I'm This Guy...

My Life...
I tried to tell you
Who I was
What I am
There's no because
I couldn't face you when you cried
When I told you
That I liked guys
You were disappointed
That I know
You just told me
To get out and go
And unlike Dad, you just cried
While he got angry
And uptight
He taunted me
With his fists
Everyday, it was the same
You would cry
And he'd, hit me again
I remember one day
I met this guy
I was happy
And I didn't try
He came up
And we began to talk
Soon it became something more
I looked forward to everyday
Just for the moment
That I'd see him again
It went that day for a while
Then one day...
He broke my heart
He didn't care
That I was torn apart
I felt like I deserved all of this
Was I a toy?
I didn't want this!
I found solice in a blade
It helped me keep
My emotions at bay
No one expect
That I would cut
But now, again
I'm in a rut
I wish that I could talk to God
But what if he's like my mom?
Or my dad?
I can't help that
Everyday I'm sad...
There are few people that know of this
Some of them
Were like the rest
So now the pain inside
Is what I hide
And I've lost count
Of the tears I've cried...