Loss

This time, it was different.
My heart should have been shattered,
but I can't feel my heart anymore.
I gave it to him long ago,
and even though he's discarded it,
I don't want it back.
What use have I for a heart now?
I will never offer my heart
to anyone so unconditionally,
not again.
But I don't feel much anymore.
Just flickers of feelings
and so many happy memories
and dreams for the future.
I made the mistake
of imagining no other future
than one which included him
with me.
Even though
I saw it coming,
I still did not want it to.
But I couldn't stop it.
Only he had the power to do that.
We only had one enemy to fight,
Doubt,
and we lost the battle,
and each other,
and our hearts.
We lost.