I wanted to imagine it differently
Maybe the waving of flags
People crying as I drive off into the sunset
Or maybe
As I get onto the plane
All my friends wave good-bye
As I disappear forever
What if it happened
Where I just walked off across
The beach and just kept walking
Until I was just a memory
In peoples minds
I always thought things would be different
People would never care
So what if I disappeared
No one cared
Not my friends
Not my family
Why would anyone cry over me?
Just a guy
Just a guy who is messed up
Just a guy who can't do anything right
Or maybe just a guy screaming to get
People to listen to my cries for help
But people never listened close enough
That is how I wanted to imagine it
But this...
This is not how I wanted it to happen
The screaming of my friends
The crying full of anguish and pain
The poundng of fists on my locked
Bedroom door
I've made up my mind
No one can stop me
Slowly, each pill slides down
One, two, three
I can hear my friends behind my locked
Door begging me to stop
Seven, eight, nine
I start crying but I'm not sure why
All I want is the pain to go away
Fourteen, fifteen, sixteen
I start to realise what I'm doing
But my body just keeps going
Twenty-five, twenty-six, twenty-seven
I lose count and start over again
Everything goes oddly silent and still
Like the whole world has stopped
The pounding in my ears grow louder
I see my friends barge into my room
But everything is in slow motion
I close my eyes and relax but a slap
On my face brings me back to reality
All I want to do is go to sleep
I close my eyes again and see a flash of red
Did I see hell?
Probably
I let my body slowly float away and I sleep
But blinding white lights pierce through
My eyelids
How could it be that I saw the flash of red
From hell and the flash of white from heaven
I try to talk but I can't
I try to move but something won't let me
I wake up with tubes down my mouth
And in my arms
Friends screaming and crying
But laughing as I awake from a long sleep
They are all here to see me
Why are they here?
They weren't suppose to miss me
Wait...
I'm not even suppose to be here
But I saw in my friends eyes
They cared
Every tear shed was a sign that
They needed me
This is not how I imagined it
Maybe the waving of flags
People crying as I drive off into the sunset
Or maybe
As I get onto the plane
All my friends wave good-bye
As I disappear forever
What if it happened
Where I just walked off across
The beach and just kept walking
Until I was just a memory
In peoples minds
I always thought things would be different
People would never care
So what if I disappeared
No one cared
Not my friends
Not my family
Why would anyone cry over me?
Just a guy
Just a guy who is messed up
Just a guy who can't do anything right
Or maybe just a guy screaming to get
People to listen to my cries for help
But people never listened close enough
That is how I wanted to imagine it
But this...
This is not how I wanted it to happen
The screaming of my friends
The crying full of anguish and pain
The poundng of fists on my locked
Bedroom door
I've made up my mind
No one can stop me
Slowly, each pill slides down
One, two, three
I can hear my friends behind my locked
Door begging me to stop
Seven, eight, nine
I start crying but I'm not sure why
All I want is the pain to go away
Fourteen, fifteen, sixteen
I start to realise what I'm doing
But my body just keeps going
Twenty-five, twenty-six, twenty-seven
I lose count and start over again
Everything goes oddly silent and still
Like the whole world has stopped
The pounding in my ears grow louder
I see my friends barge into my room
But everything is in slow motion
I close my eyes and relax but a slap
On my face brings me back to reality
All I want to do is go to sleep
I close my eyes again and see a flash of red
Did I see hell?
Probably
I let my body slowly float away and I sleep
But blinding white lights pierce through
My eyelids
How could it be that I saw the flash of red
From hell and the flash of white from heaven
I try to talk but I can't
I try to move but something won't let me
I wake up with tubes down my mouth
And in my arms
Friends screaming and crying
But laughing as I awake from a long sleep
They are all here to see me
Why are they here?
They weren't suppose to miss me
Wait...
I'm not even suppose to be here
But I saw in my friends eyes
They cared
Every tear shed was a sign that
They needed me
This is not how I imagined it
