Unfair

Why do you do this to me?
Is it for your pleasure or my pain?
I don't understand why...
What will you gain?
You've taken away my life
By messing with my heart
You've taken away my sanity
And torn me all apart
Now I am too scared to see
That you are still there
You will be waiting to hurt me
And it just isn't fair.
You have everything you want
When i'm still so depressed.
You are going out
When I can't even get dressed
It's not fair how you smile
When all I do is weep.
It's not fair how you laugh
When I cut so deep.
I hate myself
For hating you
It's not fair
But it's true.
You fuel my anger
You fuel my hate
You fuel my happiness
And hold my fate
I don't know why you do this
But it's not fair
And I can't wait for you to fall
So that I won't care
But you still seem to be happy
And I still seem sad
It's so unfair
And makes me mad
You have ruined my life
You have destroyed my friends
You will always be there
Until my life ends
And for that I hate you
And I hate this painful life
So maybe I should end it
With this very knife
And when I do I will smile
And whisper your name
That way you can read them
And know you're to blame.