I have changed so much, turned to the dark side they say, I have only come to understand the cruel world I say. not even a year ago I was a good little church girl, now they say im emo, or im gothic FUCK THE LABELS MAN!! all of a sudden my parents have taken special interest in me, asking how am I? am I allright? talking to me like Im in special ED. why are you treating me this way? is it the pictures I have on my computer/mp3 player? is it the way I act or talk? is it the music Im listening to? or the way Im sorta dressing? they just dont understand, but now even my mom talks of suicide sometimes, mother like daughter?
will my family eveer see the true me? the me I have finally fell in love with? in my religeon this me would be a disgrace, but I feel that God wanted, needed me to be this way. I feel at peace, yet too painful to look at the world. I feel powerful this way, my way, except that Im lost. what is my way? lost, pain, revenge, hate, but with understanding, giving out too much love for it to be stomped on, crying at every good love that said goodbye to me, too mature for my age. its not a dress, a look, a fashion, a lable, its a way of life... MY WAY OF LIFE!!!
