Notice me yet??

tonight ive had enough
cant stand to be here anymore
everythings changed
its no longer the same
my mum is addicted
in love with her beer
i love her
but she makes me fear
I dont want to be like that
but that is were im headin
cant control my thoughts anymore
just put another pill in
they say they cant help me
unless i want to help myself
maybe i do
but maybe i just want the attention
the attention ive never had from my mother
but have longed for ever
i tried so hard to make her see me
but im nothing compared to my brother
overdosing
hospitalised
nothing left
she didnt care
call me lazy
im doing to get out of school
i miss u when i step out the door
cos i no i have less time to make u love me
everyday its all the same
stay in bed,
daydream it away
pretend im in a better place
wake up to face the harsh coldness that is reality
realise theres nothing left for me
all hope is gone she dosnt care
end my life
lets see if she notices yet