I dreamed...
I dreamed i was a princess.
I was dancing through the grass
And there were the prettiest flowers I´d ever seen.
But beside me they were nothing.
That’s what I was,
A beautiful princess.
And my whole life was so happy.
I had a loving and caring family.
Mother, father
Brother…
They protected me
and every whish was their command.
Out of love they did everything.
I was so happy.
But then I woke up.
And darkness surrounded me again.
I was at home…
In the inside I was beautiful like in the dream.
Sweet, innocent, kind and caring.
But the rest was,
A nightmare…
Darkness kept me captive
And my whole existence here
Was so sad…
I felt uncomfortable in my real life.
So I got to sleep again.
Dreaming of that beautiful world,
That didn´t exist,
Whishing it was real.
Hoping, hoping everyday.
Why wasn´t this dream my fate?
Wasn´t I good enough ?
Did I deserve to rot in this hateful life ?
To be raped by my father and brother,
And to be ignored by my mother?
But I kept on dreaming and whishing,
Because I believed in god.
Dreaming was the only thing
That gave me strength,
And kept my heart alive.
So I dreamed.
I hoped…
