How do I feel while you’re off having fun?
How do I feel while my voice isn’t being heard?
How do I feel when you treat my like dirt?
How do I feel? How do I feel?!
I feel like I’m a lesser person
I feel like you just want to use me
You are abusing me
You abuse my loyalty, trust, and friendship
Why can’t you hear?
Why can’t you see?
I’m here in front of you
Screaming
A silent scream
A scream muted by your arrogance
A presence turned ghostly by your neglect
When you notice my being there you ask “Are you okay?”
“How do you feel?”
I feel like an old beaten up rag doll
Thrown to the bottom of a toy chest
Only coming out when you want to play with it
Mostly spending it’s time in the dark
The weight of trying to be acknowledged by you
Crushing me
Unable to leave
Unable to breathe
Unable to move
Unable to die
That’s how I feel.
