Hate

i hate you with every being of existence
what did i do to you?
that you tortured me like that
the scars i still carry with me today
and they ll never go away
did it make your life any better
knowing that you ruined mine?
does it feel good to know
someone still cries out inside?
and its all because of you
has trust issues because you shattered there hopes in two
i was naive
i was little
i made mistakes
but i never deserved what you did to me
made my life hell
i will never be the same
i hated it waking up
going to school
being alive pretending everything was alright
years after it happened
does it matter i still think about
it still haunts me
you turned everyone against me
was it all just a game for you
was it entertaining watching my world fall apart
while you laughed and enjoyed your beautiful life
that everyone was on your side
hating on me
while i was all i bymyself
with no one beside me
i was alone
yet you still picked on me
hurt me on the inside and out
you were older than me
stronger than me more loved
you were supposed to be role model
instead you made me miserable
i was pathetic useless couldnt do anything about it
had weak judement didnt know any better
you played so many games
made everyone pretend to love me with you
and i fell for it
what did you do make things worse?
i ll never forget the way you laughed at me
and now years passed
and your life is still beautiful
you were so smart
so talented
graduated with so much pride
and im still the sad one figuring out who i am
you said sorry and expected me to forgive you
i can forgive you
but how can i ever forget the way you ruined my childhood?
i still shiver thinking about it
all the horrible things you did to me
one day it ll be okay
till then i will keep on hating you for what you did to me
with every being of my existence.