgan: No its fine, whatever, I dont care, the point is, she would feel better if you talked about all of your problems with like Tom or Rupert or Emma even, and if talking with me causes all that drama its better that you and I dont talk alone, you know?
Dan: I am not going to..
Morgan: Yea you are, cause Im not gunna let you mess things up.
Morgan hangs up the phone and sighs.
"There goes my only friend. Oh well, I still have you dont I."
Morgan tackles her lap top and hugs it. She feels the lump in her throat and she holds her head up again and stares at the ceiling.
"Stupid allergies."
...
***click***
Dan smacked the phone down hard, got up and kicked the table with his foot. Emma and Rupert watched in complete horror. Dan knelt over the phone with his hands and stared down at it. He had repeatedly tried to call you, but you had not picked up though this did not fool Dan for he knew perfectly well you were in fact home. He had talked to Morgan on the phone who had sounded utterly distressed with all this drama that had been shed upon her. Dan sympathized upon her for he knew she was innocent. Dan didnt know whom to blame. You? Morgan? Tom? Himself? It was all just a big misunderstanding that was blown way out of proportion.
"D-Dan?" Rupert called out cautiously afraid that Dan might lash out at him.
"What? Huh?" he said turning around. He completely forgot that Emma and Rupert were still in the room with him.
"Shes not picking up is she?" Emma said matter-of-factly.
"No." he sighed. "Obviously."
"But can you really blame her? She only acted on what she saw and plus Tom was there as well so who can say twp head are always better than one since you very well know in this situation-"
"Yes, I know Emma."
"Sorry. I had a Hermione moment." She chuckled forcibly.
"I say call one more time. Its worth a shot!" Rupert encouraged. Dan picked up the phone and dialed your number. After several rings someone finally picked up.
Dan: Hello, Gwen?
Amisha: Whos asking?
Dan: Its Dan.
Amisha: (sighs)
Dan: Can I speak to Gwen?
Amisha: (aggravated sigh) Everyone thought your intentions were noble even though you got my daughter pregnant at bloody seventeen! (mans voice in background)
Alfonso: Dan I think it would be wise to let the fire settle down a bit.
Dan: But Alfonso I really need to speak to Gwen.
Alfonso: Dan I dont know the details about whats brewing between you two, but-
Dan: So youre just going to take your daughters side!!!
Alfonso: Im not on anyones side Dan! The only thing Im concerned about is the future of my grandchild. Now if were done Im hanging up.
Dan: But-
***click***
"DAMN!!!" Dan said picking up the phone and tossing it out the balcony window. He turned around and looked furiously for his keys.
"What are you doing Dan?" Rupert asked alarmed as Dan snatched his keys off the bed.
"Where are you going!?" Emma yelped and grabbed Dans arm. "Youre just going to make it worse." Dan snatched his arm away and headed out to the elevator. He made it to the lobby and ran into Gary.
"Oh ho! Look who we have hear. Its a little late to be going out dont you think?" Gary eyed the keys in his hand.
"I have to go." He said walking away not looking at Gary for fear he might read his eyes.
When he finally reached your house he got out of his car and banged on your door. Your mother opened it but just before she could close it on him he forced entry.
"What in tar nation are you doing!?" she yelled as Dan ran up the stairs. She was about to go after him but your father caught her.
"Let him go." He said and your mother forced herself out of his grip.
"You may trust him but if my daughters hurting because of him then he doesnt earn mine!"
...
Dan walked up to your door and didnt knock. You looked up from your bed and wiped tears away from your cheeks. Dan looked at you and then to the phone by your bed that was off its hook. You stood up and straightened yourself out. You shot him a glare.
"What are you doing hear?" you asked and Dan looked at your furiously.
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOURE DOING BLAMING MORGAN!!??" he hollered. You looked taken aback since Dan never hollered at you in the past.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!?"
"How come you called Tom?"
"How come you called Morgan?"
"Because shes my friend, but not anymore since she broke it off!"
"Sounds like a broken affair." You sneered under your breath.
"What?" Dan asked even though he heard you perfectly well.
"Just leave Dan before this gets out of hand!"
"NO!" you looked shocked. "HOW AM I BLOODY SUPPOSE TO MAKE YOU BELIEVE THAT NOTHING IS GOING ON!" he shouted. "I HATE YOU RIGHT NOW FOR ACTING SO CHILDISH!"
"CHILDISH!? DONT GO THERE DAN!" you yelled back though the only thing echoing in your mind was I hate you right now.
"Morgan doesnt want to be friends now because of you!"
"What the hell did I do? This is making no sense."
"Youre blaming her for our break! She told me so!"
"I dont know what you heard, but I didnt blame her!" entirely you thought.
"How am I suppose to love a liar!?" you just looked at him expressionless. It seemed as if the world stopped around you and you were trapped in this horrible moment. Re-thinking what he said he tried to repent. "I didnt mean it-"
"Dont." you warned putting your hand up. "Just dont speak!"
"Gwen." He said taking a step forward as you stepped back. A tear trickled down your face.
"LEAVE!!!" you shouted and he took another step. He was only two feet away from the door. You picked up a frame with a picture of you and Dan in it and threw it at him but he dodged it. The glass shattered around the picture. Isnt it ironic? you thought. Defeated, Dan left.
You looked around the room crying, looking for an escape from this world. You walked over to your dresser and threw everything off of it and continued over to the walls and knocked over all the frames. You continued to trash your room until there was nothing left. You went into the bathroom and locked it. You heard a knock at your door.
"Just leave me alone."
"Gwen open the door." Your father pleaded.
"Please just leave me alone?" you heard his footsteps lead out your door. You looked at yourself in the mirror.
"I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARHGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!" you hollered at yourself as tears poured out of your eyes. You made a fist and punched the mirror, shattering it into pieces. You knelt down and sat on the floor and looked at your bloodied hand. You were numb. Tears fell unemotionally down your face as you just stared at the wall blankly. You looked around and picked up a piece of glass and held it up to your wrist. For a few minutes you just stared. You moved the shattered glass away from your wrist and lifted up your skirt, revealing old scars on your thighs and upper legs. You lifted the glass and cut a deep gash into your leg sharing a place with the older scars. You looked at it not feeling anything. As you bled you sung to your self softly, "Hush little baby...dont you cry"
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Thanks for reading. Please do rate. I like this pic of Emma cuz she sometimes dresses the same way i dress. Thought i'd share my bohemian taste with ya! =)
