so what's a girl to do?

It's sad when you realize, for yourself, that he has constantly fucked you over. You feel like shit because you're not standing up for yourself and you're letting absolutely everything slide without a thought in your mind. But what's worse is when other people start to realize it. It's when you get told, not only by your own friends, but his friends, that they have no idea how you put up with this. How you put up with him fucking weaving in and out of your life like he seems to be. You're taking the fresh start into account but like, where does he get off? You think to yourself that if he actually loved you, like really loved you, like he claims, he wouldn't make you put up with this shit; not at all. And it hurts to think that he may leave you again, it really does. So what's a girl to do? We give out too many chances, build false hopes and shower the ones who let us down with love; for what? What do we get in return other than used up chances, crushed hopes and thunderstorms? We get nothing, absolutely nothing. Yet we still put up with it like we have to, like it's what we're meant to do. But it's not, not by far. Something I also find is that, when things are good, we exaggerate. I know it's like some sort of pros and cons list over here, but we do. We get ourselves all worked up when we sense the slightest thing to be off. If that's a gift; I'm not sure. Like when he doesn't call like he said he would, even though just that morning he said that he just loves you too much and doesn't want anything to happen to you. Yet we blow it out of proportion probably just because we can. We eventuallyall have to learn that we have to appreciate things when they're good because we know how miserable we are whenthey're bad. So do it for yourself. Smile because you have him. Love without holding back. Cherish the moments you spend together. Hug him and promise you'll never let go. Why? Because there's a girl out there wishing to be with that same guy you're holding in your arms. There's a girl out there who desperatly wishes for that connection you have. There's a girl out there who just wants the pain to stop and feels like the only way to accomplish that is to be with this guy. There's a girl out there who wishes to be you. Imagine your life without the one you love, then imagine living that presently. You have to stop taking it for granted; because we've all been that girl.