I watched each day
Him
Not noticing the game he played
Every month or so
A new girl on his arm
I knew I should’ve
Been disgusted
With alarm
But one afternoon
He looked straight at me
And said “I’ve been watching you”
My heart stopped
My brain turned to
Mush
Trying to comprehend
The words of my
Crush
He walked to me
He took my hand
Hey pulled me up
And made me stand
He looked me up
He looked me down
All the while I didn’t
Make a sound
I could barely breathe
Thinking he was finally
Noticing me
He pulled me down
Into his lap
And for a while
That’s where I sat
In the morning before the bell
Or at that table with his friends
And after the football games
There I was once again
Being with him
Meant automatically
Having friends, true
Meant there was no party
I wasn’t invited to
He played his game
He had his fun
One night he loved me
And then he was done
This game he played I lost
And for this there was a cost
I’m 16 with a kid
That sucks don’t it
And as for the father
He don’t give a shit
This is the game
Of loaded dice
Of unfair odds
It seems so nice
Living in the fog
Popular, wanted
Envied, and adored
The feeling you
Got a pass through the door
You don’t feel used
Played with or toyed
And you don’t feel like
They’re whispering
Your name
That’s only after
You try to leave
The game
