Teddy bear and bouncy ball.
Bare feet walking down the hall.
Uncle, are you sleeping yet?
You’re wide awake all night, I bet.
Terrified to hold my hand.
You try, but I don’t think you can.
Is your smile really real?
Wounds to the heart never heal.
Uncle, please don’t run away.
I’m just a child. Sit and stay.
The others stand there, paralyzed.
No, I don’t think they realize.
“A monster! Freak!” They all run home.
They leave me standing all alone.
You find me idle in the street...
The sand doesn’t admit defeat.
Please forgive me and forget?
You haven’t since the day we met.
Teddy bear and bouncy ball.
Hear the raven’s lonely call.
Sobbing on the balcony.
Why has my God forgotten me?
Uncle, please hold me so tight.
I feel like I’ve broken tonight.
But you want fantasies to turn
Into the darkness you have yearned.
Knives hovering in the air.
Uncle, dear, I thought you cared.
But here you are in front of me.
Your mask won’t hide identity.
I know it’s you. And you can’t hide.
Without your weapons, I have died.
To think, you never even tried.
This love; it’s always been a lie.
Didn’t care, a heart of stone.
Love yourself and fight alone.
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Mother’s voice and shifting sand.
The blood forever stains my hands.
But I’m not guilty, not afraid.
Not after the price I paid.
I want to please you and I will.
After I have made the kill.
He’s my prey, his life’s all mine.
I’ve left my other self behind.
Mercy is a luxury.
Love is an amenity.
It will all come spilling out.
Nothing he can live without.
Mother, it all goes to you.
You’ll be full once I’m all through.
Mother’s voice and shifting sand.
“Her words forever curse this land.”
It’s going to open. I’m such a good boy.
I smile and I feel your joy.
Starving since the day you died,
Your hunger will be satisfied.
It’s my blood... so warm and wet.
A feeling I won’t soon forget.
I’m growing faint. You’ll catch me, right?
I promise I won’t lose this fight.
He won’t escape now. He’s all yours.
Your pleas, my dear, won’t be ignored.
His words reach me. I listen close.
The words I fear. The words I know.
I feel alive. I feel complete.
Goodbye, Mother. Rest in peace.
Settle in your place above.
Because I’ve found it. I’ve found love.
